Short Story: “The House of Boredom”

Markus Grady smiled and laughed and slapped backs and thanked people for a gift that he was not happy to get. His employers in the Ministry of Works, women and men whom he neither respected nor liked, had in view of his years of service seen fit through some advancement rule to favor and congratulate him with a promotion and a raise. He was twenty-two years, now, into his work procuring truesilver for the walls around Queen’s Bower. The usual career was thirty. His raise amounted, per year, to seventy ducats.

            Markus Grady was in his opinion the only true man in truesilver procurement. Everyone else now working in the office was either a woman or a fata, and fatae were almost women.

            Markus’s father, Grady Lask, had served with honor in the proud wars; moreover Grady Lask had grown up in one of those villages where everyone of a certain age had served in the great war against the Adamantine Host, including both of Markus’s paternal grandparents and most of his great-aunts and great-uncles. Men had been more manly then, and women had also, he averred.

            “—fourteen years in the Raj, in service there,” someone was prating. “Herbert was lost then, but—”

            Markus sighed and wandered into the kitchen, where Eswral, in her happy-promotion-Markus sash, was fiddling with one of the debugger cassettes for the coffeemaker. “You didn’t like your party much better, did you?” he asked Eswral.

            She flicked her head back and forth no and her funereal cypress-green wood-fata’s eyes looked enormous and exhausted. Before her own promotion she had mimeographed many of the same kinds of documents for the procurers that Markus produced; now she reviewed supposed errors in those documents, occasionally signed off on truesilver research and development for the Ministry’s Office of Futures, and seemed for the most part a lot happier. It surprised Markus to see her look so sad for him, or because of him.

            “You okay, Eswral?” Markus asked.

            Eswral Riel Síreth yanked at the magnetic tape in the debugger, murmured a few incantations, yanked at the tape again, then started winding it back int to left-hand side of the cassette. Once that was done she fed the cassette into the coffeemaker and turned the machine on. A pleasing burbling sound started up. “Feeling a bit better now,” she said.

            “Was it like this when you were younger?” Markus asked her. Then he said “Never mind.”

            “I wonder,” she said. The coffeemaker kept burbling. Out in the big room the person talking about Herbert’s service in Equatorial Albany was still going on and on.

            “Of course it’s Kingsport, on the Kingsflood, when a man is on the throne. Or a few other kinds of things too besides a man, I suppose. Anyway, Herbert when he was stationed in Queensport—”

            “Have you ever read some of Weatherhead’s adventure novels?” Eswral suddenly asked Markus just as their coffee was beginning to be expressed into the office’s battered old copper coffeepot.

            “My dad wouldn’t let me. He’d talk about all the things they got wrong.”

            “He fought in one of the wars against Smier?”

            “Not exactly against Smier. More some of the bush wars in Equatorial…yes.”

            “My parents are a lot like some of the people you hear about resisting Policy in the Equator,” said Eswral meditatively. “They didn’t want electrification, radiofication, water purification, alterenchantment, population policy, health counseling, resource rationalization, monarchism, communism. With them that has to do with their age, though. Mid-three-digits, and that was when I was born.” The coffeemaker dinged. “Hazelnut, right?” she said to Markus, raising her hands over their pair of cups.

            He nodded. Eswral—he looked at her the way he might have looked at a medlar, or at a demitasse, something small and serving mostly as a conduit of a larger force, a vivifying force like food or drink, into his existence. What force that was, in Eswral’s case, was difficult to define. It wasn’t sex; she was a fata, and probably a homosexual, and Markus was in any case mostly-happily married. It wasn’t death; fatae lived practically forever barring misadventure and Eswral’s work had nothing to do with blood magic or with war. It was a comfort, but some kind of public, civic comfort. Eswral was a bite-sized case of it. He supposed—and she would have agreed with them—that they were all bite-sized cases of many things, more or less, here in this office in the Ministry of Works without the grave problems that the Ministry of Cults, for instance, was having.

            “Tide goes in, tide goes out, things get bought, things get sold,” someone was intoning outside the kitchen.

            “They never have much to say, do they?” Markus asked Eswral. She just gave him a wry, tense smile, and continued murmuring the hazelnut incantation as they commenced to sip at the rims of their coffee cups.

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Neri Gwaient Gwaifin made them choose between lawn games and watching a movie for the “team” part of Markus’s promotion party, which was also supposed to make up for a lackluster birthday party. Everyone other than Markus and Eswral wanted to do both. Neri popped in a videotape of a historical war movie, not about the wars in which Grady Lask and his progenitor and progenitrix had fought but about something much further back, before Maldry had incorporated the fatae or begun establishing the Equatorial Provinces, before the Ministry of Works or the Ministry of Cults. Back when what you had happening in your life, what you were allowed or not allowed or ordered or not ordered to do, was purely a matter of your lord or lady, his or her vicinity. It had some things in common with the nostaliga that Markus and Eswral had just been talking about, but Eswral, seeing it dramatized and flickering, found that it now turned her stomach. She had no interest in telling Markus this, certainly less than no interest in telling Markus why.

            They moved on to croquet. Eswral and Neri, as usual, both played it ungraciously—sending each other constantly, sending Markus or Ledelly or Saran Gom constantly, sometimes even yelling “Fore!” when they did. Saran Gom got petulant about it. Something about his petulant tone of voice made Markus realize that he was the person who had been prating about tides earlier.

            Saran Gom’s job was to cross-check two or three different kinds of receipt that were kept of some of the truesilver procurement deals. There were almost never discrepancies in the receipts; he spent most of his time on the job singing, and he had a good voice, a lovely tenor that the others generally enjoyed hearing when the door to his office was open. It had not occurred to Markus that he might be a sore loser when it came to croquet, any more than it had occurred to him that he might say banal things about the tide when he did not have to.

            Eswral knew Saran Gom a bit better than did Marcus. His behavior surprised her less. The receipt cross-checking had almost a medicinal effect, as far as she had seen, on some of his more obnoxious habits of thought. It soothed him. He got both fatuous and frenetic otherwise, as today. She would offer, she thought, to go home with him—not for the usual euphemistic reason so many had or claimed to have these days—rather to sit with him and watch a movie together or listen to some music, that same lovely style that he liked to sing. He would calm down eventually, in a relaxed evening with a friend from work. They would put on Hold’s Harpers or The Last Auroras, something big and sweeping and dramatic and set in the distant past, and Saran Gom would eat popcorn and Eswral would eat grapes and cheese, and they would doze and he would relax and she would send him home.

            They had, as fatae, at once compressed and extended feelings of time. When she looked in her photo albums at the cat that she had had as a child, she was looking back more than a hundred years; the photos, were they to be taken out from behind the yellowed cellophane, would have been brittle to the touch. She experienced those hundred years as far shorter than a human being would have, yet she did experience them, and she was still young. The cat, Missy or Peachy they had called her, had been dead for eighty-seven years, and had not had a short life. She had suffered towards the end, and it had taken Eswral decades to be able to look at her kitten pictures without tearing up, yet those decades had been as a year or two, maybe, for an entity like Markus.

            “Imagine Maldry before all this, before the Ministry of Works, before the invasions of the Equatorial Provinces…” Neri was saying. “Well there are still older people around, fatae especially, who were there. It’s nice to think about going back to that. Would we really want to? People are more content when they don’t know how much better it could be. That might have been the case back then.”

            “I think it’s the case in some of the Equatorial Provinces even now, Neri,” Ledelly said. She had gotten her croquet ball, the red one, through one of the return hoops, and now stood ready to send Markus’s or Saran Gom’s, blue or yellow, into the tall grass.

            Markus was thinking again of the great war against Smier and the even greater war against the Manzamo Islands a generation before that. The Equatorial Provinces, Smier, Hatsuba, Qanprur, Noriel, Greycester, all those old tyrannical bastions of the monstrous or the divine. He worked in procurement. He worked for the Ministry of Works, not the Ministry of Cults. He was a man, not a woman or a fata.

            “Fore!” said Ledelly, smirking at Neri and Eswral as she sent Markus’s ball.

Short Story: “Everything Not Forbidden Is Compulsory”

Caveat lector: There’s a lot of deliberately-unsettling sex stuff in this one.

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“Female heterosexuality is in crisis,” you hear tell, “and has been since Genesis 3. You know this. I know this. I don’t think we need to discuss it any longer.”

            When you are seven you meet your best friend, snaggletoothed and free. In your early days seventy times sevenfold you love her. When you are fourteen you realize that in certain lights, in certain kinds of clothing (kinds for which you are still, some say, too young), she looks just like Kate Beckinsale in that Van Helsing movie that your teacher put in the DVD player on the last state-mandated classless day of school. That which you thereby realize and that which you by it mean take another seven years to sink in, and by then you can flee from it, you know how to flee from it, and she is tragically not quite inclined enough to stop you.

            And so that desire that you avoid, or that need—but not as separate from yourself as a need; an unintentionality, perhaps, a telos-eschaton—contorts within you, insisting against resistance, a falling stone, a leap from a height, the needle of a compass tearing its way north through your Pauline flesh. Fucking as many guys as possible is your katechon, your Roman Empire, and it takes a lot of effort not to go on a tirade when someone makes a flippantly dogmatic remark (one way or the other) about abortion in your theology classes. Godhead was, for Mechthild, a flowing light—flow implying direction, implying inexorability. You get other images too for that inexorability, from books and movies and television focusing on “homoerotic girlbestfriend situationships” (a new set phrase, apparently—or were people saying this all along, only you, for obvious reasons, were unprivy to it?). The image of a frozen severed ear, a harassing piece of anonymous mail with two cheap dolls in it, a botched murder with a rock in a stocking.

            It stands to reason that there are occasions of sin in flight-from-reality, in trying to escape a facts-full-in-the-face full-bore brute-force understanding of who and what you are. Yet such fair-weather theologians as yours cannot simply discourage anything. Demand they instead that you should simply replace an end or a chirality that is, by their lights, phenomenon only, something that could just as well be something else, even though the replacements and the substitutions never actually work, are only ever phenomena themselves, and always leave you worse than you began. No parasamgateing yourself into a straightforward ataraxic equanimity of wholly compassed and integrated sex and love for you. You take your degree and become some kind of sacristan, and amidst the arma Christi you find for yourself Peter’s cock.

            Chastity impresses itself upon you before reality does, and you adopt it with another series of excuses, another series of motivated sweepings of your demonless inmostnesses. Will you end up worse than you did before, you wonder? That would not be the first time, if it happened. Your friend, your beautiful and kind and loving friend now married to a carpentrix out Bennington way, calls you often, still at least once a week, long luxuriant calls in which she talks to you with the greatest and sincerest worry. She wonders if you are a real person, which could be asked of a lot of people. She wonders if you are judging her, which you are too busy judging yourself to do, comforting yourself in self-condemnation not over the sereness of the present but over the commissions of the past. You are barking up the wrong damn tree, in the middle of the wrong damn desert, and she knows it, and you do not, and your flippant theologians and sunny moralists have put you no closer to learning it. You do think back, you do, to the unriven living self you once had, childish and muddy and free, and with her even then, always with her, if only you would allow her to be a forerunner for anything except deluded devastation.

            From Pimps to Pious: The Confessions of St. Augustine for Barstool Sports Readers, your poorly-considered and not-that-well-intentioned apologetics book, sits on a library bookshelf at a Newman Center that is physically falling apart. The shelf smells of dust, piss, insects; the center, weed, shit, come. You take the book down. It’s very bad. The title was intended as a joke and comes from a Wordle in which you did very badly. You are seven times five. Thus halfway through the days of our lives you are always being splattered with white paint. Father Youngtrad (not his real name) goes on and on about “Christian freedom,” but you are not convinced he knows the meaning of that term, if it has one. Why for that matter would you want to be free, when you cannot even move through the world with stability or with justice? You would only invite more judgment upon yourself, upon the empty house that you will not fill up with love, upon the sinlessness that you now prop up through the same delusion and flight from cooperation with the truth that once propped up the sins upon sins of your early days.

            Your old friend returns one day, into your life, messaging you, asking for a visit, and you say yes, either because you are stupid or because you are not that stupid. She is divorced. She arrives and she puts the moves on you. It is an unreal, flaccid, Carolinian January, and you do not need to be warm.

            “You really think you have to,” she says, “don’t you?”, with a laugh.

            “I do.”

            “You don’t; you didn’t have to face me. You have to face reality,” she says, “reality. Let me tell you about a story I read. It’s in a book of old Swiss folk tales. It’s about the Virgin Mary as a knight who seduces sad maidens.”

            “I don’t want to hear about this.”

            “Yes you do. Leaves ‘em fucked and deserted, as Brother Marquis said. Or was that one of Fresh Kid Ice’s verses? It’s been ages since I heard that song. Anyway. This is in the nineteenth century. And in our own time, I had this idea, a killer idea, so to speak, for a spec script about a hit man. Or he’s an abortion doctor—and I know you’ve had abortions, so I’m sorry about this—but it’s like one of those Luc Besson or John Woo movies about the noble hit man, you know?” She lowers her voice into Don LaFontaine territory. “In a world…where Planned Parenthood v. Casey was decided two days ago…”

            You tell her that you, for one, are still a loyal daughter of the Church, and do not appreciate this flippant way of talking. She asks caustically if you really think she isn’t a loyal daughter, the way she is talking. You don’t have a good answer for that.

            And a bit more from her: “The Witch of Endor was a nice old lady who followed the rules, whatever the rules were at the time. Nicer and older than you are.”

            And a bit more from you: “But I haven’t always followed the rules. That’s been hard-fought.”

            And a bit more from her: “Because you made it hard-fought. You broke the rules to prove some stupid point about being ‘normal’—you were against the rules before you were for them, because that is what you cared about, really—and also you’re not a nice old lady.”

            And a bit more from you: “I’m not autochthonous to the nice old lady way of life, maybe, but is anyone?”

            And a bit more from her: “Really, Name? ‘Autochthonous’? Dua Lipa is still not going to fuck you. And you’re not on the royal road to being a nice old lady either, I can tell you that much.”

            And a bit more from you: “I’ve kept on the straight and narrow though. Inwardly anyway. In my mind. Pun intended.”

            And a bit more from her: “Oh dear. You could have salvaged it until that ‘pun intended’ there, Name.”

            And a bit more from you: “Maybe when I’m an old lady I’ll be nice. I’ll be happy.”

            And a bit more from her: “And you’ll just sit there and wait for that to happen? Are you listening to yourself, Name? Are you hearing what you are saying? We’re talking about facing reality, not aging into harmlessness, as if that were really a thing. I’m sure the Witch of Endor had been a nice young lady too, and Saul gets the worst of it…yet he was among the prophets.”

            And a bit more from you: “He was.”

            And a bit more from her: “So again I ask you, Name: Are you hearing what you are saying to me right now?”

            And a bit more from you: “God have mercy on me; I am.”

            That night you have a dream of Christ, the centurion’s spear-wound in His side wet and willing. What does Christ want from you? It’s obvious, but it’s not what you normally give Him, is it, throwing yourself down on your face in front of an altar, distressed and hiding, your face in your arms, your arms on the floor, hiding not from God or even from yourself but from the flippant certainties of the conservative-secular everyday? Yet hiding in God; you are not prostrate in front of this sopping, lickable gash; you are on your knees, but clear-eyed.

            Trembling you part the folds of salmon flesh, and trembling you lap up the saving tide.

Short Story: “The Abomination of Desolation”

Note: “Standalone” tag notwithstanding, this is part of a broader story cycle, but the other stories in it are not going to be made available for quite some time.

“What’s this we’re listening to, Bella?” Sydney Alter asked his granddaughter on the winding two-lane blacktop between two banks of wooded hills. It was a surly afternoon in early July and the summer sun above the Catskills was never quite there and never quite gone. Bella was twenty years old, taking a break from college because of the pandemic, and living with Sydney and his second wife Gloria as a safer alternative to making her way out to Colorado where her parents and sisters were hunkering down.

            “It’s Taylor Swift,” Bella said. “One of the albums she released last year.”

            “Very relaxing,” Sydney said. “Not the pop trash I’d have expected.”

            “Expected from Taylor Swift of from me, Grandpa?” Bella asked. Sydney was worried for a moment that he had offended her, but then she grinned at him in a way that he recognized as a peace offering and as an invitation to be in on the joke, and he was put at ease. She did not look as if she genuinely expected an answer to the question she had asked, but he decided he would give her an answer anyway—and a true and honest answer, to boot.

            “Not from you, Bella,” he said. “You play clarinet, wasn’t it, or something like that?” Bella nodded and steered the car past a waterfall that plunged down to the right-hand side of the roadway. “So you’ve got taste. I just hear most of the names of these newer artists and it makes me expect some kind of song that won’t agree with me. Your parents are probably getting to an age where they’ll start to understand this. I’m sure you will too, some day after I’m long gone.”

            “Hopefully,” said Bella. “Hopefully I’ll get to that age someday, I mean.”

            “Morbid way to put it, wouldn’t you say?” her grandfather said to her.

            “Lots of morbidity going around these days,” Bella said. She turned the car onto another state highway. The weather was getting finer. The leaves, green on the trees that overhung the road, shined with pearlescent golden light that reminded Sydney intensely of his long-ago honeymoon, which had taken place over a span of similar summer days.

            Sydney and Bella were visiting the site of Glickman’s Mountain Resort, which had limped along until 1988 and whose ruins apparently still stood overlooking the little lake in which he had gone skinny dipping after dark with the girl he had lost his virginity to, the better part of a lifetime ago. He had had his first job at Glickman’s as well and his first beer, furnished by his older cousin Alan when Sydney had been sixteen. Bella was doing her thesis about some of those old resorts in the Judaic studies department at a certain university upstate; since Sydney wasn’t driving any longer on account of his bad eyes, she had offered to ferry him out here so that he could regard his past and she could write her future.

            Bella was not necessarily Sydney’s favorite of his five grandchildren. That was probably Rachel, Bella’s first cousin, the middle child of Sydney’s firstborn Alan. Alan was named after Sydney’s cousin, Rachel and Bella after two of Alan’s sisters. Most of these people lived in the Midwest these days; Bella with her upstate university was the only grandkid who was currently in or around New York. She was therefore also the closest to Sydney’s deceased mother’s family up in New England. Bella’s sister Nessa lived with a gang of roommates in a small city in, Sydney believed, Wisconsin; he heard from that part of his family about two or three times a week most weeks and they seemed not to see calling him as too much of a chore.

            Sydney had flown out to visit that side of the family twice, in 2002 and in 2014. In 2002 they had just moved to the Midwest; Alan II had gotten a job at the Port of Cleveland and the family had been able to find a fairly nice place to park themselves that did not suffer from all the recent problems that people were getting liable to think when they thought Ohio. Bella had been barely a year old at this point and Nessa would not be born for another six months. Sydney’s memory for things like this was not what it once had been, but he seemed to recall that it had been during this stay with them, and not before or after, that Alan’s wife Cynthia had found out she was pregnant for the second time. They had all been overjoyed and, maybe unusually for parents of second daughters (Sydney wouldn’t know), Alan and Cynthia had stayed overjoyed throughout Nessa’s life so far. She would have just turned eighteen now, which made it a little weird in this day and age that she was already living with these roommates; Sydney had never really understood the specifics. It was also not entirely clear to Sydney whether or not Nessa was in college or even expected to be college-bound eventually, and Bella also did not have the world’s clearest answer for him when he would ask her, which by the time of this ride through the Catskills together he had done, by his count, three times. Bella claimed to know her little sister well, but not, she said, that well, given that she had not been able to go home for any of this summer.

            “Do any of these roads look familiar to you, Grandpa?” Bella asked him as the gizmo that was telling her where to drive them chirped and purred.

            “A little but it’s just been so long, you understand,” he said. He felt apologetic, like he was imposing on Bela even though the idea to come out here in the first place on a summer’s day like this had been one that she had suggested to him, not the other way around. She spun the steering wheel cautiously.

            “Glickman’s, Grossinger’s, Concord, Katz…” said Bella. “Fantastic names. Fascinating places.”

            “Fantastic like great,” Sydney asked her, “or fantastic like something out of a story?”

            “Both, for someone as young as me,” Bella said, which was the answer that Sydney had been afraid she would give. “It’s—I don’t know if this is the kind of thing that I can explain, really, or even that I ought to explain. You went hiking a lot when you were younger, didn’t you, Grandpa? Dad has told me that you did.” And Sydney indeed had, and Sydney nodded. He almost saw what Bella meant without Bella having to say it outright. Once back in 1974 or so Sydney and his then-fiançée, Bella’s late grandmother, had climbed Mount Washington together as part of a road trip to somewhere in the far north of Maine to visit a college friend of Rita’s who had married someone there. It had been mid-fall and the mountain was already bitterly cold and speckled with unprepossessing hoar above the blazing maple-red treeline. Yet from that chilly peak a vision had unfolded around Sydney and Rita that might as well have been a vision of hundreds of years ago or of hundreds of years from now. Woods beyond woods, New England burning bright in the still flames of its October. It might be that Bella then expected a similar eternity from the stillness and emptiness of this post-Glickman’s Catskill July, a July that Sydney still wished were full of life and motion once again. Of life maybe at least it was indeed still full; the woods that fell away from the road were after all very green, and Sydney could just make out a family of white-tailed deer grazing companionably together in the fields below some reservoir. Bella seemed impressed, even, already, by this quiet and cicada-sedate summer beauty.

            They drove on and on and reached the place where Glickman’s once had been, a country road stretching between rows of unpleasantly new-looking houses. Sydney could see bits of the resort’s overgrown golf course, which his father, a brash hater of that so-called gentlemanly game, had never let anybody in Sydney’s family use back in those days. The lake could not be seen from the road so Sydney figured they would have to get out and walk. Bella said that she had batching suit packed somewhere in her car and Sydney was happy to get into the lake in his street clothes if that was what it took for old times’ sake.

            “‘Old times’ sake’ seems to mean an awful lot to you, Grandpa,” Bella observed.

            “Well yes, it does; of course it does. Live a while; you’ll see why,” Sydney said, not quite intending for Bella to hear it as a warning. “Living for your memories is something almost everyone ends up having to do and finds themselves doing sooner or later. Actually it took it a lot longer to kick in for me than for most, if you can believe that, Bella.”

            “I can believe it, Grandpa,” Bella reassured him as she drove the car past an increasingly ominous-looking chicken wire fence.

            “Stop the car,” Sydney said urgently.

            “What? Now?”

            “Yes. Now. As soon as there’s a halfway decent pull-off.”

            “Why?”

            “Don’t argue,” said Sydney, surprising himself, worrying himself a little. “I know where we are now and you do not. I know what it ought to look like and you do not. I want you to stop the car now, Bella.” Sydney himself was affrighted by how stressed and aggrieved his sounded.

            Bella brought the Subaru to a stop that was a little bit more abrupt, maybe, than Sydney would have preferred it if he had been thinking clearly at the moment. “Okay,” she said, rattled; he could hear her breath coming in more-than-usually labored puffs. “The car is stopped. Take it easy, Grandpa. Grandpa, what’s going on?”

            “There’s a fence—a fence,” Sydney said.

            “Yes.”

            “With the name of a developer.” Sydney pointed at a sign posted on the fence. “Some casino developer. Bryce Entertainment. See?”

            “Yes. I see.”

            Sydney was more and more agitated, struggling without much success to explain to his granddaughter what made this such an enormity in his eyes. He seemed to remember that Bella considered herself an anti-capitalist, but this was not about capitalism; it was about something else, something more original yet more obscene. “Disgusting,” he said. “Abominable. A desecration. A pig in the Temple. A desecration.”

            “Of what, Grandpa?” Bella asked, eyes wide, looking and sounding downright desperate to understand. “A desecration of what? Please; I want to understand. I want to know if I can help.”

            “A desecration” was all Sydney would say. “A desecration” was all he could say. The summer sun beat down impassively on the casino developer’s construction site.

A Small Play: “All Woes and All Joys”

☛Dusky stage. Dusty and in flames. People come and go. They seem uncomfortable, very intensely so, yet hopeful, or at least waiting for something. The effect is like a station, or an onsen, but the heat is dry and the cleanliness being instantiated is not visible to the eye.

S: That’s what I was afraid of. There was something unnatural in my flesh or, at any rate, in my words and I was afraid of it and afraid of being found out, having people see it there.

F: People like you are always asking if something is “natural” when really our nature comes down into us from on high and has next to no interest in the sex question to begin with.

S: Spoken like someone who never had sex.

F: Yes.

S: Never had children.

F: I had lupus half my life.

S: You gave birth to it four times?

F: More, if you count each time I was up with the chills.

S: I just can’t see my soul burning through my body like that, if there is a soul. It matters more to me what did go in, what did come out of my body.

F: It’s a hell of a way to think about the marriage bed if it’s just a matter of things going in and coming out. Like the most awful guests at a college party. “Please, may I take your coat, Annie Lou?”

S: “I assure you there aren’t too many people smoking reefer in the coat room.”

F: What a time that was. Lord, I don’t miss it.

S: I never really got out of it. I mean, my husband…

F: Yes, hence the four children you gave birth to while I was giving birth to the lupus. I wrote a story about pregnancy. Unwanted, as they say. Called it “A Stroke of Good Fortune.” I don’t know looking back that I’d find it to be that, exactly, but it sure would be better fortune than the lupus, at any rate.

S: I’m sure it would. I read that story.

F: Before you got here, or afterwards?

S: I don’t recall. Do you recall when you read “The Possibility of Evil”?

F: I can’t say I do.

☛Stage lights change color. Elsewhere:

A: I would say my ecological conversion as the Pope puts it, came when I saw a sign on the road driving through freezing rain to get home right before Christmas. This would have been 2021 or 2022. It said “It’s a wonderful life. Drive safe.”

G: By implication, “so you don’t lose your wonderful life,” then?

A: Yes.

G: It was a film, wasn’t it? A rather popular one, as I understand it.

A: Oh, perennially so. A good joke too, for the kinds of jokes MassDOT would make. And it’s the funniest thing: I didn’t even like winter, or cold weather, and I would have been happy to live in a Boston with the same climate as Florida if that was really what the world had in store for us, but I decided that I could not abide a future where that joke wouldn’t make sense.

G: Snow on the roads?

A: As I said, freezing rain. Or sleet. A great deal of it.

G: There was sleet in Tunbridge Wells, also, the evening I went to the New Year’s Eve party at which my conversion began. I remember looking out into that sleety night and humming one of the old parlor songs to myself while trying to scrub claret out of the bodice I had on. I wasn’t used to the neckline, you see; it was more modest than what I had usually gone in for until then; I was growing older, you know, and I felt ill-at-ease. The drops of wine would have fallen on my collar-bone; they fell on my bodice instead, and so I went up to the washroom and stood there singing parlor songs and looking out the window until someone bellowed out, “Happy New Year! Happy 1897!”

A: Is that when you died?

G: No; it was simply when my conversion was complete. I looked in the glass, then—in the mirror, that is, you understand—and I realized that if 1897 was to be any different then I had absolutely better stop feeling so bloody sorry for myself.—Pardon my language.

A: I died right after my conversion. I did not drive safely; I caromed off Interstate 91 and broke my neck on a tree.

G: Oh, what a pity.

A: As a matter of fact I don’t think it was a pity at all. My conversion might not have lasted otherwise.

G: Itself a pity.

A: True enough, I guess.

☛And elsewhere:

C: Portinari? So you are Dante’s Beatrice?

B: I am my own Beatrice.

C: But the one he wrote about?

B: I barely know who Dante is.

C: So you were misidentified? By Boccaccio?

B: I suppose I must have been. I don’t think it’s obvious that that woman was any one particular person, any one real person, at all. Would you want her to be? Forget the Commedia for a moment and think about how La Vita Nuova writes about her.

C: You were saying you barely knew who Dante was.

B: I barely know who Dante the dead man is; I know who Dante the figure of world literature is, because I am being asked about this all the time.

C: I’m sorry.

B: Oh, no need to be. It’s only that it confuses me to this day, that this would be of such overwhelming, almost exclusive, interest to everybody. What kind of name is “Dante,” anyway?

C: It was short for Durante.

B: Fascinating. I do think I may have met a boy with that name, once or twice.

☛The proscenium arch explodes into roses. The roses distend, extend, their petals growing longer and much, much thinner, until they are those of Lycoris radiata, the red spider lily. The flowers fill everyone’s field of vision—everyone’s, onstage and off—and then they are gone, and the people on the stage with them.

Short Story: “‘Extended Man and the Kingdom of the Machine’ by F.T. Marinetti (with a Critical Gloss by Christina Martinelli-Rubinsky, of the University of Pennsylvania)”

(Note: I think the translation of Marinetti to which I have access is still copyrighted, so this riff on motivated reading of political texts that makes use of that translation can’t and shouldn’t be. Complete Creative Commons free-for-all. See if I care.)

The foregoing will have prepared you for understanding one of our chief Futurist endeavors, namely the abolition in literature of the seemingly unquestionable fusion of the dual concepts of Woman and Beauty. The effect of this has been to reduce romanticism to a kind of heroic assault, launched by a warlike, lyrical male on a tower that is bristling with enemies, gathered about the divine Woman-Beauty.

Marinetti opposes the objectification of women. Some argue that he himself perpetuates the objectification of women throughout this essay in another form, but he makes it clear at the beginning that this is not his intent, and even though impact matters more than intent, the fact that Marinetti supported women having equal political rights to men as well means that we ought to take him at his word here. Our key to interpreting this must then be that he opposes the objectification of women and their treatment as mere sexual objects.

Novels such as Victor Hugo’s Les Travailleurs de la mer or Flaubert’s Salammbô can explain my idea. What we’re looking at is a dominant leitmotif that is threadbare and tedious, and of which we wish to rid literature and art as a whole. That’s why we are developing and proclaiming a great new idea that is circulating in contemporary life, namely the idea of mechanical beauty. Thus we are promoting love of the machine—that love we first saw lighting up the faces of engine drivers, scorched and filthy with coal dust though they were. Have you ever watched an engine driver lovingly washing the great powerful body of his engine? He uses the same little acts of tenderness and close familiarity as the lover when caressing his beloved.

Marinetti, rejecting the oppressive structures of “Western canon” writers such as Hugo and Flaubert, instead exalts the liberated eroticism of the machine—cf. Donna Haraway, Shulamith Firestone, pioneers in the field of AI-enhanced adult entertainment, etc. He strikes a blow against sex-work-exclusionary radical feminism. Before these ideas even existed, he already anticipates and refutes the idea that the social construct of romantic love is the only alternative to sexual objectification.

We know for certain that during the great French rail strike, the organizers of that subversion did not manage to persuade even one single engine driver to sabotage his locomotive. And to me that seems absolutely natural. How on earth could one of these men have injured or destroyed his great, faithful, devoted friend, whose heart was ever giving and courageous, his beautiful engine of steel that had so often glistened sensuously beneath the lubricating caress of his hand?

Marinetti rejects class reductionism and labor chauvinism. His leftism and futurism are not the ossified obsession with structure, routine, and so-called “proven” methods that are so typical of “organized labor.” One is confident that Marinetti today would support workforce flexibilization as a means of social advancement and combating all oppressive power structures. Cf. Kazan, On the Waterfront, et al.

Not an image, this, but rather a reality, almost, that we shall easily be able to put to the test in a few years’ time. You will undoubtedly have heard the comments that car owners and car workshop managers habitually make: “Motorcars, they say, are truly mysterious... They have their foibles, they do unexpected things; they seem to have personalities, souls and wills of their own. You have to stroke them, treat them respectfully, never mishandle them nor overtire them. If you follow this advice, this machine made of cast iron and steel, this motor constructed according to precise calculations, will give you not only its due, but double and triple, considerably more and a whole lot better than the calculations of its creator, its father, ever dreamed of!” Well then, I see in these words a great, important revelation, promising the not-too-distant discovery of the laws of a true sensitivity in machines! We have therefore to prepare for the imminent, inevitable identification of man with his motorcar, so as to facilitate and perfect an unending exchange of intuitions, rhythms, instincts, and metallic discipline, absolutely unknown to the majority and only guessed at by the brightest spirits.

Here Marinetti foresees or foreshadows transhumanism and the abolition of the idea that biology is destiny. The human being for Marinetti is a creature of liberated potential, not oppressed actuality. His lack of interest in “givenness” is freeing; cf. “friendly AI” theorists; Solanas, “full automation”; Yoda, “luminous beings are we”; a Boston Globe article about putting Ted Williams on ice that I can’t find to cite right now. [Ed: How hard can this be, Chris?]

There can be no doubt that, in admitting Lamarck’s transformist hypothesis, it has to be acknowledged that we aspire to the creation of a nonhuman species in which moral anguish, goodness, affection, and love, the singular corrosive poisons of vital energy, the only off-switches of our powerful, physiological electricity, will be abolished. We believe in the possibility of an incalculable number of human transformations, and we are not joking when we declare that in human flesh wings lie dormant. The day when it will be possible for man to externalize his will so that, like a huge invisible arm, it can extend beyond him, then his Dream and his Desire, which today are merely idle words, will rule supreme over conquered Space and Time. This nonhuman, mechanical species, built for constant speed, will quite naturally be cruel, omniscient, and warlike. It will possess the most unusual organs; organs adapted to the needs of an environment in which there are continuous clashes.

Marinetti does not put stock in the limitations of oppressive middle-class values. His feminism will be intersectional or it will be bullshit. Girlboss! [Ed: if you didn’t call him a girlboss when you brought up On the Waterfront, you shouldn’t be calling him a girlboss now.]

Even now we can predict a development of the external protrusion of the sternum, resembling a prow, which will have great significance, given that man, in the future, will become an increasingly better aviator. Indeed, a similar development can be seen in the strongest fliers among birds. You will easily understand these apparently paradoxical hypotheses if you think of the externalized will that is continually in play during spiritualist séances. What’s more, it’s certain, and you can observe it easily enough yourself, that today, ever more frequently, one comes across people from the lower classes who, though utterly devoid of any culture or education whatsoever, are nonetheless gifted with what I call the “great mechanical intuition” or “a nose for things metallic.” And that’s because those workmen have already had the experience of an education in machinery and, in a certain sense, have identified closely with it. In order to prepare for the formation of the nonhuman, mechanical species of extended man, through the externalization of his will, it is very important that the need for affection, which man feels in his veins and which cannot yet be destroyed, be greatly reduced. The man of the future will reduce his own heart to its proper function of blood distribution. The heart, by some means or other, must become a sort of stomach of the brain, which is fed systematically, so that the spirit can embark on action.

Correctly, and foreseeing the important work done by Foucault, Marinetti identifies philonormativity (not Foucault’s word, but it should have been) as a bourgeois value used as a means of restricting human potential to artificial and constricting relationship-forms. See also the concept of the “eroticism of the journey” as in my book on sexuality in the life and times of Jack Kerouac.

Today, one encounters men who go through life more or less without love, in a beautiful, steel-toned frame of mind. We have to find ways of ensuring that these exemplary beings continue to increase in number. These dynamic beings do not have any sweet lover to see at night, but instead lovingly prefer, every morning, the perfect start-up of their workshops. What’s more, we are convinced that art and literature exercise a determining influence over all classes in society, even over the most ignorant, who by some mysterious process of infiltration absorb them. We can thus either promote or retard the movement of humanity toward this form of life that is free of sentimentalism and lust. In spite of our skeptical determinism that we have to kill off each day, we believe in the value of artistic propaganda against panegyrics favoring Don Juans and ludicrous cuckolds. These two words must be purged entirely of their meaning in life, in art, and in the collective imagination. Does not the ridicule poured upon the cuckold perhaps contribute to the exaltation of the Don Juan? And the exaltation of Don Juan contributes to making the cuckold seem ever more ridiculous? Freeing ourselves from these two motifs we shall also free ourselves from the great obsessive phenomenon of jealousy, which is nothing but a by-product of a vanity that springs from Don Juanism. The whole enormous business of romantic love is thus reduced to the single purpose of preservation of the species, and physical arousal is at last freed from all its titillating mystery, from relish for the salacious and from all the vanity of Don Juanism; it becomes merely bodily function, like eating and drinking. The extended man we dream of will never experience the tragedy of old age!

[Ed: You’re missing an easy layup by not bringing up Alexandra Kollontai here.]

But it is for this reason that young men of this present age, at long last sick and tired of erotic books, of the twofold drug of sentimentalism and lust, and being at last made immune to the sickness of Love, will have to learn to systematically purge themselves of all heartaches. This they can do through daily eradication of their emotions and seeking endless sexual amusement in rapid, casual encounters with women. This frank optimism of ours is thus diametrically opposed to the pessimism of Schopenhauer, that bitter philosopher who so often proffered the tantalizing revolver of philosophy to kill off, in ourselves, the deep-seated sickness of Love with a capital L. And it is precisely with this revolver that we shall so gladly target the great Romantic Moonlight.

cf. Erika Moen, “What the Fuck’s a Cuck?”; various other works in the sex-positive feminist tradition; Eric Anderson, The Monogamy Gap; Nancy Meyers, The Parent Trap; Roderick Featherstonehaugh Brill, The Monogamy Trap; Brandon Wheek, The Parent Gap; W. Braxton Naylor, “Towards a Pornography of Epistemological Liberation”; Alex X. Valli, “Polymorphous Perversity and the Decolonial Imaginary”; Jackie Treehorn, Logjammin’; Budd Starr, Gary the Cable Bi 3: Who’s Up for an Orgy?

Christina Martinelli-Rubinsky is the Distinguished Professor of Intersectional Liberation Studies at the University of Pennsylvania. She is the author of Gay Right: The Anti-Assimilationist Witness of Yukio Mishima; Road Head: Jack Kerouac, Hugh Hefner, and the Pornographization of the American Dream; Inevitable: Why the Sex-Positivity Movement Will Win; and, most recently, Hamas’s Fight is Humanity’s Fight: A Guidebook for Queer Palestine Action. She lives with her Dominant, Pitiless Bruce, in Center City Philadelphia.

Short Story: “Collyridian Remains”

Antonelle Vetiver (not her real name) looked from the chopper in which she sat anticipating the first interesting thing to happen to her in years. She was dressed for the job she wanted (a movie archaeologist) rather than the job she had (a real archaeologist), in a Lara Croftish getup of cropped tank top, short shorts, heavy boots, and heavier sunglasses, with a sort of linen jacket over top of everything. The lone sands that stretched far away below her were not level; they were in a mountainous part of the world, and moreover were in it unlawfully, against the express instructions of the government of a certain country. Antonelle did not care about these things, or perhaps it would have been better and more honest to say that actually she liked them; they made her feel more like Indiana Jones and less like some functionary or stoolie. The man piloting the helicopter, Rodney Clark of Needham, Massachusetts, cared, but Antonelle was paying him a whole boatload of money for this, with an astronomical sum still to come depending on how the next part of the trip went.

Probably part of the reason she and Rodney got along so well, Antonelle thought, was that they were both New Englanders, both Massholes in fact, although other than the name of the state itself the town where she had grown up and the town where he had grown up had very little in common. Needham was a suburb of Boston, fairly affluent as far as she knew; she was from Florida, not the Florida of beaches and bikinis and alligators and hurricanes but the Town of Florida, Massachusetts, a tiny hill town, snowbound in the winter and windswept in almost all seasons, full of dirt roads and whitewashed-steepled churches and birches and beeches and elms. There had been little if anything "to do" as a girl growing up in Florida, Massachusetts, other than asking questions of the trees, or exploring abandoned buildings and the yawning no-thing of the defunct Hoosac Tunnel, or going to town meetings, or standing with the firefighters along Route 2 to get small bills from passing cars during the fire department's periodic fundraisers. Mostly at those her job had been to hand out miniature American flags as thank-you gifts. Rodney, she was sure, had had more "to do" at every stage of his early life, up until quite recently; arguably even now he did, piloting helicopters in dangerous parts of the world for a living. Even so she did feel that they had something in common. (Her old English teacher, Miss Corriveau, who, the last Antonelle had heard of her, had recently started her own makeup line on the internet, had always discouraged the future Antonelle Vetiver from saying that she, or characters in the stories that she would write, “felt” things rather than “thought” or “believed” them. In this case, though, Antonelle felt that “feel” really was the most apposite word.)

The helicopter began its descent to the open stone platform that they were using as a helipad. It predated the existence of helicopters by at least a thousand years; Antonelle’s understanding was that the area in which they were landing, now completely unpeopled and without any sign of past habitation other than a few other rock-tables like these scattered here and there in the arid hills, had last had a town of any size in the first century or two after the early Muslim expansion through the Arabian Peninsula. The wind whipping around her bread-colored hair as she prepared to step out onto proscribed soil was hot and dry, but not quite as hot or as dry as she would have expected. There was a strange and unanticipated balminess to it, especially after a decade of the kind of global warming that even her grandfather’s bridge buddy Jack Glump had to admit really was occurring. Normally she would have appreciated it, but there was something eerie about it when she looked at it in combination with what she was here to do, what she was here to study and try to prove.

There was only one source, formally, for the movement in which she was interested, a single passage in the Panarion of Saint Epiphanius of Salamis. A breadbasket against heresies; surely that was about as High Church as it was possible to get without mobbing the altar and killing and eating the priest at the end of the Eucharistic prayer.

“And who but women are the teachers of this? Women are unstable, prone to error, and mean-spirited. As in our earlier chapter on Quintilla, Maximilla and Priscilla, so here the devil has seen fit to disgorge ridiculous teachings from the mouths of women. For certain women decorate a barber’s chair or a square seat, spread a cloth on it, set out bread and offer it in Mary’s name on a certain day of the year, and all partake of the bread; I discussed parts of this rite in my letter to Arabia. Now, however, I shall speak plainly of it and, with prayer to God, give the best refutations of it that I can, so as to grub out the roots of this idolatrous sect and with God’s help, be able to cure certain people of this madness.”

Apparently Muhammad or someone close to him had believed that Trinitarian Christians held the Virgin Mary as a member of that Trinity, or a “person” of that Trinity since all the serious and intellectually-oriented Christians whom Antonelle knew insisted for some reason on making that distinction. That seemed as good a reason as the passage in Epiphanius to believe that these women, the so-called Collyridians from collyris, the cakes (speaking of bread), really had existed. Better, actually, because of how hostile Epiphanius was to them; the overt misogyny in the passage in the Panarion struck Antonelle as so obviously uncalled-for that it invited the question of whether Epiphanius had made up the crassest and most obvious “girls’ heresy” possible as an excuse to fulminate about it. Muhammad, or whoever it was who had induced him to in a few obscure verses of the fifth surah of the Qur’an imply that Christians worshiped Mary, had not held quite that hostility, not quite as obviously at any rate.

The person who had turned Antonelle on to this site had told her that local lore had it there were still Collyridian inscriptions to be seen here, documentary evidence, a smoking gun if there ever was one. Evidently one of Epiphanius’s unstable, error prone, mean-spirited women, sacrificing the collyris on a barber’s-chair altar, had found spare time in her busy schedule of being a heresiarch to become literate in Greek. Antonelle wished her joy of it, prayed for her joy even, since, as she had heard from many of these same erudite Christian friends, it was possible for God, outside of Time, to hear a prayer and apply it on the past.

Her head, unhelpfully but unsurprisingly, was killing her by the time she with her brush and her notebook and her various recording instruments found anything on the stone surface that seemed like it might be a Greek inscription. The writing was, her source had been very clear, on the edges, not the tops, of these things. Walls of foundations, maybe, whatever sense that made. If she had not known better she would have thought it was a scheme to make her land a helicopter in the middle of nowhere. The Greek did look like it might say “Hagia Maria,” but “Hagia Maria” on its own was conventional, orthodox. She would need to find more. A description of the cakes would help; better still would be an ode or prayer or hymn not to “Hagia Maria” but to something less plausibly deniable, “Thea Maria” maybe, or something including the word “prosopon.”

She sang her favorite aunt Gertrude’s old favorite song as she worked. “The day they laid poor Pancho low, Lefty split for Ohio, and where he got the bread to go, there ain’t nobody knows…”

She finished uncovering the inscription. “"Hagia Maira, ten timioteran ton Cheroubeim, kai endoxoteran asinkritos ton Serapheim, ten adiaphthoros Theon Logon tekousan...”

“Totally fucking orthodox. Motherfucker,” Antonelle breathed.

“You okay there?” Rodney called from the chopper. Poor Rodney, Antonelle thought; he had little investment here, but also little vanity; he was not inspired to refute anyone’s prejudices against him, nor was he inspired to make himself known for answering some old arcane mystery. He just enjoyed flying in the hotter and more dangerous parts of the world, and coming from somewhere where the hottest and most dangerous thing for half the year was a spilled cup of Dunkin, he could, she thought, be easily understood. Sympathy was easy, and even love, for someone in Rodney’s position in this world, who was kind.

“Yeah!” said Antonelle, then, realizing that she had snapped at him, “Yeah. Just disappointed.”

“Not finding what you were hoping for?”

“Does not look that way, no.”

She trudged back over the stone table to the chopper and sat back down beside him with a sigh. “Leaving already?” he asked, and she shook her head. “Okay, well, if you want to just relax here for a bit, we have some snacks I swiped from my hotel room before we left Riyadh, and, if you would like, a little nip of contraband.” He picked up what she had assumed was a water bottle and swirled it around in his right hand demonstratively.

“I’d like to just close my eyes for a few minutes, I think,” Antonelle said.

“Okay. Well, I’m going to have some nuts, and let me know if you’d like any,” said Rodney. She nodded, and the last thing she saw before closing her eyes and attempting to drift off was him happily apportioning a handful of brazil nuts for himself.

In Antonelle’s uncomfortable sun-drenched dream, she saw two women standing dolefully in front of her, in the dress of Eastern Roman imperial times. One was older and one was younger; both had big sad brown eyes, and both were holding cakes, holding collyris.

“What do you think it would prove, if we were real?” the older one asked her.

“If we were much as that man said, as Epiphanius claimed,” said the younger one.

“It would prove that he was wrong to speak so cruelly about you,” Antonelle said. “They would see that there were real people there, not just frivolous self-centered straw women for a bishop from Cyprus to vent about.”

“Is it more wrong to speak cruelly about someone just because that person is real?” the older of the two women in antique dress said then.

“Why would it not be?” Antonelle said. “A real person has rights, has a real life, a real inner life. You can be fair or unfair to a real person, not just about one.” She had a hard time explaining this, less because she had never expected to need to and more because it felt, in this sort of dream, as if they, the dream-emissaries, ought to be explaining it to her, not she to them.

“I agree; but do you think others do?” the younger of the two women in antique dress asked her, her eyes growing even wider, even more dolorous. The lighting in the dream-space was dimmed, as in a basilica; natural, but partly warded away. It was by no means the baked bright heat of the helicopter in which she was fitfully dozing in waking, or undreaming, life. “If you say ‘these people really existed; perhaps do not be so cruel to them’ do you really think others will take that to heart? Maybe they will, but I do not think so, especially since Epiphanius is dead.”

“But were you real?” Antonelle asked. “Your stories should be told for its own sake, even if…”

“Told by you?” the older of the two women in antique dress asked her. Antonelle did not have a good answer to this, especially since it made something clear to her that saddened her deeply, which was that her respect for these women and her respect for the past more generally did not necessarily produce a similar respect for her in them. Neither was that, probably, anything worth wondering at; nobody repaid every single quantum or scintillum of respect and love in kind, and Antonelle Vetiver was not one to inspire most people besides herself. She was a vague, self-contemptuous, posturing young living being, and the dreary regions of the dead could surely find more promising chevaliers.

She stirred. Rodney was peering at her with concern. Nary a twist in his mind, neither thought nor motive other than that concern, crossed the sweaty surface of his diligent, far-eyed face. She wondered if he had ever retained for longer than fifteen seconds her explanations of why they were here or what the Collyridians had supposedly been like. She vaguely hoped not, because that unawareness if anything would make him more deserving of the huge payout that he was getting for taking this kind of risk. It was a risk for her agenda, and she was grateful for it; she wanted to be as grateful for it as it was possible to be without caring about him overmuch.

He let her choose the music on the helicopter ride to their contact in Al-Mazyunah. It was a beaten-up old tape deck and she fished out a beaten-up old tape. She listened to Alanis and, as was traditional, thought about her ex-girlfriend. The next time she dozed off she had an uncomfortable dream about receiving oral sex from the younger of the two Collyridian women from the previous dream, apparently during a performance of Iphigenia among the Taurians. She woke up with the helicopter passing, so to speak, through the purpling surfaces of the ultradeep evening sky.

Short Story: “The Jellyfish Void”

Swimming in warm water that lapped at every dorsal inch in pliant acceptance of her misbegotten backstroke, she realized after a while that jellyfish, tiny and transparent, like minuscule balloons some of which had little bits of brackish-inlet sedge or seaweed floating suspended within them, had begun to swim alongside her. Concerned for a moment, she was becalmed again when one touched her upper arm and proved unable or unwilling to sting. Unable, it must have been—the jellyfish, she remembered, a brainless and almost nerveless scrap of animated water, had no more will than it had pain, there in that warm water that soon would cover much more of the world than it did.

Since she had been six she had come, on and off, to this jellyfish space, this cove at the bottom of a long track down from a rambling extended-family home on a bluff. The extended family was no longer hers, really, for a number of reasons, but it was hers enough that she still came here and still visited them and still lost herself in these waters. The jellyfish were new, or perhaps it was she who was new, so new that she had only just noticed them. One brushed up against one of her hips. The sun was hot enough to bake her belly through the dark fabric of her swimsuit, even though she was wallowing in water and easily able to barrel-roll in the water, to log like a whale if it got too much to bear.

Once she had dreamed about being a river dolphin, in South America or in China, maybe. She had come up out of the river, had come into a village, into a festival—and then back into the river, back to an underwater village, an underwater festival. Up out of the river again, and she was a seal on a North Atlantic skerry now, and it was no longer a river but the surging slate-grey sea. She married, grew old, left her husband, and went back into the sea—a lake now, and she was a bright-scaled carp, swimming hither and thither in the sun-splashed, sometimes-shaded shallows. And then the dream had ended, and she had woken in a start, and sat up in a bedroom in a house cocooned in morning rain.

It felt as if the jellies that were swimming with her now had come to her out of this dream of dreams. The darkness of the dream had sent her out into a dismaying light, and that had always worried her, ever since that so-sudden awakening. The light dismayed her less than usual now. She reached out in this warm and brightly lit reality and touched a jellyfish, a harmless jellyfish, maybe not a cnidarian at all but something that merely looked and acted similar the way she herself looked and acted like an ordinary and healthy person. She wondered if she could be or become harmless in her unordinariness and ill health. Probably she was more harmed than harmful already, she thought, as were the jellies, as was the water.

Short Story: “Her Numerous Progeny Prosper and Thrive”

Note: This short story was an “occasional” satire on the relatively-recent death of Queen Elizabeth II, meant to show how ridiculous some of the standards to which various sanctimonious American leftists claimed to hold her would have been in practice.

It is a well-known story, so famed among those interested in this kind of history. On February 6, 1952, a young woman of twenty-five wakes up in a treetop hotel in Kenya, a loft, an eyrie, looking out over verdant wet-season plains. A grim-faced runner comes and tells her to make her way to the nearest telephone, where she is told that her father has died peacefully over the night and she is now the queen and sovereign of vast swathes of the globe.

            What does that “sovereign” mean? What might she do with that queenhood? Not much, some argue; some people say that she is a figurehead, a pasteboard mask, an avatar of power rather than someone by whom or with whom or in whom power can actually be used. These people will tell you that she can only act according to the so-called “advice” of her servants, who in turn must be able to win votes in a democratically elected Parliament, and it is that Parliament that can do absolutely anything it likes.

            Yet some people say that weasel words are great. In theory the young woman’s powers are vast. And a good thing that she can’t use them, too, many say, given what her ancestors got up to when they could use them. Vast quantities of blood and guts, gold and silver, have been brought to bear for her family over the centuries, first to help them rule the world, then to keep them fed and happy, whatever “happy” means, while Parliament ruled the world for them. Now those blood and guts, gold and silver, are hers. Supposing they were not; supposing she attempted to divest herself of them. She is, after all, her mother’s daughter, and her mother is a woman who is reported to have said that she could only look the poor of London in the face after the family’s palace was struck by a German bomb.

            Let us suppose she does just that. “I will remain Elizabeth,” she says; her father Albert reigned as George, her uncle David as Edward, her great-grandfather Albert also as Edward, her great-great-grandmother Alexandrina as Victoria. (Alexandrina, Victoria, Alexandrina-Victoria, is the one in whose name the entity and process called the empire reached its apogee, the one who wore most famously the brilliant jewels that the poor of the earth die digging from the dark earth far away from England.) “This is my first decision—that I’ll keep my own name. My second decision is to set the world free.”

            “The world is by and large free,” her personal secretary says awkwardly. Her husband looks at her with a vague suspended-judgment sneer, as if he is waiting to see just what foolish things this mere girl whose liege man he now is will say. “The tyranny of the Nazis has been defeated, that of the Soviets is not our concern at present, and if you refer to Your Majesty’s own Empire, its tide is ebbing in most parts of the world.”

            “You are literally enacting colonial violence on black and brown bodies by saying that, Martin,” his sovereign princess warns.

            “I’m not—what does that—what the devil are you talking about? Begging your pardon, ma’am,” Martin splutters.

            “That is a whitecisheteropatriarchal thing to say if ever there was one,” says Her Majesty.

            Martin, desperately trying to wrap his head around this change in the demeanor of his new sovereign and concluding, based purely on explanatory power, that she must have come down with an acute psychiatric case of some kind upon losing her father so young, says “Yes, but…what does that mean, exactly?”

            “The remorseless logic of empire must not be allowed to continue. As I now lead the enterprise of empire, I must stop it immediately. Please prepare papers for an Order in Council instructing all British troops and administrators to withdraw from every station outside the British Isles, with immediate effect.”

            “First of all,” says Martin as patiently as he can manage, “the word ‘empire’ takes a definite or indefinite article, you’ll recall; it isn’t some sort of abstract or mass noun like ‘justice’ or ‘love’ or ‘revenge’ and I am pretty sure that is as Your Majesty well knows.”

            “Do get to the point, Martin,” says His Grace the Duke of Edinburg witheringly; he would rather end the part of the conversation involving Martin as soon as possible so that he can attempt to figure out what on earth is wrong with his wife himself.

            “Yes, of course, Your Grace,” Martin says, balancing his hands on his knees and his knees against each other gamely, or rather, in such a way as to deliberately and falsely indicate gameness. It is best, he has always heard, to tiptoe around mad monarchs when one is actually in their presence. “Second of all, Your Majesty will recall that there are very limited situations indeed in which the Crown can act without the advice of its ministers, and absolutely never against the advice of its ministers. The Conservative Party and Mr Churchill are against further retreats from our imperial holdings unless absolutely necessary, and even were an election to be held as soon as possible and the Labour Party get back in, the policy developing on their end is to withhold independence from colonies that have not adopted majority rule. Particularly with the colonies in Africa, immediate independence, especially without leaving any transitional civil servants in place to manage a peaceful break from the Home government, would result in a whole continent of South Africas or worse. Even His Majesty The King—that is, your late father, ma’am—was horrified by the way the Smuts government handled the color issue in South Africa, and of course the new government there is even worse in that regard. Do we really want Rhodesia, Nyasaland, and the rest—even Kenya!—to go the same way? All of this is, moreover, only to establish that what Your Majesty is proposing is unconstitutional and immoral. Further, it is unwise to boot.”

            “The master’s tools will never dismantle the master’s house,” Her Majesty explains. “Let me illustrate. William?” she calls to one of the black employees of the hotel.

            “Yes, Your Majesty?” he replies. He, like everyone, is still getting used to saying “Majesty” to her rather than “Royal Highness.” He resents it perhaps a bit more than do most.

            “Would you want, upon Kenya’s independence, for there to still be British civil servants in the country?” his Queen asks him.

            “Er…not particularly,” he says. “I suppose early on it might not be so bad. Why do you ask?”

            Her Majesty turns back to her secretary. “You see, Martin, William doesn’t particularly want British civil servants, and so there’s really no need for us to force them upon him. To do so would be to reinscribe the violence of empire on his black body. William?” she calls again.

            “Yes, Your Majesty?” he replies again, noticing a reporter at the door whom he will have to go and let into the lobby once this very strange conversation concludes.

            “You may beat up my husband, if you wish,” says the Queen. “We wouldn’t want to reinforce the black brute stereotype.”

            William says “What? Why would I do that?” at the same time that the Duke of Edinburgh says “No he bloody well may not!”

            “Again,” says the Queen apologetically, “I would offer myself, since I’m at the top of the hierarchy here, were it not for the unfortunate coding that would be involved if we did that.”

            “We won’t be doing anything!” William insists, forthrightly and sternly.

            “Lilibet,” says the Duke, bracing himself against the wall and feeling very much as if he could use a good stiff glass of something naval—rum, even grog in a pinch, “I really would very much like to understand what on earth you’re talking about and who the devil you hope to impress by talking about it.”

            “Oh, spare me the toxic masculinity, Philip,” says his wife and sovereign. “None of us are going to reinforce stereotypes here. Not in my family and not in the Palace. I’ll be explaining that further to you, Martin, once I finish explaining the importance of decolonization and my refusal to be a colonizer and an oppressor.”

            “Your commitment to withdrawing from the Empire is admirable, ma’am,” said Martin, falling back into a lickspittle aspect that this job has not normally required of him so far, “but I’ll point out that a stereotype generally speaking is not reinforced by the person or persons being stereotyped.”

            “Representation,” the Queen informs him in the most withering, wintry, and regal—or reginal—tones, “matters.”

            “Er…all right; we’ll say that; we’ll go with that,” says Martin. “Permission to draw up a draft of this—this edict, or this decree, that might pass constitutional and parliamentary muster?”

            “Yes, very well,” says the Queen with a heavy sigh, as if constitutional and parliamentary muster is a consideration that exists only to distract her servants from the moral rightness that is obvious even to them. Indeed, in fairness, much of it is, or should be, obvious to Martin, to the extent that he knows what is meant by what she says.

 ❦

Martin goes into the next room and calls his superiors in the Palace—might they not be his superiors much longer? Who can say—while the Queen speaks tensely with her husband and William begins, gingerly, to let the reporters file into the hotel.

            “Yes, Tommy,” Martin says over the phone, an international line getting far more use this morning than it has in years, than anybody involved in the phone services in East Africa generally ever though that it would. “Drawing up a general statement of approval for the transformation of Empire to Commonwealth strikes me as a good idea as well.”

            “It does my heart good to hear you think so, Martin.”

            “Supposing Her Majesty declines to sign it as not forceful enough.”

            “A grim supposition,” says Tommy, “but in that event it must be said that I have helped shepherd this family through one abdication, which was really a deposition, constitutionally speaking. It would of course be a matter of deep concern for the entire Empire and Commonwealth—even for the entire world—were things to reach that point again after barely fifteen years. It ought to be avoided if at all possible, by whatever means possible and necessary.”

            “Within reason and the law, I take it,” says Martin.

            “Within reason and the law, yes,” confirms Tommy. “A good day’s work to you, Martin.”

            “And to you. You sound exhausted, sir.”

            “Demise of the Crown is an exhausting thing. Much to consider,” says Tommy, and hangs up.

            Martin jots down two pages’ worth of notes, a first draft of a first draft of the proclamation on which the Queen is insisting, and goes back into the room to present it to her, the room where she and her husband are still arguing on either side of an ottoman made from what looks like the stuffed foot of some big game species or another. Somewhere else in the building they can all vaguely hear William speaking in hushed, hurried tones to someone who has already managed to fly in from the Toronto Star, of all papers. Perhaps the person was already in Africa for some other, one assumes some less august and less impressive story? Martin would not be surprised, and he envies such a person.

            “Your Majesty.”

            “Yes, Martin?” She turns to him with her immaculately made-up smile, her immaculate stiffened curls gleaming in the morning sunlight.

            “I have some first notes for your order, ma’am,” he says, and hands her what might be, in the grand sweep of their island story, a poison pill without recent parallel.

            “One moment, Philip,” she says to her husband, who is about to make some caustic remark. She takes up the paper, clears from her throat some of the tears that she has been keeping from her eyes, and begins to read.

Short Story: “The Thing about HIgh School”

“The thing about high school,” her father said, “is that it’s jocks versus nerds. That’s the basics.”

And she started high school. She did not find it to be jocks versus nerds, exactly. The jocks, by and large, were the nerds. The first boy who made a pass at her was a lacrosse player. He also got straight As, wore custom, and aspired to go to Harvard Business School, even though their high school was the second-best public high school in the school district. Why the fuck, she wondered, did he wear custom if he was going to public school? She ran this by her father and he shrugged and told her to ask him again when he was done with Better Call Saul for the evening.

A few more weeks into her freshman year, she was invited to a party. The party was in fact hosted by unintellectual good-time buddies who drank light beer and had posters of OnlyFans personalities, but these people were not actually any go keg—and ended up having to go to urgent care.

“Some people who act out at parties,” her father told her, “if they don’t know their limits, can go to the emergency room.”

“Yes,” she said. “I’m aware. But one thing confuses me.”

“What’s that?”

“These guys didn’t seem like meatheads. They just seemed like burnouts. I don’t think anybody would have been that intimidated by them, unless she’d been beaten down by life already. I felt sorry for them more than anything.”

Her father thought for a moment. “Well, princess,” he said, “the thing about high school is, it’s jocks versus nerds. That’s the basics.”

Short Story: “The Cinephiles”

Historical note: I first conceived of and wrote this story in the year 2018. Make of that what you will.

It was an unseasonable afternoon in late winter and Blaise Bondarenko tracked damp grit into the building. He was here to meet with his film appreciation group for the first time in over a month. There had been legal troubles and Blaise had had to come up with some pretty airtight excuses to avoid them. The weather had been brutally cold as little as a week ago and one of Blaise’s friends was still home sick after being out in it for a few minutes.

            The meeting place was new, a tearoom done up in something approximating a British Imperial style, with a Raj theme that steered clear enough of overt triumphalism that Blaise’s friend Nasara had felt comfortable recommending the place. Nasara was the first person he knew whom he saw when he got in. She was sitting at one end of an oblong table in an alcove hung with yellow-embroidered dark blue wall hangings, drinking chai masala and waving enthusiastically at Blaise. It looked like she had already switched to her springtime jacket, at least for today. Her long black hair was lank and Blaise guessed that she had forgotten to shower again.

            “So who else is coming?” Blaise asked as he sat down and shrugged off his own coat. “I heard already that Marcus is still home sick.”

            “Ooh, big oof,” Nasara said. “I actually hadn’t heard that. That sucks.” She raised one hand as if she were showing off an engagement ring and counted off her fingers with the other hand. “Okay, so I know Bruce is coming and I think Tatiana said she’ll be able to make it too. Euphrosyne has to come because she’s the one who has the copy of the Mitchell book. And Tony said he’s going to try his best to make it.”

            “So six, counting us? Not bad.” Nasara handed him a menu and he gave it a cursory glance until he found a tea that looked familiar to him; then, remembering that he did not actually like this familiar tea, he decided to order something that he had never heard of. “After what happened with Randy and Kyle I was a little worried that—”

            “I don’t think it’s a good idea to discuss Randy and Kyle,” said Nasara abruptly.

            If you asked Nasara what her problem with Randy and Kyle was, she would probably have just made vague comments about their having poor taste and not having gelled well with the rest of the group. The truth, as everybody actually in the group knew full well, was more painful, even though it reflected much less poorly on Randy and Kyle themselves than the way Nasara talked about them usually suggested. The truth had to do with the most frightening possibilities in Blaise’s life. It also had everything to do with the political situation, and with the fact that the group was still watching movies that Randy and Kyle had recommended.

            Randy and Kyle had legal troubles that had begun with a conspiracy case about some of the work that they had been doing as union organizers. Both were veteran organizers even though Randy was a lot older than Kyle; both had done a lot of work unionizing the dining hall workers at the college that Blaise and Nasara went to. They had come under skepticism, then suspicion, and finally repression. Lots of people who cut the figure that they cut went through that these days.

            Blaise ordered his new unfamiliar tea and began to discuss Nasara’s classes with her since she refused to discuss movies until at least four people were present. Nasara was majoring in botany and wanted to go out to the Midwest and work with corn for a living for some unfathomable reason. “Some unfathomable reason” was her way of putting it, not Blaise’s; Blaise didn’t see anything unusual in someone interested in botany wanting to work with corn.

            For some reason there was a portrait hanging over Nasara’s head of someone it took Blaise an embarrassing amount of time to recognize as Lord Mountbatten. He was really beginning to think that she had suggested this place to be ironic, which, if true, would have been the first inkling of irony he had ever gleaned from her.

            He asked her if she liked this place ironically.

            “No,” she said flatly and honestly. “I like it because it has good tea and good food. The Raj theme is a little weird but it’s part of a general India theme. There’s Mughal stuff too. I’m sort of annoyed that your mind jumped immediately to the India thing when I suggested this place, actually.”

            “Sorry. I just thought—”

            “I know what you thought,” said Nasara. “It’s fine.”

            She did not actually think it was fine. Nasara was a member of a family with the last name Rahman and had grown up in Edison, New Jersey; accordingly, now that she lived in the hardwood-and-slush cranny of the Pioneer Valley it bothered her to be thought of as that Indian girl or that Muslim girl. The idea that she should look at her race or even her religion as central, indispensable features of her personal identity bothered her a little coming from people like Blaise and a lot coming from people like the President. It upset her that the only options people wanted to give her were acting like the fairest flower of a country she had never been to or fully assimilating into whatever culture places like this tearoom actually represented.

            Nasara had played the race card, by her own definitions of playing the race card, only once so far in the existence of this group. It had been when they had deciding which Indiana Jones movie to watch, when they had temporarily been available to them from a certain library. Time had been of the essence with this decision, as it was with so many of the movies they had failed to find online, and the discussion that they had had about this had gotten unusually fraught all around. Eventually she had succeeded in vetoing Temple of Doom and they had gone with what Bruce called “the one, the only” Raiders of the Lost Ark. She had enjoyed that movie more than the most recent one they had watched.

            The others arrived. Bruce, gravelly-voiced with wispy grey hair and glasses that he wore perched halfway down his nose so that both Blaise and Nasara had frequent fantasies of pushing them up for him, sat down first. Euphrosyne, a gangly transgender woman (or drag queen; she had never clarified which but they called her “she” and she didn’t correct them) with hair similar to Nasara’s but more carefully kept, came in next with the Mitchell book, which wasn’t strictly relevant to the movie that they had just watched but might be relevant to choosing the next one. Next came Tatiana and Tony, as a matched set; Nasara didn’t know about Blaise, but she was to this day a little mortified that she had once thought they were dating; in fact they were brother and sister, Tony about six years older than Tatiana and working as a social media consultant for a heavily put-upon legal nonprofit while Tatiana finished her degree at Smith.

            “So,” said Bruce once everybody had ordered, “what did we think of The Blues Brothers? I saw this movie in theaters; didn’t appreciate it as much at the time as I do now. Belushi and Aykroyd were big comedy stars at the time but a lotta people weren’t sure what to make of this movie. It cost a whole boatload, but it did pretty well for itself in theaters.”

            “Lots of coke on the set, from what I’ve heard,” said Euphrosyne. “I guess that was what was in at the time, in terms of drugs.”

            “Any more you can’t throw a rock without hitting somebody with their own pot farm,” said Tony, looking at a part of the menu that advertised things made with CBD oil. “I’m surprised los federales haven’t cracked down on this place yet.”

            “Oh, let’s not mention the feds cracking down on things,” said Tatiana. “Now of all times especially I’m worried somebody might be, you know, looking at us with designs.”

            “In this place?” asked Nasara. “Come on, Tat. Look at the little post-its, for God’s sake.”

            Blaise picked up a clear plastic frame with a picture inside it and a post-it note attached to it, which had been facing away from him. The picture was of a Mughal emperor and the post-it said “Thank you for not assuming our employees’ gender & pronouns,” over a pen drawing of a chibi catamount.

            “Anyway,” said Nasara, “as far as I’m concerned, this movie wasn’t it, chief. There were things about it that I thought were pretty sexist and the car chases were so ridiculous that I just tuned out after a while. The music was great, though, and I did like some of the jokes.”

            Blaise spent the next several seconds mentally readjusting his schema for what Nasara was like to accommodate the fact that she called people “chief.” He sipped his bright red tea feeling self-conscious and a little sorry for himself.

            Bruce, a little uncharacteristically, had ordered a pot of tea that had a flower-like item in the middle that bobbed up and down in the hot water as he poured. It suddenly occurred to Blaise, who was still looking at the post-it note, that he had been in this place once before, a couple of years ago, when they had had a whole wall full of post-it notes that had been written or drawn on in various cutesy ways by the customers. For some reason he seemed to have it caught in his head that at the time this place had specialized in bubble tea.

            “Did you think it was sexist, Sini?” Nasara asked Euphrosyne.

            “Way to put me on the spot. Yeah, I did, actually. I wouldn’t say it stopped me from enjoying the movie, but it did annoy me.”

            “I didn’t really notice any more sexism than I’d expect from a movie from 1980,” said Tatiana with a shrug. She nudged Bruce and he poured her a cup of the tea that he had ordered; she had finished her own in what felt like under a minute.

            “I agree with that,” said Bruce. “I noticed it less then. Could just be because I’m a guy; I didn’t notice it now either very much until you brought it up.” He shrugged. “Good to be able to have these conversations, though, I guess.”

            “Especially in this day and age,” said somebody from another table a few yards away. It was a middle-aged woman who looked utterly inoffensive and unassuming, but Blaise still flinched to think that they were attracting attention. This was part of why he didn’t tend to talk very much once everybody got here for these meetings.

            “I liked, well, what they did with the bad guys, obviously,” said Nasara, “and I liked the delivery of some of the famous lines. ‘We’re on a mission from God,’” she said in a passable imitation of Dan Aykroyd. “‘I hate Illinois Nazis.’” The middle-aged woman flinched. “Anyway, there definitely were things I liked about it.”

            “I did appreciate this movie’s bold, forthright stance against Nazis from Illinois, yes,” said Euphrosyne.

            “Spoken like someone who’s never been to Illinois,” said Bruce.

            “I’ll ignore that,” said Euphrosyne. “Anyway, what’s next? Want me to crack open Mitchell?”

            Nasara held a finger up. “Hold on,” she said, lightly. “I’m not sure we’re done talking about The Blues Brothers.”

            “Well—no, we’re not done talking about it; I was hoping that we could get the business side of things out of the way now so we could discuss the movie more open-endedly.”

            “I just don’t think it’s a very good idea to crack open Mitchell when that woman is still looking at us,” Nasara murmured under her breath in Euphrosyne’s general direction. She had also noticed that the middle-aged woman had herself gotten the attention of somebody else, a man about Bruce’s age wearing a badge that looked distressingly militant.

            “Ugh, you’re probably right,” said Euphrosyne.

            “Blaise,” said Nasara, “what do you think we should watch next?”

            The first thought that popped into Blaise’s head was the question, which he had entertained before, of whether Nasara might have a crush on him. There were not too many reasons to think that she did, but she did have a tendency of putting him on the spot with things like this much more often than she did any of the others. It might just have been that they were the same age, two years younger than Tatiana and almost a decade younger than Tony, to say nothing of Bruce and Marcus. The second thought that popped into Blaise’s head was that they might have an easier time getting a hold of The Prince of Egypt or something than they had with Raiders of the Lost Ark, although The Prince of Egypt might not fly entirely under the radar the way The Blues Brothers almost had.

            “How do we feel about The Prince of Egypt?” Blaise asked. “Did anybody else see that movie as a kid?”

            “I saw that movie with my kid,” Bruce said. “Good movie. Not sure how I feel about watching a cartoon on my own as a seventy-one-year-old man, though…”

            “Oh, c’mon, we all have to branch out sometime or other,” said Euphrosyne, as Tatiana gave Bruce a playful swat on the shoulder.

            “I have a better idea,” said Tony, and Blaise tried to shoot him a glare but could not get himself so to do. “Why not The Sound of Music?”

            Blaise looked over his shoulder. The suspicious woman had gotten up to go. The man with the badge was still there but was focusing on something in another corner of the premises.

            “It’s a classic,” said Tony.

            “It’s utterly inoffensive,” said Nasara, and Blaise could not tell whether or not she meant this as a good thing (as a matter of fact, she did).

            “It was seen that way for a very, very long time,” said Bruce.

            “Is this another movie you saw when it came out?” Nasara asked.

            Bruce nodded. “I was maybe seventeen or eighteen. I was living in Springfield and it came out in a movie theater that I think has since closed. I went to see it with a girlfriend of mine who said she had a crush on Christopher Plummer.” Neither Nasara nor Blaise wanted to push Bruce on why he seemed to disbelieve in his teenage girlfriend’s crush on Plummer. “Great film. Seen it a couple times since. Once, again, with my kid when she was maybe ten or so. Yeah, I’d be up for giving The Sound of Music a try.”

            “You okay with that, Blaise?” Nasara asked.

            Blaise threw up his hands. “Fine,” he said, “but I would like to pick the next one.” He was not quite sure why he was being truculent about this. Maybe it was the fact that he was not much enjoying this tea. It had something to do with cherries or cherry blossoms but he was having a hard time figuring out what, if anything, he thought it actually tasted like. He drank the rest of his cup down and poured himself another from the little glass pot. He felt like a tool. That woman and that man had really hampered his ability to enjoy this meeting.

            He was just about to suggest somewhere else to meet next time when Tony pulled out his phone and started, bold as Blaise had ever seen him, looking for possible ways to download The Sound of Music. Tony was someone who had a sticker on his laptop with a picture of a young 1950s businessman shouting “Good luck; I’m behind seven proxies!” Tony had had this sticker, or previous identical stickers on previous laptops, since way back in the days when everybody had more or less accepted that this was an absurd thing to boast about.

            “Getting back to The Blues Brothers,” Tatiana said, “I have to say, I hadn’t known much about blues music before this. I assume this is a style of music other than what people talk about when they talk about, like, ‘St. Louis Blues’ or ‘St. James Infirmary.’”

            Euphrosyne nodded. “Yeah, that’s from a way earlier period,” she said.

            “W.C. Handy is considered the father of the blues,” Bruce said. “He died in New York City in 1958. Belushi and Aykroyd were about eight or ten years old at that point.”

            “Did you know that about Handy already or did you have to look it up, Bruce?” Nasara asked while with one hand she rang the bell to call over a waiter for a second pot of chai masala.

            “I looked it up,” said Bruce. “I did a lot of reading about the blues after watching the movie. Wanted to see if I’d learn anything. Learned quite a lot, as a matter of fact.”

            “Have any of us ever played blues music?” Blaise asked. Blaise could sort of play guitar but was much more accustomed and attuned to soft rock and indie fare than to jazz or the blues or the dinosaur rock that he associated with people like Bruce and to a lesser extent with people like Nasara.

            Nobody, it turned out, had played blues music, although it turned out Tatiana and Tony had grown up listening to it because their dad was a pianist who had for a long time been deeply interested in the old New Orleans standards. Later he had become interested in enka music, a sort of Japanese torch song genre, and finally Italian folk music. Tatiana and Tony were holding their cards close to their chest about their father. Blaise suspected that he might have recently succumbed to a heart attack or something along those lines.

            Something in the environment or in the way they were thinking or feeling here was beginning to make both Blaise and Nasara feel pretty deeply upset. Neither of them were quite sure what it is. Both of them were happy to watch The Sound of Music but something about the nature of that movie was making them worry about the situation in which they were actually finding themselves. Blaise guessed that it was because the movie was about the beginning of something rather than the aftermath of something; Nasara guessed that it was because it felt like a mockery of the world and of politics that it did what it did with such a joyous lead and with singing and dancing. Sini and Tat would probably tell her that it was sexist of her to be having this problem with it if she brought it up to them, and she thought that maybe they would be right to tell her so.

            Nasara, who secretly felt pretty bad about the way she dressed and the way she groomed herself, could not help looking at another middle-aged woman who had come in and sat down at the table from which the first middle-aged woman had gotten up. This woman was wearing a big fluffy down overcoat in a beautiful shade of green and, underneath it, a wrap dress with quilted leggings. It was probably easy enough for this woman and her family to find work and get taken seriously, much as it had been easy for Nasara’s parents until a few years ago. She tallied up her own mounting debts to the world in her head. It was hard not to feel a certain nihilism about them. She decided to open up her heart and mind to letting The Sound of Music help her with that.

            Blaise made the same decision because he was thinking more deeply on his own reactions to The Blues Brothers. He had a cousin called Dave who loved this movie, even though Dave wasn’t a particularly bluesy guy himself. Dave was a few years older than Blaise and lived in New York City, where he tended bar and sang in some sort of rap collective. He was somebody whom Blaise loved very much and yet while watching the movie Blaise had not found himself thinking of Dave almost at all. He thought for a little while on why this might be and realized that it was because he had mentally cordoned off Dave into a vision of the world in which things were a little kindlier, even if no easier. His film appreciation friends were not part of a kindly world. He decided to let The Sound of Music make him think of the world as a little kindlier.

            “That scene with Carrie Fisher building the pipe bomb or whatever was such a mood,” Nasara was saying.

            “Be careful who you say that around,” said Euphrosyne.

            “I thought it was more of a mood in Indiana Jones when they first meet Marion,” said Tony.

            “Well, you did used to drink way too much,” said Tatiana. “Glad you’ve cut back on that, by the way.”

            Tony shrugged. “The ‘work hard, play hard’ mentality just isn’t cutting it as much for me as it used to. I’d call it burnout, but I’m actually having the time of my life now that I’m trying not to push myself quite so hard anymore.”

            “Good to hear that,” said Bruce. “I was never much of one for ‘work hard, play hard.’ Could just be that I’m given to understand I’m kind of a boring guy by a lot of people’s standards.”

            “Oh, we don’t consider you boring, Bruce,” said Nasara with an affectionate swat of Bruce’s arm.

            “Well I know you guys don’t. If anything it’s more so people my own age who for a lot of my life thought of me as sort of the sad sack. It played into the way I saw myself for a really long time, but I’m thinking a little more kindly about myself now.”

            “I was actually just thinking about kindliness and living in a kind world,” said Blaise, who hadn’t said anything for a while. “Obviously that’s not the world we’re living in these days, but I still think it’s worth thinking about.”

            “Things we can do to be good to one another are always worth thinking about, I agree with you,” said Bruce. “Boy howdy, now that’s a cliché way for me to put it.”

            “There’s something to be said for clichés,” Nasara said. “Although I guess ‘there’s something to be said for’ is just another cliché.”

            “Let’s talk about how we’re going to find The Sound of Music,” said Euphrosyne. “It should be relatively easy, I assume, compared to some of the other stuff we’ve had to look for. Although I don’t think it’d fly under the radar the way Flesh Feast did, since it’s so much better-known.”

            “Oh God, don’t remind me about Flesh Feast,” said Bruce.

            “Hey, the rest of us liked Flesh Feast,” said Tatiana, “even if it was only ironically. But yeah, I don’t think we’re going to have to do a deep dive through Euphrosyne’s book to find The Sound of Music or movies like it. Whether that’ll make it easier or harder to find I don’t know.”

            “I’m sure I can find a download of it with a VPN or something,” Nasara said.

            “It might fly under the radar also since it’s a kids’ movie,” said Blaise. “Or at least a family movie. Which the other things we’ve been watching really haven’t been.”

            “Not at all, no,” said Nasara.

            “Not to cut this off,” said Tatiana, “but I’m actually getting kinda hungry. Want to order some couscous or something? I can pay as long as we can split the check on the tea itself.”

            “Splitting the check on the tea itself was exactly what I was planning on having us do,” said Nasara, “although since a lot of us are sharing I think we should split it evenly.”

            “Sounds good to me,” said Bruce, and Blaise concurred, and everybody else concurred also.

            “At least we’re not trying to find Mrs. Miniver or Casablanca,” said Nasara, casually and without regards to anything else that was being said. “I’d like to, eventually, but those are going to be really hard to find, these days.”

Short Story: “The Comet Watchers”

It was a season of unwanted miracles. The world was reeling and kindness seemed expensive. It was the year of the pandemic and the summer of George Floyd. The world lurched closer and closer to some unknown ultimate destination, and Comet NEOWISE appeared in Northern Hemisphere skies.

            A son and father living in those regions were living together a few years into the son’s adult life. The loved each other but now and then struggled to talk about things they had in common. The son was more religious and read more; the father exercised more and knew more about what may be called the “real world.” Both, however, liked science fiction; they had lately, stuck at home, begun watching Star Trek together; both loved the night sky, and both wanted to see the comet where it hung in the northwestern sky in the evening dim.

            Near their home was a fruit farm, with a store where the son had briefly worked upon finishing school, sorting crates of peaches and apples and showing people where to park on weekend afternoons. He had been let go before long but the family was still on good terms with the people at the farm and so they often found themselves going there still. The store was at the top of a large, steep hill with a commanding view of other hills to the east and to the north. Green and gold in the summer, gold and grey in the autumn, grey and white in the winter, white and green in the spring—such was the view in daylight. At night, they thought, it was likelier than not that much of the sea of stars could be seen.

            There were two ways to get to the farm store from their house, one much more straightforward than the other. The straightforward way involved driving down to the state highway, taking it up into the hills for a few minutes, then turning onto a smaller road that went up the steeper hill on which the farm stood. The less straightforward way involved taking several different back roads, one of them unpaved. In this way one could ape a direct back-roads route that had once been the obvious path to take; this route, regrettably, crossed a small bridge that had been out for about two and a half years. Even before the pandemic the towns in that region had not been made of money to spend on bridge repairs in outlying neighborhoods. Now, they had far bigger fish to fry, and likely would have them for quite some time. “I’m taking Route 2,” the father thus said when he and the son got into the car to go and see the comet. “Safer this time of night.”

            “Better lit,” the son agreed, although he was young and dramatic enough that oftentimes he preferred the romance and mystery of the less straightforward way. He expected that preference to be beaten out of him by life sooner or later, even though he had managed to escape being told sententiously that it would be. But for now…

            They set off into the night. The son had a marvelous app or program on his telephone in which one could see a clear map of the celestial sphere, one that, minute by minute, changed as the sky itself revolved or rotated around Polaris and Sigma Octantis high above the Earth. He had checked to see if this app accounted for the comet. It did not, but the website of a certain newspaper described where the comet was in the sky relative to the familiar northern summer constellations.

            “Shoot,” said the father. “Should’ve brought binoculars.”

            “It’ll be visible in the evening for four or five more days,” said the son. “Maybe we can come back in a few days and bring the binoculars with us then.”

            “Have you ever been up here at night before? Do you know how the view is?”

            The son shook his head. “I haven’t,” he said, “but I’m sure it’s fantastic.” This was a place that—during the day—had one of those old-fashioned coin-operated binocular viewfinders that one was liable to find on mountain overlooks and skyscraper observation decks. One could see dozens of miles to where higher hills and mountains receded into an ambiguous bluish horizon, marching steadfastly rank by rank northeastward. The son was confident that its late-evening sky would be remarkable.

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Twenty years before, when the son had been living alone with his mother in an old farmhouse (the father was, technically, a stepfather), he had gone through a childhood mania for outer space. At first it had been a purely factual and scientific craze, without the note of science fiction that had grown steadily louder in the polyphony of his interests afterwards. He had had a poster on his robin’s-egg-blue bedroom wall showing one of the famous pictures of Saturn from the Voyager flybys, gracing an expanse above a guinea pig cage. Once he had tried to make a mobile of the Solar System that had the planets to scale in both size and distance; it had been a spectacular failure, with Neptune in the bathroom, Pluto too small to keep safely in the back yard where stray cows might get at it, and the real scales still not replicated. He had known the names of all the northern constellations then, and had been able to make out most of them from the train tracks across the road.

            Then Tolkien and Doctor Who had happened, in that order and a few years apart. His future stepfather had been to credit for his introduction to both of them. This period had spanned the 2000s, a fecund and febrile period for the fandoms for both works. The son was banned from a Tolkien fan forum for lying about his age when he was eleven. Latterly he was given to discussing Doctor Who obstreperously on social media, such as it existed twelve or fifteen years before the pandemic—journals; fora. He became, in fact, a creature of books and media, interested in the fictional and the fantastical. Not unrelatedly, by this time he and his mother had moved to a region from which one could not easily see the nighttime sky.

            He had begun to resent the lack of stars and constellations to be watched above his head almost right away after the move. It had been a move undertaken unhappily, for reasons to do with his education. For that reason he felt a certain degree of guilt about “doing this to himself,” and, for that matter, about everything else that he was doing with his life. Increasingly he was interested in girls, in several different ways, and he projected unhealthy fantasies and resentments into that area of his life, fantasies and resentments that had been developed elsewhere. Through some strange alchemy he found himself transmuting interests that he might share with others into excuses to isolate himself. He had certain illnesses too, and between one thing and another, he spent his mid-teens with few real friends.

            The father, previously a male friend of the family, became his stepfather at around this point. At first the son resented this too. His mother’s previous attempts to date had not gone well, and he was afraid that his closeness to this man would be wounded if this relationship went badly too. The situation also forced him to think of his biological father, a deadbeat junkie whom he had never met. It was not a pleasant road for him to go down, and new resentments did end up arising. It was at this time that son and father began to fear that they did not have as much to talk about as they had had in the past. It was a painful realization, and one that the son, at least, mourned intensely.

            Time passed. The son breasted the turbulent currents of religious and sexual identity, to and fro. After a few years of living with his parents in adulthood upon finishing with school, he began to despair of ever really finding again the easy commonalities that had existed in his childhood. When he had loved, back then, he had been able to merely love, without the outside questions of shared interest or presence of a shared goal that modify and limit the loves of adults. He had assumed that that ability to merely love was gone for him now, at least as far as his bond with his father came into it. He assumed this, and felt a mild despair, the kind of sickly-sweet feeling that decadent French poets of a hundred and twenty years before had managed to transmogrify into beauty. Then, shortly before his troubling twenty-seventh birthday, the pandemic hit, and for the first time in his adult life he and his parents had no way of leaving one another’s presence.

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The car bumped up the steep hill road to the farm store on the dark hilltop. The trees to either side stood grey and silver in the penumbrae of the headlights. The sky between the branches was darkening minute to minute, now the color of willowware, now the color of deep water.

            In somebody’s house to the left of the road a porch light abruptly burned out as they passed it and the shade of the evening shifted. Now suddenly near the zenith he could see what he thought might be Vega. At the hilltop the Great bear would surely be fully or almost fully visible. It was through the Bear’s paw that the comet was passing evening by evening. Now the only question was the cloud cover, light but striated, which would seem to be covering a good bit of the critical northwestern sky. The idea of not being able to see the comet because of light, passing cloud cover was an unpleasant one. One could even say that there was something morally outrageous about it, even if only mildly so. It would be like looking for a Van Gogh in a museum and finding it through the gift shop, or like looking for a livestreamed religious service and finding it with an unskippable ad. Or perhaps not quite as bad as those cases—clouds were not undesirable or inaesthetic themselves, merely objects of a lesser and less compelling order than celestial bodies.

            The son and the father came to the open country around the hilltop. At one point the road curved sharply to the left with very little warning. Going straight would have taken you right into a certain family’s front yard, possibly even into that family’s front kitchen.

            “I wonder if anybody’s ever missed this turn and driven into these people’s yard, or their driveway,” the father remarked. “I hope not. It’d be tough tot get out of that situation, you know?”

            “For the family whose house it is,” said the son, craning his neck at the house as it faded graciously into the gloaming behind then, “or for the driver who made the mistake? I think it’d be a tricky situation either way, but it’d be tricky in different ways. Depending on who in the situation you were.”

            The father laughed, a short, gentle chuckle. “I’m just imagining that I’m in that house sitting down for a late dinner and then suddenly, wham, you and I come barreling right along the road headed straight for the front door,” he said. “I can’t think it’s an easy house to live in, just in terms of keeping your peace of mind.”

            “I never asked,” said the son, who dimly knew some of the people who lived on the hill thanks to his season working at the farm store.

            “Looks like there’s plenty of other people here,” they both thought and one or the other of them said as they neared the hilltop. Spanning the summit and descending for a while along the road in both directions were maybe fifteen cars, along with tripods and collapsible chairs and other accoutrements of summer-evening stargazing.

            The two got out of their car. It was about a quarter past nine, nautical twilight in July in those latitudes, the time for sailors to take their readings with a clearly visible horizon and clearly visible stars. To the west, over a treeline that obscured the westernmost third or so of the hilltop, Arcturus and Spica shone, ochre and opal. One found those stars, or could find them, with the Great Bear’s tail—arc to Arcturus and speed on to Spica. The son had learned that on some website about six months before, when he had first downloaded that phone app and begun a serious scan of the high heavens. So now he doubled back from Spica to Arcturus, continued, and there was the Dipper, suspended in an almost primary-blue section of the sky. It was three or four handsbreadths above the northern end of the western treeline, so that the comet would be about halfway between it and the horizon. That spot was, horribile dictu, behind a band of cloud, but there was an insistent breeze and the clouds were drifting eastward.

            “It’s like Close Encounters,” the father said. “Remember that scene where they pass all the cars on the highway and they’re all lined up along the side of the road to see the UFO?”

            “Vaguely,” said the son. “The last time I saw that movie I was about thirteen years old, I think. I remember that scene, though. I’d be happy to watch it again with you some time.”

            “Have you seen it yet?” the father asked. “Is it on your app?”

The son shook his head. “I think the way this app works focuses on the models of the sky,” he said. “They just discovered the comet a few months ago so whatever model they’re using probably just doesn’t have it. If there was a supernova I don’t think it’d have the supernova either.”

            “There was a news website that had a picture of it in the sky,” the father said. “It should be there once that cloud passes.”

            And the cloud did pass, and there, dimly, was the comet. It was still faint in the uncompleted twilight, a faint, fuzzy patch of sky that one would have thought was a trick of the light were it not for the telltale tail. That tail, or tale, stretched even fainter a degree or a few up and to the right of the main spot of fuzziness, resolving undramatically into the deepening blue almost directly beneath steady-shining Dubhe. One wanted to stare steadfastly into that darkening northwestern sky in the hopes that that fuzziness would clear, in the hopes that something important would become manifest in a more manifest comet, something to be taught as a piece of knowledge to be guarded and cherished.  And so the son and the father held their gaze into that region of the sky, until after a few minutes, just past nine-thirty on that long Saturday evening, it was obvious to both of them that the comet was as clear as it was liable to get. Then the son took out his phone again, opened its camera, selected a night mode that took in all the light it could, and snapped a few pictures of where NEOWISE hung waveringly. They came out well, a couple of them anyway.

            “Can you still see it?” one of a pair of young women, a pair of sisters, or a couple, or friends, asked his father as he walked ahead of him back to the car.

            He turned. “Sort of,” his father was saying to the women. “You might have better luck another night.”

            “You can see it though,” the son said.

            The father nodded. “You can,” he agreed. “You just have to really look for it.”

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The drive back home was a little different from what they had expected going out. The father, for reasons of trust best known to himself but dearly appreciated by them both, allowed the son to direct him down the other side of the hill and then through the warren of back roads that circumvented the closed bridge and descended into their neighborhood from the north.

            The father was skeptical about this as a means of getting home and worried that the son, for some irresponsible twenty-seven-year-old reason, was directing him towards the closed bridge itself. Even so, he decided to trust where the son was directing him, and soon enough they were on the right back road after all, one that was gravelly and passed a maple syrup plantation and a small dairy farm. The drive home, which took about fifteen minutes, had for the father the great length common to people’s perceptions of unfamiliar roads. They pulled into their driveway at a few minutes past ten o’ clock and straightway went inside. The sky had turned the blue-black color, with a very faint and debatable greenish tinge, of certain fountain pen barrels. The clouds were a little paler and instead had shades of violet and silver. The Dipper had sunken slightly towards the black treeline and was difficult to make out in the glare of a streetlight that stood at the northwestern corner of their property.

            The mother was watching the news, which, as so often in those days, was largely about the pandemic with a few minutes given over to racial tensions and other enormities of the increasingly heavy-handed administration. She looked up as they came in; she was happy to see them, and, being used to having them in the house for the past few months, had indeed missed them while they were out. “How was it?” she asked. “Were you able to see it?”

            “We did but it was pretty faint,” said the father. “I think he got a couple nice pictures of it, though. That new phone of yours,” he said to the son, “takes really good pictures. I think it was worth the money.”

            “I certainly hope it was,” said the son “But yeah, one of these at least came out really well, maybe two or three. You can see the comet’s tail and everything. While we were walking back to the car I also got some good shots of Arcturus and Antares if you guys are interested.”

            “Antares,” said the father. “Don’t they go there at one point in Star Trek?”

            “I’m not sure,” said the son. “I haven’t seen enough of it yet to say. I do know that there’s a novel from the 1920s called A Voyage to Arcturus that I keep meaning to read. We also saw Vega tonight and that’s where the aliens in Contact were from.”

            “You think there actually are any aliens on Arcturus and Vega?” the father asked.

            “Who knows?” the mother said before the son could. “I hope so.” She turned to the son. “I’d love to see the pictures you took,” she said.

            “All right,” said the son. They turned off the news, and he sat down on the couch between his parents to show them his pictures of the sky.

Short Story: “Critical Lenses on the Film ‘Goncharov’”

Note: This story is a contribution to a fictive body of critical and fan discussion being built around a nonexistent Mafia movie called Goncharov. One can learn the basics of how this discussion came about by searching for the alleged movie’s title. In the Goncharovian spirit of collective authorship and modern myth-making, I’m electing to put this story under a Creative Commons “Attribution” license, the most permissive kind. Anybody can do anything with the material in this story as long as some vague gesture is made towards crediting me with some of the ideas. Many of my own ideas, after all, emerged from the broader atmosphere of improv-like storytelling and mythbuilding that swept the internet in general and the microblogging website Tumblr in particular late last month.

With the recent upsurge of interest in the 1973 Mafia film Goncharov, it behooves the critic to give a brief survey of this film’s previous reception. Critical analysis has focused on several main areas and themes within the film: its sexual elements (in particular the homoerotic undertones between Goncharov and Andrey and between Katya and Sofia) and connected feminist concerns, its religious motifs, its atypicality for an early Martin Scorsese film, and its potential political subtexts, to name just a few. This brief essay will attempt to overview, in an unsystematic way, some of those lenses. Appended are synopses (with much unavoidable repetition) of all cuts and releases of the original film from 1973 through 2003; it remains to be seen whether next year’s fiftieth anniversary release will depart significantly from any of these. Since the focus of this essay is the original film in all its versions, we will not be addressing Quentin Tarantino’s abortive late-1990s remake, or the 1981 Turkish ripoff Moskova’dan dev adam (Mighty Men from Moscow) starring Yavuz Selekman and Cüneyt Arkın. The best treatment of Moskova’dan dev adam in English is a chapter in Yuli Lowe’s 2005 book Remix and Pastiche in Turkish Action Cinema: A Moviegoer’s Guide. Tarantino’s ideas for the attempted 1990s remake, some of which made it in highly variant form into 2009’s Inglourious Basterds, are described in almost all detailed surveys of his oeuvre. Of note regarding the Tarantino concept is that it is generally considered to have a tighter plot than does the cryptic, occasionally slapdash original film.

The sexual dimension of Goncharov has been the subject of much recent attention and as such is perhaps the best place to begin. In particular the relationship between Katya and Sofia has seen many different perspectives over the years. In a manner similar to J.R.R. Tolkien’s obsessive reworkings of Galadriel’s backstory to smooth down her hard edges, the first few rereleases and re-edits of Goncharov consistently softened Katya and Sofia’s characters and relationship with each other, mostly as a response to persistent lesbian and feminist critiques of the film throughout the 1980s and early 1990s. This process culminated in the 1993 twentieth-anniversary version of the film, in which Scorsese became an unwitting cinematic pioneer by giving Katya and Sofia a relatively happy and all but expressly lesbian ending. However, feminist critics of the original film later reassessed the rerelease and began to argue that the softer ending had the unintended effect of pedestalizing women and relationships between women. The thirtieth-anniversary rerelease in 2003 was substantially similar to the original cinematic release regarding Katya and Sofia, but followed the 1987 director’s cut in expanding on Icepick Joe’s backstory and role in Goncharov’s second act.

Katya and Sofia are, however, secondary characters, although Katya is one of the three leads and both women are important in all versions of the film’s denouement. What of Goncharov and Andrey? Although the two Soviet gangsters out of their time and place get top billing and the film’s climactic showdown, it takes the bulk of Goncharov’s length for the true importance of their relationship to become apparent. Since Andrey, diegetically, knows Goncharov very well, the core premise of Goncharov’s fundamental unknowability to the viewer necessitates that they spend relatively little time interacting, and when they do interact, they discuss mostly philosophical and abstract subjects. Gene Hackman’s character of Valery, a personal aide to both Goncharov and Andrey who has little independent agency and thus does not appear in most plot synopses but has more screentime and higher billing than many of the film’s better-remembered characters, is the viewer’s main source for the preexisting personal relationship between Goncharov and his betrayer. According to Valery’s interactions with Andrey and with Goncharov, the two men considered each other best friends for most of their lives, had a brief falling-out two or three years prior to arriving in Naples and reconciled several months later, and both helped Valery himself survive his hard teenage years in postwar Moscow. De Niro and Keitel’s unusually homoerotic acting choices combine with this background to create a popular perception of Goncharov and Andrey as former lovers (and perhaps even Valery’s co-parents, although Hackman was visibly older than De Niro and Keitel at the time the film was made).

Goncharov was long thought of primarily as a “dry run” for Scorsese’s career and other films. It was Scorcese’s third film, after the relatively obscure Who’s That Knocking at My Door and Boxcar Bertha, and his second turn as a producer (Boxcar Bertha was produced by Roger Corman). Although Scorsese directed the English-speaking actors and was the name most prominently associated with the film in the United States, the driving force behind much of the screenplay and directing style was the Italian polymath Matteo JWHJ0715, a pseudonym for Matteo Negri. Negri deliberately imitated the dreamlike style of The Godfather, and Goncharov thus “feels” very different from Scorsese’s later gangster epics Goodfellas, Casino, Gangs of New York, The Departed, and The Irishman. In 2016, however, the release of Scorsese’s Silence led to a reappraisal of his religious thinking as represented in Goncharov’s religious motifs, many of which, such as Father Gianni’s theme- and tone-setting sermon and the sole-survivor message bottle at the end, seem derived from Moby-Dick.

Attempts to retroactively insert Goncharov into Scorsese’s so-called “trilogy of faith” aside, however, religion is clearly a secondary concern in the film, and critics who look at it primarily through the religious lens still tend to think of it mostly in relationship with other Scorsese films. Goncharov, The Last Temptation of Christ, Kundun, and Silence do not a coherent tetralogy make except by “reading” the films backwards starting from Silence, at least some of whose themes are present in each of the other three (Last Temptation’s moral tension and divine absence, Kundun’s emphasis on persecution and exile, and Goncharov’s depiction of “individual” attempts to cope with the failure of religious community). The other way in which critics have applied the religious lens to Goncharov is as a supplementary or auxiliary lens in analyses primarily focused on other aspects of the film, such as its political and sexual components. One recently popular combination of the religious and sexual lenses involves Katya’s reaction to Father Gianni’s sermon. Scorsese, directing the Anglophone Cybill Shepherd, has Katya obviously fumble with core aspects of Catholic worship such as the sign of the cross and standing for the Gospel reading; since Katya does not perform the Eastern Orthodox equivalents of these actions either, recent critics have interpreted her as staunchly irreligious and/or Jewish, and her discomfort with the sermon as not necessarily limited to its anti-mafia content.

Despite the film’s ambiguities concerning Russian (and broader Soviet) culture, Katya’s attitude towards religion not least of those ambiguities, perceptions of Goncharov as tacitly pro-Russian make it currently unpopular in much of Central and Eastern Europe. Protests in connection with upcoming fiftieth-anniversary screenings have already racked up thousands of planned attendees in cities like Kyiv, Lviv, Warsaw, and Vilnius; in Lviv in particular local politicians have attempted to get the screenings shut down or moved to smaller venues under wartime emergency provisions. Scorsese has condemned attempts to read a right-wing political salience into the film, the political right currently seeming, or being, pro-Russian in much of the developed world; the idea that Goncharov is some sort of advocacy for Russian culture per se is the only critical lens that its makers have actively and loudly repudiated, but in the current world environment surrounding Russia’s war on Ukraine it is morally and emotionally difficult to directly defend the movie around Ukrainian, Polish, or Baltic-states critics.

This concludes our all-too-brief overview of a few select critical lenses on Goncharov. Synopses of all readily available versions of the film are appended below, with, as warned, much unavoidable repetition.

Christina Martinelli-Rubinsky

Assistant Professor of Film & Media Studies

Art Department, Smith College

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ORIGINAL CINEMATIC RELEASE

ACT ONE

Naples, 1973. A mysterious stranger with a suitcase full of ammunition and counterfeit money arrives from the Soviet Union. He is met at the airport by ANDREY, a man claiming to be his cousin.

Andrey makes introductions for his so-called cousin GONCHAROV with a group of Camorra figures led by MARIO AMBROSINI. Mario invites Goncharov to a gambling den to discuss unspecified “resources” that Goncharov has brought with him from Moscow. Andrey escorts Goncharov to his apartment, where they rendezvous with Goncharov’s wife, KATYA.

That evening, Goncharov and Katya go to the gambling den for the meeting with Mario. While Goncharov and Mario are talking, Katya wanders off and begins flirting with SOFIA, a local woman with a haunted, hardbitten look. Katya and Sofia start drinking, then go out onto a balcony where Katya, drunk, tries to impress Sofia by telling her that she and her husband have been sent to Naples to advance some Soviet political agenda, ambiguously either pro- or anti-regime, pro- or anti-communist. In return, Sofia, who is impressed, tells Katya a secret of her own: she is embezzling money from one of Mario’s front companies, in hopes of leaving Naples and setting up flower shop somewhere else on the Mediterranean.

We cut to MARIO’S DRIVER, who is eavesdropping on them. Noticing his presence, Katya intends to warn her husband. However, Sofia, desperate to stop the information discussed from getting back to either Goncharov or Mario, goads Katya to throw the driver off the balcony to his death instead–the first of many murders in the film. Sofia screams for help; Katya, meanwhile, looks fascinated, drawn in.

Goncharov and Katya leave the casino separately. When Katya arrives back at their apartment, very late and very obviously drunk, Goncharov suspects her of infidelity–but with Andrey, not Sofia. That night, Goncharov dreams of his late great-grandfather.

The next day, Goncharov confides his suspicions about Katya in a near-stranger, the cat-loving Italian-American hit man ICEPICK JOE. Icepick Joe reassures Goncharov and takes him to meet Andrey’s half-sister (through a father who was embedded in an Italian partisan group as a Soviet spy/advisor during the War), CATERINA. Caterina warns Goncharov that he can never entirely trust Mario, who is erratic, paranoid, and xenophobic, and by extension not to trust Icepick Joe, who is on Mario’s payroll.

Katya and Sofia have a chance encounter at a fruit stand in a scene redolent of the forbidden fruit in the Book of Genesis. They return to the gambling den, where they behave in a sexually suggestive way with each other in front of Goncharov, precipitating an argument between Goncharov and Andrey that soon escalates into a fistfight. Andrey knocks Goncharov unconscious and Goncharov has another dream of his great-grandfather.

Several days later, Andrey and Goncharov have reconciled without explanation. They debate whether or not they can trust Mario, and implicitly also Caterina (who has advised them not to trust Mario). Katya plays piano in the next room, building to a gradual crescendo that joins with the sound of a ticking grandfather clock to drown out the two men’s voices.

Katya stalks Mario to Mass at the Church of Gesù Nuovo, hoping to talk to him afterwards about his plans for his professional relationship with her husband. At the church she is unsettled by a vituperative anti-mafia sermon by the “angry young man” priest FATHER GIANNI. This is intercut with a scene of Goncharov and Andrey at the same fruit stand where Katya and Sofia encountered each other earlier. They have a long discussion about fruit that takes on metaphorical significance about their feelings of displacement in their new country. They then proceed to commit several assassinations for Mario’s Camorra family in quick succession, which continues to be intercut with Father Gianni’s sermon in much the same manner as the assassination/baptism sequence that ends The Godfather. Mario pays close attention to the sermon and is not as visibly unsettled by it as is Katya.

ACT TWO

Andrey and Caterina visit the recently-closed Fontanelle Cemetery, which they believe is their father’s final resting place. They discuss the sense of homelessness and unbelonging that they attribute to their father (flashbacks will later indicate that this may be projection), and Caterina asks Andrey if he thinks Goncharov feels the same way.

Goncharov, meanwhile, tries to locate Mario to discuss the wave of killings with which the previous act concluded. Mario agrees to meet him at a high-end hotel restaurant, but when Goncharov arrives with Katya accompanying him, they are greeted not by Mario himself but by his mother, MARIELLA. Mariella orders enormous quantities of alcohol and very little food, Goncharov attempts to drink her under the table, and Mariella confides in Goncharov and Katya that she feels that in agreeing to meet with them on her son’s behalf she agreed to walk to her death. Goncharov, disturbed at the implication that Mariella thinks he intended to kill Mario, catches something out of the corner of his eye. He orders one last bottle of liquor “for the table” and, when it arrives, pulls out a handgun and shoots it. As Katya and Mariella take cover from the splashing alcohol and flying glass, Goncharov barges back into the kitchen, where he sees Mario escaping out a back doorway into an alley.

Mario leads Goncharov on a long chase through the cramped streets of Naples, but when Goncharov finally tracks him down, Mario acts chummy and darkly humorous, cracking grim jokes and congratulating Goncharov on “finding him out.” Finally Mario tells Goncharov that he has decided that nobody from the Soviet Union has any place in the Camorra and that they can only be subordinates, never partners. Goncharov leaves without replying to him, but Icepick Joe fires at him with a sniper rifle and wings him, badly damaging Goncharov’s dominant arm.

The movie then follows Icepick Joe as he goes home to his flat, attempts to write a scene in a play fictionalizing (and whitewashing) the historical origins of the Camorra, and feeds the neighborhood street cat Dolce. He goes to confession at a priest’s home (the confessor has the voice of Father Gianni, but is never shown clearly onscreen), is absolved, and wanders Naples at night and into the early morning before falling asleep on the doorstep of a derelict nightclub.

The wounded Goncharov must attend an inconveniently timed meeting with his mysterious backers, who are visiting from the Soviet Union on their way to Latin America. He sends Katya in his place and, in a moment of comic relief that quickly turns dead-serious, she enlists Sofia’s help as a male impersonator to make it look as if Goncharov is present in the conversation but not participating. Unbeknownst to Katya, Sofia has also taken money from Mario and Mariella to provide, or corroborate, false information regarding the efficacy of Goncharov and Andrey’s work for them, in the hope that this will induce the Soviets to withdraw their operations from Naples. Sofia intends to use this money to buy a cruise ship ticket out of Naples so that she can start a new life, much as Goncharov himself is trying to start a new life by relocating from the Soviet Union to Italy.

The two women share a furtive kiss in a dressing room before proceeding to a louche restaurant in which two old, well-dressed Central Asian men grill Katya about the whereabouts of various people whom her husband was meant to have killed. Many of these men were in fact killed in the Act One climax, but Katya does not know this. Sofia, dressed as Goncharov but not particularly plausibly, implies that many of the people Goncharov killed have in fact survived. The two men, infuriated, storm out.

One of the two men, “BRIGHTON BEACH BORIS,” accosts Goncharov at home and demands to know who the “man” with Katya was. Goncharov rises from the bathtub in which he is convalescing and shoots Brighton Beach Boris in a rage. He storms out half-dressed without waiting to see if he has killed Boris. With day breaking, Goncharov wanders Naples screaming Andrey’s name, until he finds and is found by the still-drowsy Icepick Joe. Goncharov returns home with Icepick Joe and falls asleep in his bed, at which point he dreams of his great-grandfather for the third time.

Icepick Joe leaves his flat to feed Dolce; Andrey goes to Goncharov’s flat to tell Katya and Sofia that Goncharov is alive and where they might find him. We see the other Soviet visitor, “IL COMMENDATORE,” whispering orders into Andrey’s ear inGoncharov’s flat after Katya and Sofia leave, intercut with Joe, Katya, and Sofia walking the streets comparing notes on Goncharov’s whereabouts and wellbeing. When Joe, Katya, and Sofia cut through an abandoned construction site on their way back to Joe’s flat, Andrey reappears and opens fire, revealing that he has been instructed to double-cross Goncharov. Katya almost dies in the resulting firefight, but Sofia pulls her to safety and the two women leave Icepick Joe to his fate.

ACT THREE

Andrey, after killing Icepick Joe, has breakfast with Caterina at a restaurant with a panoramic view of the Bay of Naples and Mount Vesuvius. He tells her that he and Goncharov arrived in Naples without any understanding of Mario Ambrosini’s position in the city’s underworld or of his personality. Caterina apologizes and asks if Andrey is sure that Boris and il Commendatore trust him to “clean up the mess”--revealing that Mario’s decision to freeze out the Soviets has made it back to the latter. Andrey assures her that he has their trust, because Goncharov antagonized them by sending Katya to meet with them in his stead and because Caterina gives Andrey a permanent personal relationship in Naples, whereas Goncharov “has no home in this world.”

The movie then begins to escalate to a final showdown between Goncharov and Andrey. Katya and a still badly hurt Goncharov escape from Icepick Joe’s flat and attempt to flee Naples by stealing a boat. During the attempted crossing to Ischia the boat is fired upon; Katya realizes that the prevailing wind is being used to obscure the direction of the gunshots and begins navigating a safe course back towards the mainland. She grounds the boat down the coast from the city and she and Goncharov begin a hard, dreamlike trek overland, finally arriving in the ruins of Pompeii.

Brighton Beach Boris, still alive, has been tracking Goncharov and Katya. Katya notices him and alerts Goncharov, as she initially meant to do with Mario’s driver in Act One. Boris manages to place a phone call to il Commendatore and Andrey before Goncharov shoots him again, this time fatally.

Katya notices that Goncharov’s arm wound has gone septic, endangering the whole limb. She asks him about seeking out a back-alley amputation, a question that escalates into a violent argument when he tells her that he would rather die than lose the ability to shoot. Katya, either afraid of Goncharov or wishing to give him the death he has asked for, fires on her husband, but misses, leading to the famous exchange “I shot you because I love you.”/”If you really loved me, you wouldn’t have missed.”

Andrey and Caterina lead a series of violent reprisals against Mario’s faction, including killing Mariella with a car bomb and Mario himself with a socket wrench. Andrey then sets off for Pompeii for the showdown with Goncharov.

When Andrey arrives, Goncharov asks him to leave Naples together and attempt to leave the criminal underworld. He appeals to their shared childhood in wartime Moscow and seems on the verge of confessing to Andrey that he loves him when Andrey finally opens fire. After a short, brutal fight (guns, then knives, then fists) that Goncharov loses badly, Andrey embraces Goncharov, then shoots him through the head from ear to ear.

Seeing Katya, Andrey attempts to apologize, but Katya simply leaves without a word, as Goncharov did during his earlier confrontation with Mario. Andrey realizes that in killing Goncharov he has killed a part of his own self, the part that always wavers and reinvents and tries to find somewhere to belong. He embraces Goncharov’s dead body in a shot mimicking Ilya Repin’s “Ivan the Terrible Killing His Son.” Then he drives back to Naples in silence to rendezvous with il Commendatore and discuss the problems of succession in the leadership of the Camorra.

Il Commendatore sends an assassin after Katya, but Sofia, who is visiting Katya to console her about Goncharov’s death, takes the bullet for her. With her last breath, Sofia offers Katya the cruise ship ticket that she bought with the money Mario and Mariella gave her for precipitating Goncharov’s fall. Katya accepts the ticket, feigns willingness to become il Commendatore’s mistress, and poisons him.

Katya spends most of her time on the cruise ship trying and failing to write the first draft of a novel. Finally, she stuffs the fragmentary draft into a wine bottle and casts it out onto the waters of Mare Nostrum, where it slowly fades to the iconic final shot of a running sandglass.

THE END

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1987 DIRECTOR’S CUT

ACT ONE

Naples, 1973. A mysterious stranger with a suitcase full of ammunition and counterfeit money arrives from the Soviet Union. He is met at the airport by ANDREY, a man claiming to be his cousin.

Andrey makes introductions for his so-called cousin GONCHAROV with a group of Camorra figures led by MARIO AMBROSINI. Mario invites Goncharov to a gambling den to discuss unspecified “resources” that Goncharov has brought with him from Moscow. Andrey escorts Goncharov to his apartment, where they rendezvous with Goncharov’s wife, KATYA.

That evening, Goncharov and Katya go to the gambling den for the meeting with Mario. While Goncharov and Mario are talking, Katya wanders off and begins flirting with SOFIA, a local woman with a haunted, hardbitten look. Katya and Sofia start drinking, then go out onto a balcony where Katya, drunk, tries to impress Sofia by telling her that she and her husband have been sent to Naples to advance some Soviet political agenda, ambiguously either pro- or anti-regime, pro- or anti-communist. In return, Sofia, who is impressed, tells Katya a secret of her own: she is embezzling money from one of Mario’s front companies, in hopes of leaving Naples and setting up flower shop somewhere else on the Mediterranean.

We cut to MARIO’S DRIVER, who is eavesdropping on them. Noticing his presence, Katya intends to warn her husband. However, Sofia, desperate to stop the information discussed from getting back to either Goncharov or Mario, goads Katya to throw the driver off the balcony to his death instead–the first of many murders in the film. Sofia screams for help; Katya, meanwhile, looks fascinated, drawn in.

Goncharov and Katya leave the casino separately. When Katya arrives back at their apartment, very late and very obviously drunk, Goncharov suspects her of infidelity–but with Andrey, not Sofia. That night, Goncharov dreams of his late great-grandfather.

The next day, Goncharov confides his suspicions about Katya in a near-stranger, the cat-loving Italian-American hit man ICEPICK JOE. Icepick Joe reassures Goncharov and takes him to meet Andrey’s half-sister (through a father who was embedded in an Italian partisan group as a Soviet spy/advisor during the War), CATERINA. Caterina warns Goncharov that he can never entirely trust Mario, who is erratic, paranoid, and xenophobic, and by extension not to trust Icepick Joe, who is on Mario’s payroll.

Katya and Sofia have a chance encounter at a fruit stand in a scene redolent of the forbidden fruit in the Book of Genesis. They return to the gambling den, where they behave in a sexually suggestive way with each other in front of Goncharov, precipitating an argument between Goncharov and Andrey that soon escalates into a fistfight. Andrey knocks Goncharov unconscious and Goncharov has another dream of his great-grandfather.

Several days later, Andrey and Goncharov have reconciled without explanation. They debate whether or not they can trust Mario, and implicitly also Caterina (who has advised them not to trust Mario). Katya plays piano in the next room, building to a gradual crescendo that joins with the sound of a ticking grandfather clock to drown out the two men’s voices.

Katya stalks Mario to Mass at the Church of Gesù Nuovo, hoping to talk to him afterwards about his plans for his professional relationship with her husband. At the church she is unsettled by a vituperative anti-mafia sermon by the “angry young man” priest FATHER GIANNI. This is intercut with a scene of Goncharov and Andrey at the same fruit stand where Katya and Sofia encountered each other earlier. They have a long discussion about fruit that takes on metaphorical significance about their feelings of displacement in their new country. They then proceed to commit several assassinations for Mario’s Camorra family in quick succession, which continues to be intercut with Father Gianni’s sermon in much the same manner as the assassination/baptism sequence that ends The Godfather. Mario pays close attention to the sermon and is not as visibly unsettled by it as is Katya.

ACT TWO

Andrey and Caterina visit the recently-closed Fontanelle Cemetery, which they believe is their father’s final resting place. They discuss the sense of homelessness and unbelonging that they attribute to their father (flashbacks will later indicate that this may be projection), and Caterina asks Andrey if he thinks Goncharov feels the same way.

Goncharov, meanwhile, tries to locate Mario to discuss the wave of killings with which the previous act concluded. Mario agrees to meet him at a high-end hotel restaurant, but when Goncharov arrives with Katya accompanying him, they are greeted not by Mario himself but by his mother, MARIELLA. Mariella orders enormous quantities of alcohol and very little food, Goncharov attempts to drink her under the table, and Mariella confides in Goncharov and Katya that she feels that in agreeing to meet with them on her son’s behalf she agreed to walk to her death. Goncharov, disturbed at the implication that Mariella thinks he intended to kill Mario, catches something out of the corner of his eye. He orders one last bottle of liquor “for the table” and, when it arrives, pulls out a handgun and shoots it. As Katya and Mariella take cover from the splashing alcohol and flying glass, Goncharov barges back into the kitchen, where he sees Mario escaping out a back doorway into an alley.

Mario leads Goncharov on a long chase through the cramped streets of Naples, but when Goncharov finally tracks him down, Mario acts chummy and darkly humorous, cracking grim jokes and congratulating Goncharov on “finding him out.” Finally Mario tells Goncharov that he has decided that nobody from the Soviet Union has any place in the Camorra and that they can only be subordinates, never partners. Goncharov leaves without replying to him, but Icepick Joe fires at him with a sniper rifle and wings him, badly damaging Goncharov’s dominant arm.

The movie then follows Icepick Joe as he goes home to his flat, attempts to write a scene in a play fictionalizing (and whitewashing) the historical origins of the Camorra, and feeds the neighborhood street cat Dolce. The scenes of Icepick Joe at home are intercut with flashbacks showing his life in a mental institution before relocating to Italy, having been declared “feebleminded” by eugenicist doctors when he was a child prior to World War II. In 1960 he is released from the mental institution after a botched lobotomy and groomed into a life of crime by a member of his extended family who is never named, moving to Italy in 1966.

When the flashbacks and cat-feeding sequences conclude, Icepick Joe goes to confession at a priest’s home (the confessor has the voice of Father Gianni, but is never shown clearly onscreen), is absolved, and wanders Naples at night and into the early morning before falling asleep on the doorstep of a derelict nightclub.

The wounded Goncharov must attend an inconveniently timed meeting with his mysterious backers, who are visiting from the Soviet Union on their way to Latin America. He sends Katya in his place and, in a moment of comic relief that quickly turns dead-serious, she enlists Sofia’s help as a male impersonator to make it look as if Goncharov is present in the conversation but not participating. Unbeknownst to Katya, Sofia has also taken money from Mario and Mariella to provide, or corroborate, false information regarding the efficacy of Goncharov and Andrey’s work for them, in the hope that this will induce the Soviets to withdraw their operations from Naples. Sofia intends to use this money to buy a cruise ship ticket out of Naples so that she can start a new life, much as Goncharov himself is trying to start a new life by relocating from the Soviet Union to Italy.

The two women share a furtive kiss in a dressing room before proceeding to a louche restaurant in which two old, well-dressed Central Asian men grill Katya about the whereabouts of various people whom her husband was meant to have killed. Many of these men were in fact killed in the Act One climax, but Katya does not know this. Sofia, dressed as Goncharov but not particularly plausibly, implies that many of the people Goncharov killed have in fact survived. The two men, infuriated, storm out.

One of the two men, “BRIGHTON BEACH BORIS,” accosts Goncharov at home and demands to know who the “man” with Katya was. Goncharov rises from the bathtub in which he is convalescing and shoots Brighton Beach Boris in a rage. He storms out half-dressed without waiting to see if he has killed Boris. With day breaking, Goncharov wanders Naples screaming Andrey’s name, until he finds and is found by the still-drowsy Icepick Joe. Goncharov returns home with Icepick Joe and falls asleep in his bed, at which point he dreams of his great-grandfather for the third time.

Icepick Joe leaves his flat to feed Dolce; Andrey goes to Goncharov’s flat to tell Katya and Sofia that Goncharov is alive and where they might find him. We see the other Soviet visitor, “IL COMMENDATORE,” whispering orders into Andrey’s ear inGoncharov’s flat after Katya and Sofia leave, intercut with Joe, Katya, and Sofia walking the streets comparing notes on Goncharov’s whereabouts and wellbeing. When Joe, Katya, and Sofia cut through an abandoned construction site on their way back to Joe’s flat, Andrey reappears and opens fire, revealing that he has been instructed to double-cross Goncharov. Katya almost dies in the resulting firefight, but Sofia pulls her to safety and the two women leave Icepick Joe to his fate.

ACT THREE

Andrey, after killing Icepick Joe, has breakfast with Caterina at a restaurant with a panoramic view of the Bay of Naples and Mount Vesuvius. He tells her that he and Goncharov arrived in Naples without any understanding of Mario Ambrosini’s position in the city’s underworld or of his personality. Caterina apologizes and asks if Andrey is sure that Boris and il Commendatore trust him to “clean up the mess”--revealing that Mario’s decision to freeze out the Soviets has made it back to the latter. Andrey assures her that he has their trust, because Goncharov antagonized them by sending Katya to meet with them in his stead and because Caterina gives Andrey a permanent personal relationship in Naples, whereas Goncharov “has no home in this world.”

The movie then begins to escalate to a final showdown between Goncharov and Andrey. Katya and a still badly hurt Goncharov escape from Icepick Joe’s flat and attempt to flee Naples by stealing a boat. During the attempted crossing to Ischia the boat is fired upon; Katya realizes that the prevailing wind is being used to obscure the direction of the gunshots and begins navigating a safe course back towards the mainland. She grounds the boat down the coast from the city and she and Goncharov begin a hard, dreamlike trek overland, finally arriving in the ruins of Pompeii.

Brighton Beach Boris, still alive, has been tracking Goncharov and Katya. Katya notices him and alerts Goncharov, as she initially meant to do with Mario’s driver in Act One. Boris manages to place a phone call to il Commendatore and Andrey before Goncharov shoots him again, this time fatally.

Katya notices that Goncharov’s arm wound has gone septic, endangering the whole limb. She asks him about seeking out a back-alley amputation, a question that escalates into a violent argument when he tells her that he would rather die than lose the ability to shoot. Katya, either afraid of Goncharov or wishing to give him the death he has asked for, fires on her husband, but misses, leading to the famous exchange “I shot you because I love you.”/”If you really loved me, you wouldn’t have missed.”

Andrey and Caterina lead a series of violent reprisals against Mario’s faction, including killing Mariella with a car bomb and Mario himself with a socket wrench. Andrey then sets off for Pompeii for the showdown with Goncharov.

When Andrey arrives, Goncharov asks him to leave Naples together and attempt to leave the criminal underworld. He appeals to their shared childhood in wartime Moscow and seems on the verge of confessing to Andrey that he loves him when Andrey finally opens fire. After a short, brutal fight (guns, then knives, then fists) that Goncharov loses badly, Andrey embraces Goncharov, then shoots him through the head from ear to ear.

Seeing Katya, Andrey attempts to apologize, but Katya simply leaves without a word, as Goncharov did during his earlier confrontation with Mario. Andrey realizes that in killing Goncharov he has killed a part of his own self, the part that always wavers and reinvents and tries to find somewhere to belong. He embraces Goncharov’s dead body in a shot mimicking Ilya Repin’s “Ivan the Terrible Killing His Son.” Then he drives back to Naples in silence to rendezvous with il Commendatore and discuss the problems of succession in the leadership of the Camorra.

Sofia asks Katya to leave Naples with her on a cruise ship, but Katya insists on staying and working to take down Andrey and il Commendatore; she is last seen walking to her death in a standoff with il Commendatore’s goons. Sofia spends most of her time on the cruise trying and failing to finish the first draft of a novel that Katya had started. Finally, she stuffs the fragmentary draft into a wine bottle and casts it out onto the waters of Mare Nostrum, where it slowly fades to the iconic final shot of a running sandglass.

THE END

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1993 RERELEASE (INFLUENCED BY LESBIAN AND FEMINIST CRITIQUE IN 1980S AND EARLY 1990S)

ACT ONE

Naples, 1973. A mysterious stranger with a suitcase full of ammunition and counterfeit money arrives from the Soviet Union. He is met at the airport by ANDREY, a man claiming to be his cousin.

Andrey makes introductions for his so-called cousin GONCHAROV with a group of Camorra figures led by MARIO AMBROSINI. Mario invites Goncharov to a gambling den to discuss unspecified “resources” that Goncharov has brought with him from Moscow. Andrey escorts Goncharov to his apartment, where they rendezvous with Goncharov’s wife, KATYA.

That evening, Goncharov and Katya go to the gambling den for the meeting with Mario. While Goncharov and Mario are talking, Katya wanders off and begins flirting with SOFIA, a local woman with a haunted, hardbitten look. Katya and Sofia start drinking, then go out onto a balcony where Katya, drunk, tries to impress Sofia by telling her that she and her husband have been sent to Naples to advance some Soviet political agenda, ambiguously either pro- or anti-regime, pro- or anti-communist. In return, Sofia, who is impressed, tells Katya a secret of her own: she is embezzling money from one of Mario’s front companies, in hopes of leaving Naples and setting up flower shop somewhere else on the Mediterranean.

We cut to MARIO’S DRIVER, who is eavesdropping on them. Noticing his presence, Katya intends to warn her husband. However, Sofia, desperate to stop the information discussed from getting back to either Goncharov or Mario, goads Katya to throw the driver off the balcony to his death instead–the first of many murders in the film. Sofia screams for help; Katya, meanwhile, looks fascinated, drawn in.

Goncharov and Katya leave the casino separately. When Katya arrives back at their apartment, very late and very obviously drunk, Goncharov suspects her of infidelity–but with Andrey, not Sofia. That night, Goncharov dreams of his late great-grandfather.

The next day, Goncharov confides his suspicions about Katya in a near-stranger, the cat-loving Italian-American hit man ICEPICK JOE. Icepick Joe reassures Goncharov and takes him to meet Andrey’s half-sister (through a father who was embedded in an Italian partisan group as a Soviet spy/advisor during the War), CATERINA. Caterina warns Goncharov that he can never entirely trust Mario, who is erratic, paranoid, and xenophobic, and by extension not to trust Icepick Joe, who is on Mario’s payroll.

Katya and Sofia have a chance encounter at a fruit stand in a scene redolent of the forbidden fruit in the Book of Genesis. They return to the gambling den, where they behave in a sexually suggestive way with each other in front of Goncharov, precipitating an argument between Goncharov and Andrey that soon escalates into a fistfight. Andrey knocks Goncharov unconscious and Goncharov has another dream of his great-grandfather.

Several days later, Andrey and Goncharov have reconciled without explanation. They debate whether or not they can trust Mario, and implicitly also Caterina (who has advised them not to trust Mario). Katya plays piano in the next room, building to a gradual crescendo that joins with the sound of a ticking grandfather clock to drown out the two men’s voices.

Katya stalks Mario to Mass at the Church of Gesù Nuovo, hoping to talk to him afterwards about his plans for his professional relationship with her husband. At the church she is unsettled by a vituperative anti-mafia sermon by the “angry young man” priest FATHER GIANNI. This is intercut with a scene of Goncharov and Andrey at the same fruit stand where Katya and Sofia encountered each other earlier. They have a long discussion about fruit that takes on metaphorical significance about their feelings of displacement in their new country. They then proceed to commit several assassinations for Mario’s Camorra family in quick succession, which continues to be intercut with Father Gianni’s sermon in much the same manner as the assassination/baptism sequence that ends The Godfather. Mario pays close attention to the sermon and is not as visibly unsettled by it as is Katya.

ACT TWO

Andrey and Caterina visit the recently-closed Fontanelle Cemetery, which they believe is their father’s final resting place. They discuss the sense of homelessness and unbelonging that they attribute to their father (flashbacks will later indicate that this may be projection), and Caterina asks Andrey if he thinks Goncharov feels the same way.

Goncharov, meanwhile, tries to locate Mario to discuss the wave of killings with which the previous act concluded. Mario agrees to meet him at a high-end hotel restaurant, but when Goncharov arrives with Katya accompanying him, they are greeted not by Mario himself but by his mother, MARIELLA. Mariella orders enormous quantities of alcohol and very little food, Goncharov attempts to drink her under the table, and Mariella confides in Goncharov and Katya that she feels that in agreeing to meet with them on her son’s behalf she agreed to walk to her death. Goncharov, disturbed at the implication that Mariella thinks he intended to kill Mario, catches something out of the corner of his eye. He orders one last bottle of liquor “for the table” and, when it arrives, pulls out a handgun and shoots it. As Katya and Mariella take cover from the splashing alcohol and flying glass, Goncharov barges back into the kitchen, where he sees Mario escaping out a back doorway into an alley.

Mario leads Goncharov on a long chase through the cramped streets of Naples, but when Goncharov finally tracks him down, Mario acts chummy and darkly humorous, cracking grim jokes and congratulating Goncharov on “finding him out.” Finally Mario tells Goncharov that he has decided that nobody from the Soviet Union has any place in the Camorra and that they can only be subordinates, never partners. Goncharov leaves without replying to him, but Icepick Joe fires at him with a sniper rifle and wings him, badly damaging Goncharov’s dominant arm.

The movie then follows Icepick Joe as he goes home to his flat, attempts to write a scene in a play fictionalizing (and whitewashing) the historical origins of the Camorra, and feeds the neighborhood street cat Dolce. He goes to confession at a priest’s home (the confessor has the voice of Father Gianni, but is never shown clearly onscreen), is absolved, and wanders Naples at night and into the early morning before falling asleep on the doorstep of a derelict nightclub.

The wounded Goncharov must attend an inconveniently timed meeting with his mysterious backers, who are visiting from the Soviet Union on their way to Latin America. He sends Katya in his place and, in a moment of comic relief that quickly turns dead-serious, she enlists Sofia’s help as a male impersonator to make it look as if Goncharov is present in the conversation but not participating. The two women share a furtive kiss in a dressing room before proceeding to a louche restaurant in which two old, well-dressed Central Asian men grill Katya about the whereabouts of various people whom her husband was meant to have killed. Many of these men were in fact killed in the Act One climax, but Katya does not know this. The two men, infuriated, storm out.

One of the two men, “BRIGHTON BEACH BORIS,” accosts Goncharov at home and demands to know who the “man” with Katya was. Goncharov rises from the bathtub in which he is convalescing and shoots Brighton Beach Boris in a rage. He storms out half-dressed without waiting to see if he has killed Boris. With day breaking, Goncharov wanders Naples screaming Andrey’s name, until he finds and is found by the still-drowsy Icepick Joe. Goncharov returns home with Icepick Joe and falls asleep in his bed, at which point he dreams of his great-grandfather for the third time.

Icepick Joe leaves his flat to feed Dolce; Andrey goes to Goncharov’s flat to tell Katya and Sofia that Goncharov is alive and where they might find him. We see the other Soviet visitor, “IL COMMENDATORE,” whispering orders into Andrey’s ear inGoncharov’s flat after Katya and Sofia leave, intercut with Joe, Katya, and Sofia walking the streets comparing notes on Goncharov’s whereabouts and wellbeing. When Joe, Katya, and Sofia cut through an abandoned construction site on their way back to Joe’s flat, Andrey reappears and opens fire, revealing that he has been instructed to double-cross Goncharov. Katya almost dies in the resulting firefight, but Sofia pulls her to safety and the two women leave Icepick Joe to his fate.

ACT THREE

Andrey, after killing Icepick Joe, has breakfast with Caterina at a restaurant with a panoramic view of the Bay of Naples and Mount Vesuvius. He tells her that he and Goncharov arrived in Naples without any understanding of Mario Ambrosini’s position in the city’s underworld or of his personality. Caterina apologizes and asks if Andrey is sure that Boris and il Commendatore trust him to “clean up the mess”--revealing that Mario’s decision to freeze out the Soviets has made it back to the latter. Andrey assures her that he has their trust, because Goncharov antagonized them by sending Katya to meet with them in his stead and because Caterina gives Andrey a permanent personal relationship in Naples, whereas Goncharov “has no home in this world.”

The movie then begins to escalate to a final showdown between Goncharov and Andrey. Katya and a still badly hurt Goncharov escape from Icepick Joe’s flat and attempt to flee Naples by stealing a boat. During the attempted crossing to Ischia the boat is fired upon; Katya realizes that the prevailing wind is being used to obscure the direction of the gunshots and begins navigating a safe course back towards the mainland. She grounds the boat down the coast from the city and she and Goncharov begin a hard, dreamlike trek overland, finally arriving in the ruins of Pompeii.

Brighton Beach Boris, still alive, has been tracking Goncharov and Katya. Katya notices him and alerts Goncharov, as she initially meant to do with Mario’s driver in Act One. Boris manages to place a phone call to il Commendatore and Andrey before Goncharov shoots him again, this time fatally.

Katya notices that Goncharov’s arm wound has gone septic, endangering the whole limb. She asks him about seeking out a back-alley amputation, a question that escalates into a violent argument when he tells her that he would rather die than lose the ability to shoot. Katya, either afraid of Goncharov or wishing to give him the death he has asked for, fires on her husband, but misses, leading to the famous exchange “I shot you because I love you.”/”If you really loved me, you wouldn’t have missed.”

Andrey and Caterina lead a series of violent reprisals against Mario’s faction, including killing Mariella with a car bomb and Mario himself with a socket wrench. Andrey then sets off for Pompeii for the showdown with Goncharov.

When Andrey arrives, Goncharov asks him to leave Naples together and attempt to leave the criminal underworld. He appeals to their shared childhood in wartime Moscow and seems on the verge of confessing to Andrey that he loves him when Andrey finally opens fire. After a short, brutal fight (guns, then knives, then fists) that Goncharov loses badly, Andrey embraces Goncharov, then shoots him through the head from ear to ear.

Seeing Katya, Andrey attempts to apologize, but Katya simply leaves without a word, as Goncharov did during his earlier confrontation with Mario. Andrey realizes that in killing Goncharov he has killed a part of his own self, the part that always wavers and reinvents and tries to find somewhere to belong. He embraces Goncharov’s dead body in a shot mimicking Ilya Repin’s “Ivan the Terrible Killing His Son.” Then he drives back to Naples in silence to rendezvous with il Commendatore and discuss the problems of succession in the leadership of the Camorra.

Katya and Sofia leave Naples together on a cruise ship, but are less comfortable with each other than before. Katya spends most of her time on the cruise trying and failing to finish the first draft of a novel. Finally, she stuffs the fragmentary draft into a wine bottle and casts it out onto the waters of Mare Nostrum, where it slowly fades to the iconic final shot of a running sandglass.

THE END

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2003 RERELEASE (RESTORES KATYA AND SOFIA’S ORIGINAL ENDINGS; INCLUDES ICEPICK JOE’S BACKSTORY)

ACT ONE

Naples, 1973. A mysterious stranger with a suitcase full of ammunition and counterfeit money arrives from the Soviet Union. He is met at the airport by ANDREY, a man claiming to be his cousin.

Andrey makes introductions for his so-called cousin GONCHAROV with a group of Camorra figures led by MARIO AMBROSINI. Mario invites Goncharov to a gambling den to discuss unspecified “resources” that Goncharov has brought with him from Moscow. Andrey escorts Goncharov to his apartment, where they rendezvous with Goncharov’s wife, KATYA.

That evening, Goncharov and Katya go to the gambling den for the meeting with Mario. While Goncharov and Mario are talking, Katya wanders off and begins flirting with SOFIA, a local woman with a haunted, hardbitten look. Katya and Sofia start drinking, then go out onto a balcony where Katya, drunk, tries to impress Sofia by telling her that she and her husband have been sent to Naples to advance some Soviet political agenda, ambiguously either pro- or anti-regime, pro- or anti-communist. In return, Sofia, who is impressed, tells Katya a secret of her own: she is embezzling money from one of Mario’s front companies, in hopes of leaving Naples and setting up flower shop somewhere else on the Mediterranean.

We cut to MARIO’S DRIVER, who is eavesdropping on them. Noticing his presence, Katya intends to warn her husband. However, Sofia, desperate to stop the information discussed from getting back to either Goncharov or Mario, goads Katya to throw the driver off the balcony to his death instead–the first of many murders in the film. Sofia screams for help; Katya, meanwhile, looks fascinated, drawn in.

Goncharov and Katya leave the casino separately. When Katya arrives back at their apartment, very late and very obviously drunk, Goncharov suspects her of infidelity–but with Andrey, not Sofia. That night, Goncharov dreams of his late great-grandfather.

The next day, Goncharov confides his suspicions about Katya in a near-stranger, the cat-loving Italian-American hit man ICEPICK JOE. Icepick Joe reassures Goncharov and takes him to meet Andrey’s half-sister (through a father who was embedded in an Italian partisan group as a Soviet spy/advisor during the War), CATERINA. Caterina warns Goncharov that he can never entirely trust Mario, who is erratic, paranoid, and xenophobic, and by extension not to trust Icepick Joe, who is on Mario’s payroll.

Katya and Sofia have a chance encounter at a fruit stand in a scene redolent of the forbidden fruit in the Book of Genesis. They return to the gambling den, where they behave in a sexually suggestive way with each other in front of Goncharov, precipitating an argument between Goncharov and Andrey that soon escalates into a fistfight. Andrey knocks Goncharov unconscious and Goncharov has another dream of his great-grandfather.

Several days later, Andrey and Goncharov have reconciled without explanation. They debate whether or not they can trust Mario, and implicitly also Caterina (who has advised them not to trust Mario). Katya plays piano in the next room, building to a gradual crescendo that joins with the sound of a ticking grandfather clock to drown out the two men’s voices.

Katya stalks Mario to Mass at the Church of Gesù Nuovo, hoping to talk to him afterwards about his plans for his professional relationship with her husband. At the church she is unsettled by a vituperative anti-mafia sermon by the “angry young man” priest FATHER GIANNI. This is intercut with a scene of Goncharov and Andrey at the same fruit stand where Katya and Sofia encountered each other earlier. They have a long discussion about fruit that takes on metaphorical significance about their feelings of displacement in their new country. They then proceed to commit several assassinations for Mario’s Camorra family in quick succession, which continues to be intercut with Father Gianni’s sermon in much the same manner as the assassination/baptism sequence that ends The Godfather. Mario pays close attention to the sermon and is not as visibly unsettled by it as is Katya.

ACT TWO

Andrey and Caterina visit the recently-closed Fontanelle Cemetery, which they believe is their father’s final resting place. They discuss the sense of homelessness and unbelonging that they attribute to their father (flashbacks will later indicate that this may be projection), and Caterina asks Andrey if he thinks Goncharov feels the same way.

Goncharov, meanwhile, tries to locate Mario to discuss the wave of killings with which the previous act concluded. Mario agrees to meet him at a high-end hotel restaurant, but when Goncharov arrives with Katya accompanying him, they are greeted not by Mario himself but by his mother, MARIELLA. Mariella orders enormous quantities of alcohol and very little food, Goncharov attempts to drink her under the table, and Mariella confides in Goncharov and Katya that she feels that in agreeing to meet with them on her son’s behalf she agreed to walk to her death. Goncharov, disturbed at the implication that Mariella thinks he intended to kill Mario, catches something out of the corner of his eye. He orders one last bottle of liquor “for the table” and, when it arrives, pulls out a handgun and shoots it. As Katya and Mariella take cover from the splashing alcohol and flying glass, Goncharov barges back into the kitchen, where he sees Mario escaping out a back doorway into an alley.

Mario leads Goncharov on a long chase through the cramped streets of Naples, but when Goncharov finally tracks him down, Mario acts chummy and darkly humorous, cracking grim jokes and congratulating Goncharov on “finding him out.” Finally Mario tells Goncharov that he has decided that nobody from the Soviet Union has any place in the Camorra and that they can only be subordinates, never partners. Goncharov leaves without replying to him, but Icepick Joe fires at him with a sniper rifle and wings him, badly damaging Goncharov’s dominant arm.

The movie then follows Icepick Joe as he goes home to his flat, attempts to write a scene in a play fictionalizing (and whitewashing) the historical origins of the Camorra, and feeds the neighborhood street cat Dolce. The scenes of Icepick Joe at home are intercut with flashbacks showing his life in a mental institution before relocating to Italy, having been declared “feebleminded” by eugenicist doctors when he was a child prior to World War II. In 1960 he is released from the mental institution after a botched lobotomy and groomed into a life of crime by a member of his extended family who is never named, moving to Italy in 1966.

When the flashbacks and cat-feeding sequences conclude, Icepick Joe goes to confession at a priest’s home (the confessor has the voice of Father Gianni, but is never shown clearly onscreen), is absolved, and wanders Naples at night and into the early morning before falling asleep on the doorstep of a derelict nightclub.

The wounded Goncharov must attend an inconveniently timed meeting with his mysterious backers, who are visiting from the Soviet Union on their way to Latin America. He sends Katya in his place and, in a moment of comic relief that quickly turns dead-serious, she enlists Sofia’s help as a male impersonator to make it look as if Goncharov is present in the conversation but not participating. Unbeknownst to Katya, Sofia has also taken money from Mario and Mariella to provide, or corroborate, false information regarding the efficacy of Goncharov and Andrey’s work for them, in the hope that this will induce the Soviets to withdraw their operations from Naples. Sofia intends to use this money to buy a cruise ship ticket out of Naples so that she can start a new life, much as Goncharov himself is trying to start a new life by relocating from the Soviet Union to Italy.

The two women share a furtive kiss in a dressing room before proceeding to a louche restaurant in which two old, well-dressed Central Asian men grill Katya about the whereabouts of various people whom her husband was meant to have killed. Many of these men were in fact killed in the Act One climax, but Katya does not know this. Sofia, dressed as Goncharov but not particularly plausibly, implies that many of the people Goncharov killed have in fact survived. The two men, infuriated, storm out.

One of the two men, “BRIGHTON BEACH BORIS,” accosts Goncharov at home and demands to know who the “man” with Katya was. Goncharov rises from the bathtub in which he is convalescing and shoots Brighton Beach Boris in a rage. He storms out half-dressed without waiting to see if he has killed Boris. With day breaking, Goncharov wanders Naples screaming Andrey’s name, until he finds and is found by the still-drowsy Icepick Joe. Goncharov returns home with Icepick Joe and falls asleep in his bed, at which point he dreams of his great-grandfather for the third time.

Icepick Joe leaves his flat to feed Dolce; Andrey goes to Goncharov’s flat to tell Katya and Sofia that Goncharov is alive and where they might find him. We see the other Soviet visitor, “IL COMMENDATORE,” whispering orders into Andrey’s ear inGoncharov’s flat after Katya and Sofia leave, intercut with Joe, Katya, and Sofia walking the streets comparing notes on Goncharov’s whereabouts and wellbeing. When Joe, Katya, and Sofia cut through an abandoned construction site on their way back to Joe’s flat, Andrey reappears and opens fire, revealing that he has been instructed to double-cross Goncharov. Katya almost dies in the resulting firefight, but Sofia pulls her to safety and the two women leave Icepick Joe to his fate.

ACT THREE

Andrey, after killing Icepick Joe, has breakfast with Caterina at a restaurant with a panoramic view of the Bay of Naples and Mount Vesuvius. He tells her that he and Goncharov arrived in Naples without any understanding of Mario Ambrosini’s position in the city’s underworld or of his personality. Caterina apologizes and asks if Andrey is sure that Boris and il Commendatore trust him to “clean up the mess”--revealing that Mario’s decision to freeze out the Soviets has made it back to the latter. Andrey assures her that he has their trust, because Goncharov antagonized them by sending Katya to meet with them in his stead and because Caterina gives Andrey a permanent personal relationship in Naples, whereas Goncharov “has no home in this world.”

The movie then begins to escalate to a final showdown between Goncharov and Andrey. Katya and a still badly hurt Goncharov escape from Icepick Joe’s flat and attempt to flee Naples by stealing a boat. During the attempted crossing to Ischia the boat is fired upon; Katya realizes that the prevailing wind is being used to obscure the direction of the gunshots and begins navigating a safe course back towards the mainland. She grounds the boat down the coast from the city and she and Goncharov begin a hard, dreamlike trek overland, finally arriving in the ruins of Pompeii.

Brighton Beach Boris, still alive, has been tracking Goncharov and Katya. Katya notices him and alerts Goncharov, as she initially meant to do with Mario’s driver in Act One. Boris manages to place a phone call to il Commendatore and Andrey before Goncharov shoots him again, this time fatally.

Katya notices that Goncharov’s arm wound has gone septic, endangering the whole limb. She asks him about seeking out a back-alley amputation, a question that escalates into a violent argument when he tells her that he would rather die than lose the ability to shoot. Katya, either afraid of Goncharov or wishing to give him the death he has asked for, fires on her husband, but misses, leading to the famous exchange “I shot you because I love you.”/”If you really loved me, you wouldn’t have missed.”

Andrey and Caterina lead a series of violent reprisals against Mario’s faction, including killing Mariella with a car bomb and Mario himself with a socket wrench. Andrey then sets off for Pompeii for the showdown with Goncharov.

When Andrey arrives, Goncharov asks him to leave Naples together and attempt to leave the criminal underworld. He appeals to their shared childhood in wartime Moscow and seems on the verge of confessing to Andrey that he loves him when Andrey finally opens fire. After a short, brutal fight (guns, then knives, then fists) that Goncharov loses badly, Andrey embraces Goncharov, then shoots him through the head from ear to ear.

Seeing Katya, Andrey attempts to apologize, but Katya simply leaves without a word, as Goncharov did during his earlier confrontation with Mario. Andrey realizes that in killing Goncharov he has killed a part of his own self, the part that always wavers and reinvents and tries to find somewhere to belong. He embraces Goncharov’s dead body in a shot mimicking Ilya Repin’s “Ivan the Terrible Killing His Son.” Then he drives back to Naples in silence to rendezvous with il Commendatore and discuss the problems of succession in the leadership of the Camorra.

Il Commendatore sends an assassin after Katya, but Sofia, who is visiting Katya to console her about Goncharov’s death, takes the bullet for her. With her last breath, Sofia offers Katya the cruise ship ticket that she bought with the money Mario and Mariella gave her for precipitating Goncharov’s fall. Katya accepts the ticket, feigns willingness to become il Commendatore’s mistress, and poisons him.

Katya spends most of her time on the cruise ship trying and failing to write the first draft of a novel. Finally, she stuffs the fragmentary draft into a wine bottle and casts it out onto the waters of Mare Nostrum, where it slowly fades to the iconic final shot of a running sandglass.

THE END

Short Story: “The Watch and the Windrose”

Once upon a time there was a mechanical watch who fell in love with a rose of the winds. She would visit him at all hours of the day, and she would grace him with her winds in accordance with his hours. Her cold dry tramontanes teased him at midnight and kept him cool at noon; her brisk wet levantes made him worry for his movement in the witching hour and in midafternoon; her siroccos and ostros and libeccios through dawn and through dusk warned him of the dangers of day or of night; at breakfast and dinner her easygoing ponentes entertained him at table and her stiff self-confident mistrals sent him to work or to sleep.

So much love had the watch for the windrose that he tried to be like her as much as he could. He would try his hands at measuring not time but speed and distance, and the results would be multicolored charts that people found difficult to read; he would reach into himself and rearrange his workings and turn himself into a weathercock, but he would still only be the receptor of her winds, still would not become her winds himself.

“Why do you want to become me?” she asked him.

“Is not real love a desire to imitate the person one loves?” he asked her.

“Is it? I don’t know love except from you. I am only the winds.”

“How is it,” he asked, “that you are so unbound by form? You blow here and there, and the whole sky and all who inhabit it greet you and pass through you and around you. Try as I might, rearrange myself as I might, I am metal and glass and gems; gems and glass and metal thus limit my beauty.”

“Why do you think that a beauty that is limited should destroy itself in order to become a beauty that is unlimited?”

“Why do you not think so?” the mechanical watch asked, wroth now, but not at her. He had just now realized that certain things, certain motives, certain desires of his did not admit of explanation, and he hated so to realize.

“It endangers the limited to pursue the unlimited.” The windrose was quoting an old, old book in saying this; her gregales and levantes and siroccos had picked up the scent of the book far, far away, and over seas and mountains that scent had come, had been done from Chinese into Sabir and long ages later from Sabir into English, and had sprung up in her mind now as something to share with the watch by way of warning. The anger on his face—his second hand was whirling and reeling—reminded her of her own most tempestuous rages, and she knew full well with how much fear and remorse she looked back on her own simouns and cyclones.

“There is danger in all things,” said the watch, calming down. Speaking to the windrose always had a way of becalming him in the end, even if it was as a typhoon that the conversation began. And he knew in saying this that he was not a mechanical watch any longer, although what he was now he did not know, and he did not think that he was on his way to being a windrose.

Novella: “The Devil in the Twenty-third Century” (Part Four; Final)

Elmgrove

August 29, 2209

Jess was listening to a “Northies Out Now” demonstration on the radio with a feeling of poised horror just after Cindy and Milt left for the first full school day of the year. She was dreading her tennis date this afternoon because she was fully expecting Etta to try to talk to her about this; Etta almost certainly had very firmly decided views on what was going on, although Jess couldn’t guess what they might be, and she was worried about being expected to have firmly decided views as well and tell Etta about them.

            Hallie had come around a couple of times in the past few days to borrow things like sugar and eggs, but it seemed to Jess like what she really wanted was to discuss her life, to “open up about things” as it was said, with her and Joe. Jess guessed that this was because she and Joe had both been pretty overtly critical of both Hans-Hermann’s and the Hewetts’ treatment of Hallie and RCA Victor at that dinner party the other week. One time Hallie had come over with a couple of the children, who had gone out to see some sort of cowboy matinee with Milt and Cindy and come back talking like Roy Rogers. Another time Hallie had made vague but—to Jess—ominous allusions to even Hans-Hermann’s mistreatment of her being influenced or possibly actually mandated by the internal structure and logic of the way the contracts in New Northumberland were drawn up.

            “It was mediated,” Hallie had said. “You know how these things go?”

            “Like by that priest who married Jessie and me?” Joe asked.

            “Not exactly. There was a supervisor involved who asked us to pick a substitute from amongst ourselves to oversee the triad. We ended up choosing Hans-Hermann, regrettably.”

            “Men get touchy with power like that,” Joe said. “At our wedding they read something about the husband being the head in a marriage, but if that’s so, I think the best heads among us are the ones who know how to delegate.”

            “Right, which is why you’ve never set foot inside the Safe’n’Smart to the best of my awareness,” said Jess, a little sarcastically since Joe shopped for other things for the family plenty and Jess had had control over their stock options for about seven years now.

            “I’m still not convinced it’s really the same situation,” said Hallie, a little ineffectually. Jess noticed with a certain idea of horror that the way she was talking was not really allusive or implicating anymore. She resolved to take Joe with her on the next trip she made to the Safe’n’Smart. She could do it in early evening, and leave Milt and Cindy to themselves for an hour or so; they were almost definitely old enough at this point.

            That had been a few days ago. On the twenty-ninth, as she listened to the reports on Northies Out Now on the radio, Jess found herself wanting to go across the street to the Hewetts’ house and actually have a serious conversation with Hans-Hermann, if she could, about how his life had gone, what had led him to New Northumberland, and what had led him to make these contracts, these quasi-marriages, and treat his quasi-wives as he did. She had confidence that he had interesting stories to tell, even if she doubted that she would ever be inclined to treat him or think of him with very much sympathy.

            So she turned off the radio and went over. She found Hans-Hermann in the living room nursing a headache. RCA Victor seemed to be in the kitchen.

            Hans-Hermann made a remark to Jess about “big labor” being why his countrymen were being harassed and forced out after only two weeks. “Are they, currently, being forced out,” asked Jess, “or is it just something to worry about for future reference, that people are trying to force them out?”

            “I’m pretty sure there was a ship of people that did just get reconstituted and take off and leave,” Hans-Hermann said. “I don’t know the details but I got a phone call from one of the other hosting families this morning that said that it had just happened.”

            “If it’s through the grapevine then it might be a rumor,” Jess said. “That is worrying, though. What happens if they get picked off by those ships New Northumberland is sending out?” Hans-Hermann sighed and nodded gravely. His face was long and pallid green. “That’s a serious question and not rhetorical, by the way,” Jess said. “I genuinely don’t know what’ll be done to them if they’re caught.”

            “They’ll be brought back to have their ‘contracts enforced,’” said Hans-Hermann. “Given the terms of the contracts and consequences for breaking the contracts, it’s possible they’ll be punished pretty severely.” He spat, and it looked like he was chewing the inside of his lip a little. “You know what the worst part is, Mrs. Raffalovich?” he said aggressively. “Do you want to know what the worst part is?”

            “What is the worst part, Mr. Yudkowsky?”

            “The worst part, Mrs. Raffalovich, is that I’m still a true believer. If these contracts were enforced by a competent AI then we would have had a good society, a society based on people’s rational expectations and free, uncoerced desires, and what you call values wouldn’t have been so fraught without big government and big business and big labor to boss everybody around. It could have been made to work, and I’ll always believe that, probably.

            “Doesn’t that repel you?” he asked suddenly. “Doesn’t it repel you? Doesn’t that just repel women like you?”

            Jess did not say anything to this; if she were asked, she would, she thought, say that saying something to this would be some sort of concordat, or even a surrender to the powers of a world not asked for. Hans-Hermann waited for her to say something for a little while, then spat at nothing and said “Vicki, can you bring us some cocktails?”

            “Of course,” said RCA Victor from the kitchen. Hans-Hermann sat down and motioned for Jess to sit down too. After another few minutes RCA Victor came into the living room with a pitcher full of what seemed to be dry martini. She had a look on her face that seemed resentful, but Jess did not know her well enough to guess what she resented. As Hans-Hermann put his feet up on the Hewetts’ ottoman, Jess found herself thinking, uncharitably both to him and to Elmgrove, that he was assimilating better than it seemed.

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Asteroid Belt

August 25, 2209

Commodore Sassoon, it turned out, was not actually from Southeast Asia at all, but from a space station out here in the Asteroid Belt, as, indeed, was Joe Raffalovich originally. Sassoon as a young woman had worked as a waitress at Deep Heaven, which had been built more than a century ago as a sort of truck stop analogue for the first few generations of Outer Solar System freighters and colonist vessels but was now well-known for having long since seen better days. She had gone from there into the military much as Jess had from her high school. Now she was the perfection of somebody who entirely believed in the cause of the Democratic Alliance in its wending worldline through human history, a cause that Esteban still after all this time had to confess was not really that bad a cause as far as causes went. It was only his diminished belief in the concept of causes in general, causes as distinct from the calling of helping Jesus and Mary save souls, that made him as skeptical as he was of it now. That diminished belief came, itself, of course, in turn, from the experience of a world in which another sense of that English word “cause” had been very different. He had not been there for long, in the grand sweep of his life, but he had thought that he would die there, and that did not count for nothing.

            Sassoon insisted on being on Esteban-and-Leila terms with him, but he still thought of her as Sassoon and suspected her of still thinking of him as Okada. She offered at one point to resolve the question of the Hernan Cordeiro’s nuclear ambiguity for him; even though he said he was not interested, she told him that the ship was not in fact nuclear-armed, that the nukes were on a sister ship called the Kim Chi-ha.

            “Why are you telling me this, Leila?” Esteban asked. “I meant it when I said that I had no interest in nuclear arms. I’m not some sort of woolly pacifist whom you can scandalize with this sort of thing either. I’m simply not interested.”

            “Mr. Fevvers told me you’d expressed curiosity,” said Sassoon. “I figured that even if you no longer had that curiosity, it might come back at some point, and now, well, if it does, you’ll have that information with you.”
            “Isn’t that a security breach? You could get in serious trouble. I remember at least that much from my chaplaincy days.”

            “The Hernan Cordeiro and the Kim Chi-ha are both going to be decommissioned in two months’ time anyway. That in itself is something we’re supposed to be ambiguous about, but, try as I might, I can’t picture any trouble coming of you telling the Elmgrovers all about it, even if you are inclined to, which I doubt you are.” Sassoon rubbed Esteban’s shoulder in a way that he found overly familiar but that Fevvers later told him did not indicate anything anymore in the DA military culture of today, except that Sassoon seemed to think of him as still a fellow officer after all these years. “I’ll be in the tearoom. Come talk literature with me if you want to.”

            It was, then, about three hours after this that Esteban found that he no longer had even the appetite for discussing literature in tearooms that he had had once upon a time. He had not read a lot of the newer books that Sassoon was interested in; even Cordeiro, who had vanished into the clouds about fifteen years before and was apparently now some sort of non-discriminated existence hovering around some Lagrange point or another, was little more than a name to him after several days aboard his eponymous spaceship. He could not even tell somebody with confidence what country or countries Cordeiro had been from. Constantine Cavafy he knew as a poet of a particular kind of cosmopolitan homoeroticism that had been centuries ahead of its time for some parts of the Democratic Alliance and wildly, almost impressively outside the times for others; Kim Chi-ha he knew as a brother believer and comrade-in-arms in the grandiose yet constrained sweep of Pacific Rim Catholicism; Hernan Cordeiro called up vague memories of a talk show appearance here, accusations of a Nobel Prize snub there, and no more.

            He did in fact end up having tea with Sassoon in the tearoom and trying to talk about literature, but he did not necessarily enjoy either the tea or the conversation. Sassoon preferred a strong, allegedly Greek or possibly Slovenian tea that made Esteban think more of unsweetened hot chocolate than anything else. Esteban, whose own preferences ran to oolongs and rooiboses, was offered things that seemed oriented less around anything he had said or even implied to Sassoon and more around educated guesses about what sort of tea a Japanese centenarian “would” like. Over the course of the meal—since there was surprisingly thick soup and a large bowl of candied hydroponic ginger too—it became utterly clear to Esteban that Sassoon in fact would have wanted to be traveling with Jess and Joe themselves instead, or possibly Admiral Kurtoglu, since these were very obviously the people she actually admired. He asked her directly if she admired Kevser Kurtoglu and she said that she had not heard much good about her all things considered, so that left Jess and Joe.

            The one thing that Esteban absolutely refused to get into was whatever the complex might be of reasons why Commodore Sassoon had not heard much good about Admiral Kurtoglu. He suspected, based on the way Commodore Sassoon said it, that it had something to do with the enmity that even today was sometimes instantiated between women by the structures of sin around them. He did not want to assume this or think that it was true, but even less did he want to think the main evidently available alternative, which was that Kurtoglu’s later career had gone badly in ways with which people currently serving in the DA military were familiar even though people like Esteban were not.

            “You looking forward to seeing the Fires of Titan again?” Fevvers asked him before they went to sleep that evening.

            “Not as much as you might think,” said Esteban, “but more than I wish I was. It feels an awful lot like a lost childhood to me, even though I was already fifty-one when I was there last.”

            “For someone like me, it’s hard to imagine being a hundred,” said Fevvers. “A hundred years ago is history-book stuff.”

            “It’s history-book stuff for me, too,” said Esteban. “It’s not only you who feels that way. Living long enough to become a historical figure ages you more than vanishing into the clouds even can. So I’ve heard, anyway. It seems in a year or so I’m going to find out.”

            “It’s that much of a bombshell, is it?” asked Fevvers. “I’ve heard murmurings. Nothing as substantial as all that.”

            “I thought you were more or less fully familiar with the facts of the incident,” said Esteban. “Or does your familiarity come and go?”
            “It does come and go.”

            “Nootropics?”

            “Not quite.”

            “Okay. I won’t pry.” Esteban took a slug of alcohol and got into bed, still fully clothed. Fevvers nodded and left for his own room. Esteban waited for his footsteps to fade, then got up, took another slug of alcohol, undressed, and got into bed again. As he fell asleep, he heard, in something that was not quite a memory, the madrigals and close harmonies that once upon a time the Constantine Cavafy pilots had sung to get them through the Great Bridge, while he himself had not been awake.

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Elmgrove

September 4, 2209

Jess awoke suddenly from one of the mid-afternoon naps that she had, worryingly even to herself, started taking, because she could hear very clearly across the street some sort of scuffle that, upon reaching the window, she realized involved Hans-Hermann Yudkowsky being dragged bodily into the street by somebody she recognized as a somewhat dangerous and unpopular drinking buddy of Tom Hewett’s.

            He had been right that there were ships of reconstituted refugees that had in the past week or so been taking off back into the frying pan. The news last night had said that the first of these ships, which had been making a beeline for New Chelsea in the hopes that GOM-5 would be better at protecting its tangled ensouled cargo than President Grantland had been, had been picked off by a New Northumberlandish drone and was being pulled in a tractor beam back to the O’Neill cylinder. This was the same O’Neill cylinder that it was becoming clearer and clearer that the great powers of the Inner Solar System were sooner or later going to blast out of the heavens in a joint use of the capabilities of Eris. It was probable, given how things were going, that Hans-Hermann was soon to be packed off on another ship to join them in that fate.

            Her own front door clicked insinuatingly open. Her eyes flicked closed, then open again, and she went downstairs to see who it was.

            Both Hallie and RCA Victor were standing in her kitchen with vague expressions on their faces that looked like two different types of mean-spirited parody of blissful contentment. “I came to say goodbye,” RCA Victor said to Jess.

            “I did not,” said Hallie.

            “Sit down,” said Jess, gesturing expansively at the dining room table through the next doorway. “I have some leftover soufflé if you want something to eat.”

            “I don’t think I would like soufflé left over, but I appreciate the thought,” Hallie said.

            “Hans-Hermann is probably going to be far away for a long time from now,” RCA Victor said without overture. “I’m not sure about if I should go too.”

            “If you were going to go,” said Hallie sharply, “then wouldn’t they be dragging you to the reconstitution chambers right now along with him?”
            “There are other ways to leave Elmgrove besides reconstitution.”

            “No, actually,” said Hallie, “there aren’t. I checked.”

            RCA Victor sighed and sat down at the table. “I think I will have some of that soufflé, Mrs. Raffalovich,” she said.

            “Please,” said Jess with the desperation of somebody who could not say anything else and could not be anything but polite, “call me Jessica or Jess.”

            “All right. I think I will have some of that soufflé, Jess.”

            Jess served the soufflé and they ate it and had a very polite conversation about not much in particular. It came out, at this point, that Jess was a retired Space Marine. Hallie and Vicki were duly impressed, as Jess was by their stories of the trek that they had made out to the Oort Cloud from their native Mars when New Northumberland had first been founded. It had been a harder trek than Jess and Joe’s because there had been little to nothing in the way of support from any government for the New Northumberland project. They told Jess a little about the visionary who had founded New Northumberland, a man who had had a real, normal name and had apparently never made it out this way himself.

            After the soufflé Jess turned the news on. There was a woman from New Chelsea, all crinoline and pulled-up hair, meeting with President Grantland. This, it would seem, was the ambassador that the Lord Chancellor had seen fit to send. The two of them stepped up to side-by-side podiums and read out an announcement from the great powers. It had been signed in alphabetical order—Arabella Cheung first, Dwight Santorini second, and Hyperion Trinder third; it was serendipitous somehow, Jess felt, that their first and last names alphabetized in the same order—but it was obvious from the content of the announcement that Trinder’s handiwork had predominated and that at long last the Democratic Alliance was to be seen to have gotten the best of the Australian-Martian coalition in peace as it had not been able to in war.

            “I guess the cold war is finally fucking over now,” said Vicki acidly.

            “Language,” said Jess.

            “In view of the decision to take military action against New Northumberland on the part of the great powers,” the ambassador from New Chelsea was intoning on the TV screen, “New Chelsea will gladly take in numbers more of the New Northumberlandish refugees that are currently straining the resources of our neighboring countries, provided appropriate measures for assimilation are taken.”

            “They gave us three weeks here and now they’re kicking us out!” Vicki shouted. “Give me a break!”

            Hallie, apparently unable to stand either the news or Vicki’s reaction to the news, got up and went back into the kitchen, where she found a note on the counter that Jess, apparently, had missed earlier in the day. “Jess,” she said in a carrying, worried voice, “come here and take a look at this.”

Dear Jessie (read the note),

            You and I need to have a serious talk, when I get home this evening, about our future in Elmgrove. I understand that you like it here, and that you’ve found meaning and peace in our life here; I, unfortunately, am getting sick of it after recent events with the displaced persons and with the incredibly ungenerous reception they’ve received from our newfound countrymen and countrywomen, and I think the kids are too. I think it’s time we reconstituted ourselves, constituted our kids, and struck out into the wider world once again.

            If you disagree with this, then I’m afraid a temporary separation might be in order. There are two attitudes towards this world we live in that I think a religious person, such as you and I both are to at least some extent, can take. One is to conserve the things that others have lost; the other is to build the things that others might find. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with either, but it’s become clear to me that I am the second kind of person, and I think that at heart you are as well. I’m willing to accept that I’m wrong about you.

            Again, let’s discuss this when I get home.

Yours always,

Joe

Jess put the letter down and passed one hand over her eyes. She was so upset she couldn’t see straight.

            “I’m going to see if I can find Hans-Hermann,” Vicki was saying to Hallie. “I think the Hewetts are legally obligated to tell me where he’s been taken, even if they don’t want to.”

            “I’m going to stay here, I think,” Hallie was saying to Vicki. “Actually, you—you might want to tell Hans-Hermann that if you see him.”

            “…are you serious?” Vicki asked, more tenderly than Jess would have expected or, if she had been in Hallie’s position, wanted.

            Jess took her leave from the two younger women and went upstairs to lie down in the artificial twilight of the Venetian blinds for a while until the hullabaloo outside, which was spreading from street to street all over their neighborhood now, quieted down a little. She realized that many years ago she would have been able to do something about this, and realized, more frighteningly and maddeningly, that she was still perfectly capable of doing something about it now, should she really want to.

            She woke up about an hour later to find Milt and Cindy still not home from school. Vicki was gone, probably—she had a premonition—for good. Hallie was in the dining room again, drinking, of all things, a glass of milk.

            Jess sat down next to Hallie and patted her on the head like a child. As she did, she wondered, suddenly, where Hallie’s own children were.

            “You really can’t get away from normal life,” Hallie said, “can you?”

            “Oh, you absolutely can,” said Jess. “The question is where you find yourself instead.”

            The front door opened again, and Jess thought that surely this must be Milt and Cindy getting home, even though she had not heard the school bus. She was sure, at first, that it must be them. Then she took a second look, and there was Esteban, standing sere in the doorway, looking at her with a stern but merciful gaze.

Novella: “The Devil in the Twenty-third Century” (Part Three)

Elmgrove

August 21, 2209

It was less than a week after the first group of refugees arrived on August 14 that problems hosting them started to emerge. The Raffaloviches didn’t have a refugee family themselves, not because they had refused to take one but because the Hewetts across the cul-de-sac had insisted on taking the ones assigned to their street, out of, as they said, Christian charity, a term that Joe did not like to use. Jess and Joe went to the reception that the Hewetts, a couple whose children had all been constituted and were all at college on Mars, gave for these people two days after the Assumption, at which point they found that this particular refugee family involved three parents and everybody had a different last name.

            The father was named Hans-Hermann Yudkowsky—which seemed reasonable enough, and got Joe excited that he might have another Jewish man living in whitebread Elmgrove to talk shop with—and the mothers, who appeared to be partnered sexually with each other as well as with Hans-Hermann, were named RCA Victor de la Renta and Halliburton Pepsi. The children were named Apple-Adidas Bostrom, Murray Hanson, Random House Amazon, and Starbucks Mittal. Jess didn’t know what to make of these names, obviously, but they interested her, compared to Jessica Raffalovich, Joseph Raffalovich, Milton and Lucinda Raffalovich, Thomas Hewett, Clarice Hewett, and so on, and she was more than willing to debate whatever view of the world it was that had led these people to name themselves and their children after corporations and, she assumed, public figures she had never heard of.

            The first sign of trouble came when Tom Hewett let it be known that he was not interested in how these people arranged their affairs, only in showing them what charity he could, an on paper reasonable statement that he worded like an insult and that Hallie seemed deeply offended by. The second sign came when Hans-Hermann took Joe aside and confided in him that he thought that Hallie and RCA Victor’s “alliance”—his word—was disgusting and wouldn’t have had it under his roof for one moment longer if the AI had been around to parse out where their contractual obligations ended. Joe relayed this immediately to Jess, who herself then took Hans-Hermann aside and gently suggested to him that, given that he himself seemed to have two wives, he should perhaps attend to the beam in his own eye.

            “That isn’t how we see it in New Northumberland,” he said, “and they’re not my ‘wives.’ I was hoping people here would understand a little better than people back home, since there’s more of a ‘value’ orientation here. Guess not.”

            “There’s more to having a ‘value’ orientation than you seem to think,” said Jess, “but I’ll leave that to you to learn over your time here. I know I’ve had to learn it. Joe’s still learning it.”

            “Sure,” said Hans-Hermann. “Thanks. I hope you’re right.”

            When Jess got back to the dinner table, Hallie was telling Tom and Clarice about the philosophical differences between people like her who were willing to accept some help with what she called the family startup process in exchange for names like “Apple-Adidas”—a name that she seemed especially proud of and treated as something just short of theophoric—and people like her husband who saw this as a form of dependency and who had convinced RCA Victor to name their second-born (who was apparently RCA Victor’s only biological child) Murray instead of Fox. Tom pointed out, more politely than he had been earlier in the dinner, that Fox was a well-attested last name and thus also made a perfectly good first name, even independent of whatever branding RCA Victor had initially expected from, he assumed, Disney.

            “I’m surprised that companies like RCA Victor and Amazon have anything to do with New Northumberland, considering how out-of-the-way we all are out here,” Clarice said with a pained, polite smile. “Are there literal branding agreements involved or is the practice more, well, aspirational?”
            “That would be superstitious,” said RCA Victor.

            At the same time, Hallie said “I take offense to that question.”

            “Well, sorry,” said Clarice. “I’m not intending to pry. Anyway, can I get anyone another cocktail? I’ve been meaning to try to make a blue Hawaii for a while now.”

            It was at this point that Jess had the incredibly discouraging realization that nobody’s children had said a word all evening, not even her own.

            That was August 17. The next evening, the evening news and the domestic evening paper both carried a human interest story about a refugee living in a public building on the outskirts of town who had been offered a job at a struggling dishware company but refused to sign the contract because it asked that he pay dues to the company’s in-house union. The people of Elmgrove did not take kindly to this story, even the part of President Grantland’s base of support that was more skeptical of the unions and thought that people like this refugee should have more scope for independent action in dealing with their bosses. Jess suspected that it was because he was a refugee that people were treating the issue the way they were; she suspected this in part because there were plenty of other such cases involving Elmgrove citizens in which the person involved became something of a cause celebré for a day or two, but also, in a big way, because on her next supermarket trip—that would be today’s, the day on which she was thinking back on all this—she had heard some people complaining about this “Northie” and asking how come somewhere else, somewhere like New Chelsea or even Eris, hadn’t been able to take his kind in instead of Elmgrove. Unfortunately, she thought she heard Etta Cleary making such complaints.

            She couldn’t remember if Etta had ever said anything to the effect of considering Jess suspect since she and Joe had come here already relatively late in their lives. A lot of engineering had had to be done to keep Jess, in particular, young; she was not looking forward to going through a second menopause, but it had been what she and Joe had needed to do to have children after a doomed young adulthood of sensual privation on his part and several miscarriages and one or two instances that her confessors had falsely thought were early-term abortions on hers. They had come here in search of a simplicity that was not really simplicity, since their high school history educations had both been good enough that they had had no actual illusions about what the real 1950s had been like. Elmgrove advertised itself, to the extent that it advertised itself at all, as a “dwelling of simplicity,” a term that it had apparently jacked from a science fiction story from hundreds of years ago. It had to guard itself heavily against incursions by racists and sexual perverts who had factually accurate but politically dangerous ideas of what mid-twentieth-century America had been like, but for the most part it had chosen to do this by being less selective and discriminating about who it allowed to immigrate rather than more. They had at one point, in Elmgrove, used the term “displaced person,” which had initially referred to World War II refugees, for people who had despaired of the situation in the rest of the Solar System and had decided to avail themselves, as exiles, of the dwellings of simplicity.

            The Lord Chancellor of New Chelsea, a mouthpiece for GOM-5 whose degree of independent power was a subject of speculation, was in the morning foreign paper on the twentieth discussing his own country’s experience with the refugees. Apparently they had only arrived three days previously but so far were inspiring even more suspicion than they were in Elmgrove. He was considering sending an ambassador to Elmgrove to confer with President Grantland.

            Jess was still waiting, day by day, for somebody to come and depose her and Joe. She thought back, as she waited for the deposition, on her marriage to Joe, and on what it had implied and entailed for them around the time of their wedding. He had been forty-eight and she had been forty-five; it had been five years before they had immigrated to Elmgrove. She had had to get a dispensation from the Archbishop of Ganymede, in whose jurisdiction they had been living at the time, and he had had to start going to a synagogue that frowned less determinedly on intermarriage. It had at that time been seen, including by Jess and Joe themselves, as very unlikely that any children should come from the two of them. They had married because of what they had been through together and because each was flattered by the other still showing them physical attraction in middle age. Jess and Joe had been intimate several times in their younger years, sometimes in transient rendezvous and sometimes in prior, failed attempts to be in love, but had not slept together for about a decade at the time that they got married. Jess’s sexual tendencies, which had been close to downright indiscriminate from age sixteen or so onward, had not taken well to matrimony at first, and it had taken almost two years of marriage, two years of therapy and confession on her part and pained, anticipatory patience on his, for her to stop sleeping with other people when the opportunity arose. It was about half a year after her last adulterous fling that they had first begun to seriously talk about leaving the world at large and immersing themselves in one of the dwellings of simplicity. They were, back then especially, in search of something that was lost.

            When Jess got back from the Safe’n’Smart on the twenty-first, she cancelled a swimming pool date with Etta and a few other women and instead sat in her and Joe’s bedroom with the Venetian blinds drawn and the ceiling fan on, peeping, almost against her own will, through the occasional crack in the blinds down at something that was going on in the Hewetts’ front yard. Hans-Hermann and RCA Victor seemed to be having some sort of argument, which was not physical or even very loud but evidently involved deep, boiling anger on both sides; Halliburton was a few yards distant, trying to get them to stop. Jess couldn’t see the kids; probably they were inside, since the refugee children were not attending Elmgrove summer camps due to concerns about whether or not the relevant efforts should be made to assimilate the newcomers. (It would probably not be resolved in time for them to start the new school year either.) Already some people on the City Council had begun throwing around words like “unassimilable.” Watching what was going on down there on the Hewetts’ lawn, Jess could sort of see why.

            At the Safe’n’Smart Jess had run into those potential confirmed bachelors again and talked to them for a good few minutes. They were named Rusty and Dave and had come here as children; if they were to be constituted, it would likelier than not be as late adolescents, even though they had lived here in such a way that they were now, or felt now, maybe a touch shy of thirty. Dave, it turned out, worked at the same dishware company that had briefly attempted to employ this New Northumberlandish guy, Comcast von Mises. He had met him, briefly, and had an opinion of him that he described to Jess as “mixed and extremely negative at the same time.” He pitied the guy, he said, but he didn’t understand what his kind of person expected Elmgrove to do about them. He sarcastically asked if President Grantland was considering any kind of intervention against New Northumberland, its AI, the diehards who were still living there and loyal to the AI, and the various ships that the AI and its diehards were sending out to try to collect their rebellious daughters. In fact Jess had heard somewhere else today that President Grantland was strongly considering doing just that.

 ❦

Assisi, Italy, Earth

August 21, 2209

Esteban had come here alone, without Father Aguerra, to pray at the places holy to such great saints as he could find, before his newest and probably last journey towards the stars began. He stood upon the summer hills looking down over the town and the yellowing hills around it, little changed, all things considered, from centuries long past, kept in a Janus-faced bubble of commerciality and sanctity. The mountains behind him were wooded still, new growth, coppice growth, old virgin hardwoods, and here and there he had been told that wolves had been reintroduced, so that, to give one example, Gubbio was much as it had been in that fable of a millennium ago.

            He had been trying to ignore the news. Coordinating Minister Trinder had met with the heads of government of Australia and Mars to try to come up with a joint position on what was called the New Northumberland crisis, although really what was meant was not that it was a crisis for the New Northumberlanders but that the New Northumberlanders were creating a crisis for kindlier and more sympathetic peoples through their obstreperousness and ill-favor. Esteban recognized in this the signs, long known and long understood among the wise, of brainwashing and the mental torpor that came from the sway of being ill-ruled. Trinder and company did not.

            The arrangement was that Esteban, along with someone who worked with Bella Cooby but was not the great woman herself, would take a DA military ship—just like in the old days—to Titan, where, he felt now at a hundred, it had almost been his youth that he had spent. From Titan a chartered Riggs-Hathaway freighter would take them to Eris, at which point Grantland, the President of Elmgrove, the simulator where Jess and Joe were living, would send out an automated ship of his own to take Esteban alone the rest of the way. Once at Elmgrove, Esteban would be deconstituted, a process that involved putting him under heavy sedation and then in stasis and hooking his brain waves up to seven different mainframe computers, so that he could actually walk the streets of that distant, long-ago city and see his old comrades again. The entire process was expected to take about a week. The DA ship would leave from Monaco at 1310 tomorrow, which, since this was Western Europe, actually would be around midday. It was called the Hernan Cordeiro and carried, among other things, six space-to-planet missiles, which he had been told fell under the nuclear ambiguity umbrella. He had no idea what this meant, since it had been clear for two hundred years that “nuclear ambiguity” was a polite term for unacknowledged and potentially illegal nuclear stockpiles, something that he associated mostly with put-upon countries with siege mentalities such as Israel had had centuries ago and Canada had now. The commanding officer of the Hernan Cordeiro was named Leila Sassoon and came, if Esteban remembered correctly, from somewhere in Southeast Asia. Judging from the name, Esteban would have guessed that Commodore Sassoon’s family had not been in Southeast Asia forever, but then, questions could also, once upon a time, reasonably have been asked about a Japanese man named Esteban.

            Esteban walked back into the town and went back to his hotel room, in one of Assisi’s older-fashioned and more firmly established pensions, where he could watch the news without having to fiddle with the innumerable gadgets one carried on one’s person these days. When he was younger, he would have done this fiddling happily. Now, most of what he wanted from those gadgets was just his songbooks, and he had not been able to practice on his piano in weeks.

            He watched for long enough to see that military action against New Northumberland was “on the table,” then turned off the television and pulled up some of his music. He had it play through some songs by First Aid Kit and other twenty-first-century folk bands, then switched it to his Gershwin playlist, took a mild sedative, and tried to get an early start on his night’s sleep as a sudden late-summer evening approached.

            He woke up a little before midnight after a long, complicated, mostly very pleasant dream involving his mother, the nun Tanizaki who had put him through some of his paces in his seminary days, and a woman who ran a beachfront hotel out on the flats below Matsumae with whom he had had a potentially dangerous friendship about twenty-five years ago. He was able to write this dream down, in broad strokes at least although not, unfortunately, in its particulars, before it entirely left his consciousness. Esteban felt almost as if keeping this dream in his memory or writing it down for his future perusal constituted a form of control over his own life of a kind that could not any longer be gotten or grasped or insisted on otherwise. He had never really believed that he was the master of his fate or the captain of his soul, but that lack of mastery or captaincy was beginning, in his old age, to get to him in a way that it had not when he had been a younger man who was more thoroughly and honestly concerned with duty.

            After a while, he turned on the television again. Coordinating Minister Trinder, Australian Prime Minister Cheung, and Martian Director-President Santorini were speaking at a joint press conference in New Chennai. Trinder had a big, fleshy, expressive face with obvious cybernetic implants, a receding head of greyish-brown hair, and a slight stoop, and spoke in a faintly “cowboy” version of American English that Esteban had heard actually was spoken natively these days in parts of the region around Spokane where the great man came from. Cheung was tall and a little heavyset with long beautiful brown hair and an expression of fixed, pained determination, and Santorini looked like a Crivelli saint, complete with excessive ornamentation and texture. Trinder spoke for about five minutes, repeating variations of a “this aggression will not stand” canned speech that sounded centuries old, before Cheung took the podium and actually started to explain what the New Northumberlanders were doing that was inspiring this kind of response from the beautiful and the good.

            There had been apparently about a fifth or a sixth of the original population of New Northumberland that had turned out to be true believers, so to speak, and had committed to staying in the initial New Northumberland O’Neill cylinder even as everybody else had fled to the surrounding countries and the four winds and the black Oort void around the Solar System. What the actual number of these people was, was difficult to determine because until recent months nobody in the Inner Solar System had talked much about or really knew much about New Northumberland, and its initial population was far from easy for Esteban to look up, or at least to look up at the same time as he was trying to pay attention to the press conference. It was probably not as many people as Cheung’s language was suggesting, but they had dubious intentions and seemed well-armed. It seemed they had been sending out ships to try to vacuum up the refugees and drag them back to the O’Neill cylinder to honor their contractual obligations. Implications were now being made that New Northumberland might launch military attacks on Elmgrove, New Chelsea, and possibly even Eris. The way Cheung was talking implied that Eris was much more tenuously connected to the rest of the Solar System in terms of transportation and military supply lines that most people seemed to think, and Eris succumbing to pressure from New Northumberland would put the entire Erisian fusion bomb stockpile in the hands of a rogue, irrational actor.

            Esteban thought that this was a silly way to be talking about a weakened, very obviously dysfunctional entity—it insisted it was not a state—the vast majority of whose population had just abandoned it a matter of weeks ago. However, his emotional reaction to what Cheung was saying was not immediate rejection or contempt, but deep ambivalence that trended more towards concern and worry that there was a serious problem here than he would have liked it to.

            He was able to sleep for a little while before being awoken by a light, insistent knocking on his door. He got up, got half-dressed, and staggered to the door, opening it to find a short black man with a shock of reddish hair wearing one of the greenish-blue robes that had been à la mode for the past few years. “Esteban Okada?” this man said in a South African or Botswanan accent.

            “Yes, that’s me,” said Esteban in English. “And you are…?”

            “My name is Kyrillos Fevvers. I work with Bella Cooby and Ryan Cortez-Knight. I wanted to introduce myself to you before we have to go to the spaceport later this morning.”

            “What time is it?”

            “It’s 0645. We should be on the road by 0940.”

            “Did you get here last night?”

            “Yes, from Rome. Are you doing okay, Father Okada? You look more than a little stressed.”

            “The news is beginning to get to me.”

            “As to all of us.” Fevvers clapped Esteban on the shoulder and flashed him a grin mediated and made imperfect and intriguingly withholding by a couple of bright blue-green false teeth made of some polymer or polymer-adjacent substance whose name Esteban could not remember. “C’mon. Want to get some breakfast? We’re going to be working together in pretty close quarters for the next few days.”

            “If you’re trying to ‘schmooze’ with an old and enfeebled man, Mr. Fevvers,” said Esteban, “I regret to tell you that there’s not much you’re going to be able to get out of me; I’m discredited even in the priesthood for essentially every other purpose than this. If you really want to get to know me, then yes, I’d be happy to have some breakfast.”

            Fevvers assured Esteban that he really wanted to get to know him, and they proceeded downstairs for one of the more traditional Italian breakfasts possible, involving antipasti (possibly lab-grown), biscotti dipped in orange juice and sweet red wine, some small salads made mostly with plants that had been introduced from South America long centuries ago, and so forth, and so forth. The breakfast was leisurely by Esteban’s standards and apparently by Fevvers’s as well but not necessarily by those of either of their countries and certainly not by that of a pension meal in Italy. They were done a little before 0800 and packing only took about another half-hour, because Esteban had decades and decades before become a master, a “dab hand” some English-speakers would put it, at packing light even for long-haul space travel. Fevvers had apparently sent his gear—he called it his “gear,” which coming from somebody from Southern Africa was a term that Esteban perhaps stereotypically associated with safari adventures of old—ahead of him to the Monegasque spaceport where they would presumably be spending at least an hour or two when it approached the hottest part of the day. Esteban was grateful that they would be leaving from a warm and dry climate; it would keep him comfortable at least within his own mind as a ward against the chill dankness that he had started to feel on spaceships in his old age. He wished the sun-sailors went further from Earth; at least within the Inner Solar System he had a difficult time understanding the technological reasons why they should not work better and further out than they did.

            “Right,” said Fevvers after a little bit of lounging around. “Time to get on the road.” He clapped Esteban’s shoulder again before they were off.

Novella: “The Devil in the Twenty-third Century” (Part Two)

Elmgrove

August 8, 2209

“Are they going to live with us, Mom?” Cindy asked at the bus stop.

            “I don’t know where they’re going to live,” said Jess. She felt a little harried. If it had only been Cindy, twelve years old now, she would definitely not have been walking her to the bus stop still, especially if, as today, it was only for summer school. But Milt was seven, and the bus came through the same way, and didn’t seem fair to leave Cindy alone on days when Milt didn’t go out, even though Milt’s little genius kid training or whatever it was only happened three days a week. (Why Cindy had never gone in for the genius kid training even now that she was in middle school, despite getting grades in math and civics that were almost as good as Milt’s and grades in English and science that were better, had occurred as a question to Jess in the past, and she thought that to pose it was to know the answer.) “President Grantland just said he’d take them in only last night.”

            “I hope some come to live with us,” said Cindy. “I might beat Trudy Bellingham in civics if I get up close with how people from other countries live.”

            “I don’t know if I hope some do or not,” said Jess. “I think we’ve earned a quiet life, your dad and I, but I want us to do our part if we can.”

            “Maybe we could give money to support the refugees if they don’t come stay with us,” Cindy said. “I overheard you and dad talking about our nest egg a few nights ago.”

            Jess blanched and said “The nest egg is to get you and Milt constituted and sent to college when the time comes for that. We’ll also see about trying to get your baptisms authenticated if we can; that’ll cost money for communicating with the Apostolic Vicar on Eris.” She had never been sure whether or not Cindy really cared about this. As a little girl Cindy had been very devout and even now that she was on the cusp of her teens she came to Mass every Sunday and without any complaint but Jess had noticed that she had been praying less during the day and had mostly stopped writing “JMJ” on her homework. Jess supposed that she herself had also drifted towards not caring anymore when she had been in her teens, although she had never quite gotten there, probably because her own proclivities and tendencies had been much more theatrical than her daughter’s and people like Father Okada had always been around to appeal to those theatrical feelings. Even far, far back in her Worcester days Father Cordeiro had been something of that kind, although his sense for theater and pantomime had always felt glibber and less innate than Father Okada’s had, possibly because he was more obvious about them. Jess had no idea if Father Okada had ever even considered the possibility of being a demonstrative or artistic person. It came out of him grudgingly, like drip coffee.

            “I’ll try to raise some money around school,” said Cindy. “Milt can probably do the same. Maybe not till the school year starts next month, though.” She paused and then said “Mom, two hundred and fifty years ago most schools didn’t actually have these summer semesters, did they?”
            “I don’t think so,” said Jess. “If we were more like New Chelsea I’m sure things would be different for you. I guess I just can’t make any promises about life being more like that or about us being able to really immerse ourselves here, even if you decide not to go to college.”

            “Does President Grantland really want to not let us immerse ourselves?” asked Cindy. “I thought that was what you and dad voted for him for.”

            “It’s what a lot of people voted for him for,” said Jess, “but even the President’s power has some limits. Haven’t they gone over the checks and balances with you by now? The City Council still has a majority for keeping ourselves open to the world.”

            “And how do you feel about that?”

            After reading the news reports out of New Northumberland, Jess no longer knew how she felt about it. She had talked to Etta and Robert, and they no longer knew either. New Northumberland was about forty-five light-minutes away, so a long-haul ship could have gotten there within a day, but the ships that the refugees were on were moving a lot slower, partly because they had only been intended for mining nearby comets and partly because the refugees had had to shut down a lot of their more advanced functions in order to stop the AI that they were fleeing from asserting itself over the controls and drawing the ships back to New Northumberland to enforce the refugees’ contracts some more. The refugees, only to survive, were getting away from New Northumberland and coming towards Elmgrove and New Chelsea as fast as they could, but there was reason to believe that they still felt indebted to the AI, to New Northumberland, and to their contracts, and would attempt to keep up their obligations amongst themselves even after possible resettlement. The newspaper had contained samples of the titles of some of these contracts, such as “A Contract of Employment in Service to Discharge Debt Obligations over a Term of Thirty-Five Years,” “A Contract of Safe, Sane, and Consensual Sexual Power Exchange over a Lifetime Term” (the newspaper had censored the word “sexual” but it was easy to figure out from context), and “A Contract for Private Security and Adjudication Services on Behalf of a Staff of Employees and Miscellaneous Laborers.”

            “I don’t know, sweetie,” Jess said. “I guess we’ll just have to wait and see what life demands of us.”

            Cindy got on the bus and Jess walked home with her hands in the pockets of the shorts she was already wearing for her tennis date with Etta and Lauren in the afternoon. She was sure Lauren would have her opinions on what was going on.

            Jess got home and sat down alone in the kitchen, since Milt was at the Barrows boys’ house for a playdate and Joe had just been pulling out of the driveway to go to work when she had been walking back up to their front door (he had honked and she had blown a kiss). As was often the case when summer dragged on, she felt a sudden urge to listen to a Christmas album, one of the ones that had been released on ten-inch LPs about six or seven years ago (six or seven years ago in the Elmgrove “cultural time” that everyone had imprinted somehow like a vaguely and newly-formed instinct in their heads along with the actual procession of the dates and seasons, which was synced to the outside world). So on this album went, and Bing Crosby’s voice came wafting over the crackle, and in a few minutes the Andrews Sisters joined in, and Jess did not bother to read today’s article about the Partial Hydrocarbon Ban Treaty and the continual, now century-and-a-half-old efforts to stabilize the albedo and seacoast back home.

            Jess poured herself a glass of white wine and sat back guzzling it, not waiting for it to kick in but exulting in the images that she had built up from the raw materials of her life. She remembered that a few months ago Reggie Chan and the Sangha-in-Arms had condemned something or other that Promethean missionaries were doing in the Asteroid Belt, and she remembered the brutal but haphazard and stop-and-go war against Chan’s and the SIA’s predecessors that she had fought for America in fifty years ago. She remembered also that other world, the world that had proven to her satisfaction and Joe’s that Milton had had it right and that dark materials really were used to create new worlds, and she thought “now more than ever” when she connected that past, in her head, with the fact that the future was going to know about it soon, and when she allowed herself, even if only for a few minutes, to have some confidence in the hand of God to wave aside the trajectories of gamma ray bursts and clathrate guns.

            She knew that it was seen as funny, in the literal sense, the sense that people actually found it amusing and worth their laughing at, that she still had this confidence in the Age, to quote a phrase she had heard maybe thirty years or so ago soon after the position of Coordinating Minister of the Democratic Alliance had been established, not of Aquarius but of Orion. The great huntsman. Bows turned outwards into the starry abyss and shields turned inwards at the smoldering Sun. The foreign paper also had something, that she skimmed over as she had skimmed over the thing about the PHBT but in which she took at least a little more transient interest, about something called the Committee on Directed Panspermia. Life, apparently, life itself even if not as known or desired for oneself, really was going to be rocketed out into the stars. Moreover the transmissions from the latest round of Centauri probes had started coming in, and discussion was being had of an unmanned long-haul probe directed at Sirius or perhaps Vega. Jess did not expect to see the last outcome or the last end of such a probe at any point in her lifetime, although in the end she supposed it would depend on what she decided to do when it came time to think about vanishing into the clouds. The track record of her life so far did not bode well for the likelihood of her ending up having a Catholic end. She was worried about what people would think of her, but it was not always the right people about whom she was worried. In this case, she was not worried enough, she knew, about Joe, who had every reason to decide to go about vanishing into the clouds the old-fashioned way, and who had been much firmer than Jess had been in all of the conversations that they had had about their desire, and their children’s, for the children to be constituted. She knew that things would come to a pretty pass sooner or later. She didn’t know whether or not she hoped she would be here to see that.

            At a certain point while she was relaxing with her wine she got a phone call. She took the call—“Raffalovich residence. Jessica Raffalovich speaking; may I ask who’s calling?”—and it turned out that it was somebody from President Grantland’s office.

            “The President wants to speak with me? This is an unexpected surprise—and honor,” she quickly added.

            “Not the President himself,” said the young-sounding secretary, “but somebody on his staff has been asked to depose you about, well, that business you were mixed up with forty-nine years ago, back before you moved out this way. Would you be amenable to this? The request to get your testimony on how things happened back then is coming straight from the Democratic Alliance Central Command.”

            “Brussels or Titan?”

            “They didn’t say. Either way, you aren’t being asked to leave Elmgrove unless you decide that you need to yourself in order to get your testimony out the way you think it would best be gotten out. Your husband’s testimony will be requested and required as well; another secretary in our office is calling him at work.”

            “Sorry, you said this was coming from DA Central Command in Brussels—are Coordinating Minister Ignacio’s fingerprints on this, can I ask?”

            “The Coordinating Minister for the past year and a half has been a man named Trinder, Mrs. Raffalovich,” said the secretary.

            “Yes, I know that. What I’m asking is if this has been in the offing since Mrs. Ignacio was in office.”

            “No, this appears to be a recent request.”

            “All right. Send someone to my house to depose me and I’ll let myself be deposed.”

            “Perfect! –Now, if this is all right, I’ve also been asked, and this is coming from within President Grantland’s office, to ask you if you would be willing and able to host a refugee family that’s coming over from New Northumberland; it was just decided a couple of hours ago to send out some vehicles to meet them and bring some of them in.”

            “Uh…I would have to ask my husband, obviously, but if it were up to me, I would say yes, absolutely,” said Jess, although it was really Cindy, and she guessed probably Milt also, saying yes through her right now, since her own mind was still preoccupied, for the first time in what felt like forever and a day, with that little chink of transparent firmness rolling and tracing lazy but perfect circles in Father Okada’s palm.

            “All right,” said the secretary. “I’ll have my colleague as your husband as well when we get through to him.”

            “Thank you,” said Jess. “Have a nice day now.”

            “You too, Mrs. Raffalovich. Goodbye.”

            “Goodbye.”

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Special Extraterritorial Zone 7, Harbin, China, Earth

August 1, 2209

Wang Xiulan swept down the armored, seven-gated hallway to where that portion of the Thiel Thousand that lay under her protection floated in their dreams. The priests Okada and Aguerra had passed all of the checks that the government and the Party had applied to them yesterday, and this morning the word had come from Brussels that they did indeed have the approval and the currency of the Democratic Alliance and its constituent governments. Representations had been made that China would come under renewed pressure to join the Democratic Alliance or any one of its penumbra of looser defense pacts if it did not cooperate in stage-managing the release of the Cavafy reports. Xiulan did not see herself as particularly patriotic, and she did not have particularly warm feelings towards the Thiel Thousand themselves—she saw them as perilous, chill, and pale—but she had done much better for herself in her career so far than most twenty-eight-year-old security contractors, and she liked the idea of keeping SEZ-7 the way it was far better than the idea of having it, and having herself, fall under the sway of other contractors from God knew what exotic lands or stars. Her twenty kilograms of body armor and technical gear felt to her as if they were almost as fully hers for the command the keeping as were the cassocks and collars that Okada and Aguerra were wearing underneath their hazmat suits.

            Xiulan indulged in some upper-class and femine affectations off the job, which she saw as the proverbial carrot against the stick of how little the future had opened itself before her during her days looking idly and wistfully from the window of her precarious-class high school over the steaming Pearl River. She had familiarized herself with a brief, heavily redacted biography of Jessica Raffalovich, née Martinelli, in preparation for the priests’ visit, and it seemed to her that they had a lot in common, Raffalovich’s experience of Worcester and her own experience of Shenzhen. Xiulan still had a tenuous understanding of Westerners; she wasn’t exactly glad that she was dealing with Okada and Aguerra rather than someone like Bella Cooby or Ryan Cortez-Knight, since she would have appreciated a chance to practice her English rather than the Japanese that the priests were speaking with her. Why they couldn’t have sent somebody who knew Chinese escaped her, especially given the factoid that had been drilled into her head at school that for the past couple of generations an outright majority of planetside mankind had at least some command of it. She had expressed this annoyance to Father Aguerra, who had said that he was actually in the process of learning Chinese and becoming good at it fairly rapidly, at which point in the morning she had started carrying on little conversations with him in it and leaving Father Okada, old and lean as he was, a little bit in the lurch.

            “Remember,” she said, in Japanese, as she led them along the corridor, “the Thiel Thousand are from a different generation than anybody else in the world, so even if you’ve dealt a lot with people about to vanish into the clouds, this is a form of life-in-death that might be beyond the outward edge of your understanding. Their concerns are of a different time and practically a different world; they’ll have difficulty understanding you and you’ll probably have difficulty understanding them. Don’t expect receptiveness to common moral or emotional tacks. They tend to ignore the sorts of feelings appropriate to the living at best or treat them as contemptible or exploitable at worst. If they propose some sort of deal or bargain to you, the best thing to do is to offer one of your own instead and sell them on it; if you strike them as firm enough in what you’re demanding then they’ll probably stick to an agreement once they’ve made it. I assume you passed all the psychological testing we normally have to do before exposing people to them?”

            “I did,” said Aguerra. “Father Okada was given an exemption because of his age and his personal involvement.”

            “Did he take the nootropics that he would have been offered last night, then?” asked Xiulan. They had slipped into Chinese at this point but Okada seemed to know what she had asked because he shook his head with a short, grim smile.

            “That was stupid of you,” said Aguerra.

            “Yes, they’ll be sure to notice and it won’t be much the better for you that they’ve noticed, I can tell you that much,” said Xiulan.

            “I’m pretty sure I can—” began Okada.

            “I wasn’t finished talking,” said Xiulan. “Please don’t interrupt me.”

            “I’m sorry.”

            “It’s okay but don’t do it again. In any case, some of the Thiel Thousand are more sensitive about their condition than others; some are perfectly happy with how things went for them and what became of them but others are very much not, and it will become clear to you before very long which one it is for the one we’ll be having you talk to. I would tell you now to forewarn you but I’m not sure myself because I have not really talked to him before.

            “His name is Bruce Montgomery and he was in his late eighties back in those days but has a mental picture of himself as a much younger man now, as most of them do; the ones who were youngest at the time were already about seventy. Keep in mind that most of them were pumped full of nootropics themselves well before they ended up the way they are now. Back then the science was crude and it wasn’t clear what geriatric nootropics would end up doing if combined with other life extension measures. The result, over the hundred and seventy-five-odd years since then, was to encourage certain…well, some of the traits that you’re likely to notice immediately and not likely to like very much.

“Just be on your guard and remember what I told you about making deals with them and you should be all right,” Xiulan finished. She turned, grinned at them, and opened the last door.

The room holding this contingent of the Thiel Thousand was warehouse-sized and lit by reactor-arc LEDs in long zigzagging strips in the ceiling; the lights looked white but there was an undertone to them that cast a faint greenish tinge over the room, which was supposed to make visitors more relaxed; Xiulan hadn’t found that it did that, exactly, but the effect might have been too subtle for her to notice. The tanks in which Bruce Montgomery and his cohort were suspended had in them a clear liquid that turned reddish and stank when exposed to the air, which had only happened twice, by easily remedied accident, in Xiulan’s five years working here. Some of the Thiel Thousand were perfectly still in their tanks; others bobbed gently, so that the curves and whorls on their opalescent surfaces seemed to swirl and flow like the patterns on the Damascus swords that Xiulan had seen in a museum of antiquities once. Each tank had electrodes placed at the ends of rigid wires at strategic points within the liquid, as if at Lagrange points between the Earth and the Moon. The wires congregated at the bottom of each tank and ran through the podia on which the tanks stood and into speaker and microphone setups about a hundred and fifty centimeters above the floor.

Xiulan led them on a zigzagging route through the room to Bruce Montgomery’s tank, where he floated pearlescent, latent, and coded. This tank’s speaker and microphone apparatus was in good working order but Okada, who was tall for his background and especially for his age, had to incline his head very slightly downwards in order to speak into it.

“Hello, Mr. Montgomery,” said Okada, whose English Xiulan guessed was better than Aguerra’s since he had been a DA military chaplain whereas Aguerra was just somebody whom the Archdiocese of Manila had sent to assist Okada for reasons that eluded her. “My name is Esteban Keiichi Okada. I’m a Catholic priest and a former member of the Constantine Cavafy expedition through the Great Einstein-Rosen Bridge of 2160, as you may have heard of.”

“Yes, I have heard of you,” said a deep, clear voice from the speaker on the podium. “Mostly good things, I promise. 2160…that would be about fifty years ago now, wouldn’t it?”

“Forty-nine,” said Okada.

“Forty-nine years. Goodness gracious, how time flies. I still remember where I was when John Lennon was shot on December 8, 1980. Every Baby Boomer does, you know.”

“Yes, so I’ve heard,” said Okada. “In any case, since you have some influence over the communications system between here and off-world, my hope was that you could find some way to lend further…credibility, I guess would be the word, to our attempts to contact someone living out on the far frontier, in one of the simulators carved out of ASPs that you may have heard about.”

“ASPs?”

“It stands for artificially static plutinos, sir.”

“Oh. So it does. Anyway, I hate to be a pain in the buttinski,” said Montgomery, “but what in particular would you like to see done about it?”

“I was wondering if you could see a way to have one of the commercial freighters expedite our passage through the Outer Solar System,” said Okada. “Preferably the Spacing Cooperative, although Huawei or Riggs-Hathaway will do in a pinch.”

            “To what end?” asked Montgomery after a long pause.

            “Because we need to gather a deposition or a testimony about certain events that took place on the Cavafy expedition,” said Okada. “For various reasons related to the nature of the simulators, I’ve been advised that this is best done in person.”

            “Why don’t you have someone like Bella Cooby or Kateri Ventvögel do it? Pam tells me they have the full faith and credit of the Democratic Alliance.”

            “Trinder wanted a personal touch. Don’t ask me why. I think he’s also trying to build bridges to the Holy See. I assume you remember Vatican II; there was some goodwill left in that period that’s being pined for.”

            “Not just by you, I can assure you. But the position I’ve heard on the Catholic Church is that it did great things for humanity—and to humanity, sometimes—way back when, but it’s lost the magic touch and it’s not really about what most people are about any more. Why not send the Prometheans or the Church of the Universal Spirit into the breach?”
            “Well, first of all, Mrs. Raffalovich is Catholic.”

            “Oh.”

            “Second of all, the Church of the Universal Spirit has been half-dead since I was a young man, and the Prometheans are mostly concerned with environmental engineering.”

            “Are they really? Well. Time flies, I guess. Anyway,” said Montgomery, “forgive me, but I’m still trying to figure out just what it is that you expect from me.”

            “Who would be likelier than you to be able to help us?” Aguerra interjected.

            “Did I imply that I wasn’t going to help you?”

            “It’s a hypothetical question, sir.”

            “Well, I would say that you might want someone in a government position to pull some strings. You might want to put pressure on the DA government to make this more of a priority if they want it to get done. I would be more able to help apply such pressure than I would be to get Huawei or Riggs-Hathaway to jump through hoops. The nature of our influence here in the Thiel Thousand is often misunderstood. Just give me one thing in return.”

            “And what’s that?” asked Okada. At the same time, Xiulan whispered into Aguerra’s ear not to on any account agree to Montgomery’s terms without clearing it with her superiors. He annoyedly nodded his understanding.

            “Editorial rights, basically,” said Montgomery. “Official reports on this are sure to be a fascinating intellectual-media property and I think that deserves some protection beyond what younger people can give it. You take for granted the seriousness people treat these things with now; people my age don’t; we can’t. I remember back when people who didn’t know what they were talking about ran amok and any idiot who thought he ‘had a story to tell’ could get himself published through the internet, back when we all thought it was the great equalizer. We wouldn’t want the Cavafy expedition to go the way of those South Korean pop groups my grandson used to listen to.”

            “I understand,” said Okada, “but first of all I want to clear this deal you’re suggesting with, well, whoever’s most interested.” Aguerra whispered into Okada’s ear and Okada nodded. “Right, yes, thank you, Father Aguerra. —Mr. Montgomery, this is my associate, Father Manfred Aguerra.”

            “Yes, I’ve had him looked up,” said Montgomery. “And I can look you up myself, too, now that you’ve given me your name and a little bit of your bio. Be mindful of that.”

            “I will,” said Okada. “Just—let’s talk this over, Miss Wang,” he said, and the three of them coolly withdrew.

Novella: “The Devil in the Twenty-third Century” (Part One)

The émigré Holy Family of Nazareth, fleeing into Egypt, is the archetype of every refugee family. Jesus, Mary, and Joseph, living in exile in Egypt to escape the fury of an evil king, are, for all times and all places, the models and protectors of every migrant, alien, and refugee of whatever kind who, whether compelled by fear of persecution or by want, is forced to leave his native land, his beloved parents and relatives, his close friends, and to seek a foreign soil.

—Pope Pius XII, apostolic constitution Exsul Familia Nazarethana

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Elmgrove, New Jersey, Oort Cloud

July 30, 2209

Joe Raffalovich did not have what he considered the bad habit of watching television in the morning, so he did not actually know whether or not NBC had come on for the day when, every morning, he shuffled downstairs, sat down at the table with the wife, and started flipping through the day’s paper while she calmly ate flapjacks and asked him the occasional question about the state of things these days. The two sets of news each day had been hard to sort through for a while but now that they were carried in different papers it was easy to figure out what was going on out in the wider world and what were just domestic issues. It was rare that the two intersected; President Grantland was good about keeping it that way, and, at least going by the way the first six months of his time in office had gone, which was admittedly not as much to go by as all that, Joe and Jessie both fully intended to vote for him for another four years three Novembers from now.

            Today’s foreign paper was about the same as it usually was. He got to explain to Milt what the Partial Hydrocarbon Ban Treaty was and why the Democratic Alliance was considering relaxing it (which he opposed, and thought he had every right to oppose as a retired officer in the DA’s military); Cindy asked both mommy and daddy to explain tidal locking to her since there seemed to be features about Einstein-Rosen expeditions to exoplanets on and off year in and year out these days, and it turned out that Jessie still after all these years understood tidal locking a lot better than Joe did. He handed Jessie the crossword—she was better at it than he was, and the foreign paper had better games than the domestic one—and briefly noted an item some sort of humanitarian disaster that had produced a bunch of DPs in a neighboring country before moving on to the domestic one.

            The domestic paper, much to his surprise, had more on the DPs, who had had to flee some country called New Northumberland that Joe guessed was of pretty recent foundation considering that he’d been living here for almost twenty years, New Northumberland was apparently right next door by these days’ standards, and he had never heard of it.

            “Jessie, you ever heard of this place?” he asked after she got back from showing Milt and Cindy to the bus stop. She brushed off her hands on her dress, a little nervous habit of hers that she had not had yet when he had first met her, and reached out to take the paper from him and scan the article.
            “New Northumberland.” Jessie crinkled her nose and flexed her fingers against each other. “I think I remember reading about it six or seven years ago. Some public intellectual who studied early medieval legal systems or something like that at Harvard founded it with a bunch of fans of his books. It’s a shame to see it’s not doing so well.” She flipped the paper over and read the end of the article where it continued for about two thirds of a column below the fold. “Yeah, this looks really bad,” she said. “Do you think it’s possible that we’ll be asked to take in some of these people?”

            “Elmgrove? Sure, maybe, since it’s in the domestic paper,” said Joe. “They don’t come right out and say that in the article but that’s the implication.”

            “Well,” said Jessie, “‘give me your tired, your poor’…that’s what we’re here for. I’d be all for that.”

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Hakodate, Japan, Earth

July 31, 2209

Esteban had just turned a hundred years old a few months ago and was finally beginning to feel it. He had been retired from active ministry for fifteen years and could very well still be hanging in there retired from active ministry fifteen years from now. He was back in Hakodate, living in one of the newer developments in what had once been the harbor, with a middle-aged Dominican and some girls from a Buddhist prep school near the station who came around now and then to look after him. The middle-aged Dominican was friends with the pastor at St. Paul Miki’s, where Esteban had taken to going to Mass now that his arms and legs were a little too weak to say it regularly himself.

            Today he was going on an adventure. Esteban had lost his taste for adventure half his lifetime ago, and he thought that the people with whom he had been when he lost it had probably lost it too. It had confused but at the same time perversely strengthened his faith, since he was now able to believe that God had made so many worlds to live in that the unsatisfactoriness of this one was nothing doing, taking the long view. This view of his had been criticized as potentially not orthodox in the same debriefing process in which church and state had for once agreed on suppressing or falsifying the results of the expedition for half a century. It had been that agreement that had taken Esteban away from active ministry for seven years and away from the sacraments for four and a half before being incardinated in the Diocese of Sapporo again and attempting to live out a faith in which he saw now confusion and betrayal and the loss of a richer and wider history. He made jokes, sometimes, when he was in a joking mood, that he was the kind of traditionalist now whom he’d mocked as a younger man, people now a quarter of a millennium outside the times. Many such people were these days only very loosely Catholic. Esteban aspired to more than looseness.

            “Remember me if you ever feel adventurous again,” Admiral Kurtoglu had said the last time he had seen her in the flesh before she had vanished into the clouds. “If ever you want to see the Fires of Titan again, or the Pyramids for the first time, think about the place where you and I became friends.”

            Esteban had not told Admiral Kurtoglu then that he did not consider them friends, and by the time they last corresponded, a few months after that, he was surprised to find that he did think of her as one at long last.

            When in a year’s time the records of what had happened in that other world were finally unsealed, the Democratic Alliance and the Holy See had—once again—agreed that they wanted Jess and Raffalovich to come back to Earth to depose themselves the old-fashioned way, in front of human record-keepers in one of the courtrooms in Brussels or Rome. Failing that, their testimonies were to be gathered from wherever they were living currently—Esteban thought probably in one of the ancestor simulators that had been set up a couple of decades back out in the Oort Cloud after the first Einstein-Rosen highway out that way had been established, but he wasn’t sure which one. He tried to imagine Jess living happily in a world of flickering gas lamps in Victorian urban fog or roaring fires in a medieval keep, resplendent in a taffeta hoop skirt or a linen wimple. It was almost as ridiculous as it was to remember that it had been forty-nine years now since he had known that brilliant, lively, heartless young lady who had slept her way through half the US Space Marine Corps and gone in guns blazing on the plains of Ganymede.

            Esteban was helped into the car that would take him to the airport. The flight would be suborbital, in one of the little sun-sailors that had been so dear to him when he had been so enamored of the history of flight as a child. He had not been told whether he was being taken to Seoul, Khabarovsk, or Harbin, only the rough length of the flight and the insinuation that there was going to be a transition to a jump-train after landing.

            “Now remember,” Father Aguerra, who’d been sent from Manila to help him here, said to him as they got in the little shimmering flickering ultramarine wisp of a thing that was the sun-sailor, “some of the Thiel Thousand are sensitive about their situation relative to us, just as some of us are sensitive about our situation relative to them. It’s best not to draw attention to the differences between us. We’re all humans here.”

            “I wonder if the Thiel Thousand would see it that way,” said Esteban. “I suppose if they do see it that way at long last then there’s some hope for the rest of us.”

            They climbed higher into the limpid atmosphere, with no haze beneath them and only a few clouds around them. The misshapen gully of the Tsugaru Strait had, from above, the beauty almost of former days, and Esteban felt for the first time in many years that sensation of the overlooking panorama, that astronauts and cosmonauts in the early days had felt, that as the sea passed beneath them he was looking down at a common, fragile, and beloved home.

            They landed eventually and were ushered on the jump-train to, as it turned out, Harbin once the pressure and oxygenation issues had been straightened out. Esteban actually felt younger and invigorated from the travel, rather than weaker or likelier to succumb to something.

            “How do you feel, Father Okada?” asked Father Aguerra.

            “Better,” said Esteban. “Heaven help me, people were right when they told me I’d feel adventuresome again.”

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Elmgrove

August 2, 2209

Jess was at the Safe’n’Smart picking up some dish soap and drain cleaner when she bumped into Etta Cleary, one of the women from her mothers’ group at St. John the Evangelist whom she also knew from the occasional PTA meeting at the middle school. Etta didn’t like to talk about her past and Jess had from time to time suspected her of being an Elmgrove girl born and bred but she was a good friend and what Jess would once upon a time have called a dab hand with any old recipe you could wish to see tried out. Her aspics kept their shape very well and didn’t have the strange alkaline aftertaste that had made Jess dislike so much of the cooking here for so long, especially given that Jess was still really not much of a homemaker herself. The Clearys’ summer potlucks were always high-demand events; Jess and Joe were proud to say that they had been invited thirteen years running now, ever since Jess had been first expecting Cindy.

            “Do you hear about this New Northumberland crisis?” Etta said. “My heart breaks for the poor devils. They’d been getting along pretty well for themselves as far as the outside world could see. I guess it just goes to show you can’t always know what’s going to be a crisis before the crisis happens.”

            Jess balanced in one hand the brand of dish soap that she always got and in the other a brand that was on sale. “I heard New Northumberland didn’t have a government,” she said, “only an AI that enforced contracts. Eventually some people who were stuck in bad contracts decided that enough was enough, so they tried to reprogram the AI, but it got wind of what they were up to and vented a tenth of the population into space. That’s when most of the rest abandoned ship.”

            “Just goes to show what happens when people don’t think there’s anything doing outside the rat race, I guess,” Etta said. “You and I are lucky that Robert and Joe aren’t that kind of guy.”

            “Easy not to be when your boss likes you,” said Jess. “Joe’s lucky the electrical workers’ local is so good around here too.”

            They chatted for a few more minutes and then Jess processed to the checkout, which, she had the suspicion, was something that should have felt statelier than it did, something more like Father Marley’s procession to the foot of the altar. She felt that there was an economic equilibrium at the checkout much as there was a sacrificial equilibrium on the altar. People talked about the “economy of salvation,” but for Jess, economy and sacrifice had always been held a ways apart from each other. It might have had something to do with that Ptolemaic world, which she had still never shaken the suspicion had died in order to be apprehensible to them.

            In line for the checkout she saw a couple youngish guys, probably bachelors, maybe of the confirmed subspecies, piling up corned beef on the conveyor belt and chatting about what she and Etta had been chatting about.

            “…yeah, I don’t think we’re gonna get any help from the superpowers on this. The Coordinating Minister of the DA and the Prime Ministers of Australia and Mars have all said that they think this is a problem for New Northumberland’s neighbors to take care of. And that’s us. So we’re pretty much on our own.”

            “What about New Chelsea?”

            “GOM-5’s gotten more isolationist lately, you know. I think it might be taking a leaf out of its namesake’s book, or maybe think that’s what it’s doing. I dunno enough about British history to say. Besides, they’re a lot more ‘plugged in’ in New Chelsea than we are here. I think some of them actually do believe it’s 1887.”

            “I guess you’re right,” said the second young man. “Still, Elmgrove has a tradition for this, right? It’s not like anybody’s really native here anyway.”

            There was a lull in the conversation, then the first man said “I hear there’s a bunch of religious leaders on the warpath on Earth. Not often you see the Pope and the Cult of Prometheus united on anything. Even Reggie Chan’s people on Io are weighing in that the DA should do more to help.”

            “Well, Reggie Chan would say that, wouldn’t he? Anyway, it’s a shame nobody’s probably gonna listen. I can’t remember the last time anybody paid attention to the Pope out here. I think it was way back when that bridge out to beyond the beyond opened. Before our time, you know.”

            “Don’t we have some people in Elmgrove who were mixed up in that thing?”

            “I think so. I mean it’s very classified, obviously, by international law, so nobody’s really sure who they are, but I’ve heard one of those real buttoned-up couples on Oakleaf Terrace actually went on that expedition in their previous life.”

            “Probably the Agronskis. I’m pretty sure he’s an ex-serviceman and I think she might be too.”

            Jess steeled herself, did some counting exercises in her head to stay closer to the moment she found herself in, and walked surreptitiously to another register.

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Paektu, Korea, Earth

July 31, 2209

Esteban and Father Aguerra looked out a little diffidently, probably for different reasons, as the mountains zipped past. Esteban had opened up one of his content crystals and was sight-reading some Cole Porter and Taylor Swift songbooks that he had bought a few months ago, thinking to himself as he did that he really needed to be practicing piano much more regularly, not only if he wanted to get good at it but if he wanted to keep his fingers limber at his age. Father Aguerra had no such compunctions, partly because he was less than half Esteban’s age and partly because he had mentioned on the sun-sailor that he was already pretty good at two or three different string instruments and also messed around on synthesizers sometimes.

            The train ride from Pusan to Harbin in total would take about an hour and a half, counting the five minutes or so it would take the train to be scanned upon crossing the border into China. There were still several minutes to go because the train, at least according to Esteban’s reading of the map and timetable, did not cross the border at Paektu but skirted the Korean side for a little while before crossing the border elsewhere. There was time to pull up the dining menu and order a box lunch and a caffè giapponese but probably not enough time to make the three-car trek to the dining car and have this little repast the old-fashioned way. After thinking about it for a few moments, Esteban decided to wait until they were scanned and then in fact go to the dining car and have it the old-fashioned way.

            “Does it concern you, Father Okada, that there’s a portrait of Coordinating Minister Trinder in our passports now?” asked Father Aguerra as they pulled up their passports to be subjected to the scanner.

            “It does, actually, yes,” said Esteban. “I voted for the fellow over that anti-historical madman Cipriani, of course, but that doesn’t mean I support most of what he’s done so far.”

            “I couldn’t agree more. Voting one’s own conscience is all very well, but, well, my own conscience isn’t exactly proud of having cast in my lot with somebody who thinks we need an entire dwarf planet devoted to nothing but producing fusion bombs.”

            “That’s not Trinder’s fault; that’s been a crowd-pleasing policy for longer than you’ve been alive,” said Esteban. “Remember that I lived on Titan for a while. Plenty of people out that way have family who work on Eris; I remember people would migrate out that way and stay and build up a nest egg for a few years even before the ERHs were dug.”

            “And would you take the ERH?” asked Father Aguerra. “If His Holiness wanted you to talk to the Raffaloviches in person, I mean.”
            “If His Holiness wanted me to talk to the Raffaloviches in person, I’m sure Trinder would go over his head and send someone like Malala Stanislawska or Bella Cooby to do it instead,” said Esteban, maybe a little derisively, “and, I’m being perfectly honest when I say this, I think they’d be a lot more qualified than I would be to deal with that, because they have less of a history with the Raffaloviches and in particular with Jessica. The main point about the Coordinating Minister,” he went on after a pause, “is that sometimes it feels to me like you’re not allowed to be publicly critical of him or people will accuse you of lacking national feeling. I remember when ‘national feeling’ was called patriotism and we only owed it to our particular countries, not to the Democratic Alliance. Back then, of course, there was no Coordinating Minister, only summits of heads of government and the combined military brass.”

            They came to the border and the train stopped. After a couple of minutes the scanner passed over them, a very bright, but intermittent, flicker of greenish light that took about fifteen seconds to pass from one end of their car to the other. They waited in silence until the train’s intercom emitted a drawn-out, warbling ding, after which the train started moving again. As they passed into China Esteban saw out the window three or four people whose passports had not been up to snuff straggling out onto the platform and being taken into custody by autonomous police units.

            “As I was saying,” Esteban said, “I do think there’s something pernicious that’s developed in the DA over the past fifty years. I grew up back when the war was hot and there was obviously a lot of support for ‘the cause’ then but it’s a lot harder to be motivated by it now, and yet we’re expected to be. –Father Aguerra, are you listening to me?”

            “Sorry,” said Father Aguerra, who had his nose buried in something else he had pulled up. “It’s a news alert. Apparently there’s a refugee crisis going on out in the Oort Cloud; the population of one of their O’Neill cylinders bailed after a massacre by their government.”
            “The only Oort Cloud O’Neill cylinder I’m aware of is the one Paul X condemned about fifteen years ago partly because of what it had instead of a government,” Esteban said. “Is it that one?”

            “Um, it’s called New Northumberland, and yes, it looks like it had an AI whose only purpose was to enforce contracts rather than a judicial system,” said Father Aguerra with his brow furrowed meaningfully, “possibly rather than a legislature too.”

            “Unbelievable,” said Esteban. “And this AI massacred them? Well, I guess that’s what you get when people who worship the almighty dollar pretend to be an anarchists. Anyway, it’s going to be interesting to meet the Thiel Thousand. Maybe we should fill them in on this, since it’s relevant to the Oort Cloud, which is where the Raffaloviches live.”

            “Did we ever establish which ancestor simulator it is that they live in?” Father Aguerra asked as more mountains, more clouds, more afforested valleys, and another small city zipped by.

            “I was just wondering that earlier,” said Esteban. “I’m actually not sure that she is living in one of the ancestor simulators; I just seem to remember it about her that she had mentioned at one time that she might go out that way. It’s definitely beyond the Kuiper Belt.”

            “Did she really want to be all the way out near where…that happened?” asked Father Aguerra. “No, silly question. What am I asking? It wasn’t out near where that happened; that happened in an entirely different region of space, didn’t it?”

            “Outside the observable universe, no less,” said Esteban. “At least fourteen billion light-years away.”

            “I’m surprised the universe expands fast enough that that’s even possible,” said Father Aguerra.

            “Yes, so was I. Apparently the expansion of the universe is the whole concept of scale itself changing,” said Esteban, although he did not really have the clearest idea of what had been meant by this when it had been explained to him, “not of things zooming apart or of the universe expanding ‘into’ anything.”

            “Interesting,” said Father Aguerra. “Could it be said then that it was an entirely different universe, at least for all practical purposes, that you found yourselves in?”

            “I don’t understand why you’re asking the question unless His Holiness’s people or the Coordinating Minister’s people told you much more than anybody at our level is supposed to know. Can I ask you, does it look like they’re going to open up on it a year ahead of schedule?”

            “I think if they were going to do that then the Raffaloviches would have been deposed sooner,” said Father Aguerra. “No, I just guessed that it was that or something of similar consequence—an alien civilization, maybe. Your reaction’s telling me more than anything else has.”

            “Oh, yes, that is an old trick, isn’t it? Shame I fall for these things.”

            “It’s not a question of falling,” said Father Aguerra. “I can tell you’ve wanted to talk to someone about what happened for a long time now.”

            “It’s the Thiel Thousand I’ve been asked to talk to about it. It’s my job here that I want to do.”

            Father Aguerra laughed a light laugh. “No it’s not.”

            Esteban stood up with a sigh. “This is silly. I’m going to go to the dining car. Do you want anything?”

            “Maybe a cup of hot chocolate.”       

            “Why would you want hot chocolate on such a hot day?”

            “I don’t know. Call it a craving.”

            “If you say so.” Esteban walked down the car and stepped through the doors into the next. Once in there, in an unfamiliar crowd, in strange and maybe dubious company, he felt for the first time in a long while like he was alone.

Short Story: “Holding a Battledore”

Note: This story, heavily autobiographical, is the sixth and last in the Haters and Losers cycle.

It was the era of one’s expertise, the century of Obama. The most popular anime in the West was Shingeki no Kyojin and there was still some hope that the Arab Spring might stick the landing. Nicholas Zussman, soon to go into his seventh semester at UMass Amherst and tenth and hopefully final semester of college overall, walked the streets of Hakodate without much care; the personal crises that had beset him in previous years and the terror about the state of the world that would beset him in years to come were, at the moment, nearing the end of what would turn out to be an approximately eighteen-month-long period of equilibrium. No longer did he feel affronted and insecure about his beliefs about the world and about how to behave; not yet did he realize the various hypocrisies and repressions that he had developed to make up for the loss of the affronts and insecurities. Not yet had his relative comfort in his own moral standards given way to ever-stricter philosophy and theology; or, at least, that process had not yet reached its apogee. He knew enough Japanese to have gotten around well enough for the past five weeks and to have been interpreting, as best he could, for his parents, who were with him; Professor Williams would, he hoped, be more or less pleased with him when he got back, even though he had not been doing this through a formal study-abroad program like he had been encouraged to.

            Nicholas, if he was being honest with himself, which on this subject at least he usually was, fervently doubted that he would be able to take a whole year or even a whole semester in Japan, cut off from association in common time with his parents and with his close friends in places like New York and Michigan. Today and tomorrow he was going to spend some time with his friend Sarah, who had been spending the past year at Hokudai and would be returning to America shortly after him to take up her own last year at UMass. They had had a couple of friendly but strained interactions in their first year in the Japanese major; in their second year they had become better acquainted, and they had stayed in touch over the course of Sarah’s time in Sapporo. They had planned this excursion entirely via Facebook message because Nicholas did not have a phone that he could use in Japan; he would just have to trust her bus to arrive in Hakodate when she had said it would.

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“Watch this with us,” one of his parents had said once, while they were sitting watching a war movie with his ailing grandfather.

            Nicholas’s grandfather had succumbed to Alzheimer’s a few days after the end of Nicholas’s first semester at UMass. The funeral arrangements were difficult because it was scant days before Christmas; eventually they had the funeral over a week after the death, on the Feast of the Holy Innocents; Nicholas had not gone, because it had coincided with his first time ever hosting a certain close friend at his house. He felt a persistent moral anxiety about not having gone even now almost three years later. He supposed he would always feel it.

            They had sat there in his grandfather’s den and watched the movie together. It was one of a few movies about either war or old age that he watched at least part of with his grandfather during his last illness, and watching them was always an oddly arcane task. There was some precise intellectual or emotional connection that Nicholas found himself wanting to make in these instances, and he was never quite able to make it. He would have loved to be able to say, in later years, that the reason he had become a Japanese major was a desire to establish his grandfather’s past, in the Pacific, more firmly as something to be worked from and built upon and (in peacetime) transcended. But in later years, and even now, peace had become more fragile again, and besides, the real reason had had more to do with a girl he had liked at fourteen and a book he had read at sixteen. The book had included repeated references to an instrument called a “battledore” that characters posed with in New Year’s Eve photos. He had looked this up once and discovered that a battledore was a type of antiquated badminton racket; this, regrettably, had reminded him of his one or two experiences being told to play badminton in PE when he was in middle and high school, but the word appealed to him anyway. He was all the same not interested in Japan because of the word “battledore.” He never knew quite what to say when people asked him why he was studying Japanese. Maybe it had something to do with how different it was from English. Studying it made him feel like he was putting a great deal of faith in the possibility of world understanding.

            Shortly after his time in Japan Nicholas would learn that his grandfather had actually acquired a samurai sword at some point during, presumably, his wartime service. The sword ended up living in his family’s attic for the most part.

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Nicholas and Sarah, when they met up, took the Hakodate streetcars here and there. They were going to go look for a beach to swim at but when they got there the tide had risen almost halfway up the sea-wall. Nicholas exploded in a moment of frustration; irritability, during the period of his late adolescence and very early twenties that he spent not being medicated, was a common problem for him. Later in the evening they hauled ass across the city on foot to be in time for a trip up the ropeway to the top of Mount Hakodate.

            “This is supposed to be one of the three best ‘views of a city from a mountaintop’ in the world,” said Nicholas as he and Sarah pressed through a crowd on the highest level of the mountaintop’s observation turret.

            “I wish it were easier to actually see it,” said Sarah, who was short. Fortunately within a few minutes they managed to press their way forward to a railing. The city spread out fan-shaped before them, spreading along both sides of the hammerhead peninsula of which the mountain was the end. The stars in the dusky sky had fallen to the earth and now shone up back at the heavens. Nicholas would normally consider this insolent; tonight he considered it revealing.

            “The other great views are supposed to be Hong Kong and Naples,” said Nicholas, who was unsure what else to say or do about beauty, other than pointing and clicking.

            In later years he would dimly remember Sarah having said something in response to this, but he was never sure what.

            Earlier that day they had been in a bookstore looking at manga. Nicholas had bought a volume of one, which he hoped to be able to take home and puzzle through later because it was a volume with whose plot he was already more or less familiar by means of English fan translations. The volume would, however, float through time unread until he lost interest in the series. They had gone to a restaurant, a Lucky Pierrot, one of more than a dozen of this chain in Hakodate even though there were none anywhere else, with a friend of Sarah’s who had accompanied her from Sapporo. Lucky Pierrot did burgers and curry and things like that and Nicholas had been to another location of it, further from the station and closer to the harbor, several times with his father since arriving in the city. He had developed a taste for a curry that he would later figure out was probably made with shiokara; he would be glad, once he figured this out, that he had developed a taste for it before he had known what shiokara was, because now his taste could inform his opinion of shiokara rather than having preordained thoughts on shiokara averting his taste. Speaking in a more general sense, he had at least managed to cultivate a deliberate and practiced, yet sincere, neutrality on the subject of nattō.

            Each Lucky Pierrot in Hakodate had a different theme to its décor. The one near the harbor (“Lucy Pierrot—Bay Area,” it was called) had a circus theme—understandable, since the logo was a clown. The one near the station had something like a roaring twenties speakeasy theme, but with a faint fifties greaser diner twist to it that Nicholas could not quite place, account for, or accept. In later days his memory would sometimes place this Lucky Pierrot elsewhere in Hakodate, near the old Goryōkaku fort, for example, and yet on further and more careful remembrance he recalled that it had in fact been some cooler-energied, probably ostensibly higher-end place where they had stopped to eat after visiting Goryōkaku. They had had salad and a conversation that he enjoyed and found meaningful at the time but did not long remember. He would kick himself for “not having gotten enough” out of his time in Japan in general, further on down the road—he had not gone here, he had not done that, he had defaulted to working with a concierge’s limited English rather than soldiering on with his Japanese all over yonder. It was part of the top-heavy and constantly teetering nature of his happiness, of the equilibrium in which he had temporarily found himself and which he foolishly pretend could, or for that matter should, last forever. Yet he would always keep firmly in mind the logo of Lucky Pierrot. He knew that some hack writer or psychologist might judge him for this and take it as a sign of psychic “brandedness.” For once he didn’t care. He made good memories here.

            He kept getting the shiokara curries partially because he did not eat red meat and partially because he wanted to eat Japanese food while he was in Japan, to the greatest extent possible. From time to time he wondered if this was voyeuristic, or touristy rather than pilgrimwise. The taste—sticky, salty, pungent, but feinting at and seeking to remind one of sweetness—appealed to him immediately, and grew on him as his time in Hakodate went on. He had it at least once a day.

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A few evenings ago, while out with his father, Nicholas had seen a young woman in a duffel coat and newsboy hat cranking out “Country Roads” on a hand organ that spewed downy feathers and bubbles. She had been standing at the edge of a pedestrian streetway by some old redbrick warehouses, which had shops and restaurants in them now, on the edge of the harbor. When Nicholas had taken some video of her with his camera she had seemed a little uncomfortable and possibly even shamefaced, even though she was the one out here in the late summer evening playing this music. It was possible to envision her as a being akin to one of the late-summer fireflies in the book that he loved. It was possible to envision the feathers and bubbles as entities pertaining to the refraction index of the wind and the clouds. It was not a feeling that he had had before. He had laid hold of it for only a moment. He knew that the song was much-loved in Japan, but something about it still seemed a little more playful than he would have thought apposite.

            He guessed it was a good thing, that being the case, that it was not really his opinion that mattered here. He did not want to reduce his own status in his own or anybody else’s eyes, but he wanted to want that. A history of taking actions to make himself impressive would eventually have to all fall down so that a future of self-surrender and sacrifice could take its place. Being here was one way of making himself impressive and humiliating himself at the same time; his height was much remarked-upon, in furtive remarks that the people making them assumed that he as a foreigner could not understand; some of these remarks were impressed or a little frightened and some were obviously derisive. These remarks he would turn into stories, anecdotes about traveling in a country his stature in which would always have been and perhaps ought always to have been athrill with ambiguities.

            There were two young women staying at the same bed and breakfast, which styled itself a bed and breakfast rather than a ryokan, as Nicholas and his father. These young women were Japanese, traveling around the country after some time spent abroad in America, studying at a certain West Coast university. In these women one might have seen a partial answer to Nicholas’s own questions about his status in Japan. They could speak to one another in two languages, but there was not necessarily much about which to talk—less, perhaps, than with the middle-aged obasan who had woken up Nicholas and his parents at seven o’ clock sharp every morning for a feverishly prepared breakfast at the ryokan in which they had stayed near Aomori. The question of his stature in Japan was the question of his stature with people like that, in the same way in which the question of these younger women’s stature in America would have been the question of their stature with people like his aunts and uncle.

            Nicholas was prone to this sort of pontificating and these sorts of attempts to deduce moral and political meaning from his everyday experiences rather than believing in and delighting in the flow of events as they in fact overtook him. A few times in Hakodate, and more before in Aomori and in Kyōto, he had been able to take a step back and let experiences and happinesses flow through his hands as if letting a pearl necklace fall to the floor: On a train ride, a day trip to Nara; snoozing on another train, going over the mountains of Ōu; looking out over Lake Towada from the passenger’s window of a rental car doing a circumnavigation thereof; watching fireflies in a little marsh above a reservoir in the deep blue part of the evening next to the cab driver who had ferried his family thence. The moment at the top of the mountain with Sarah had been a moment like this. He tried as much as possible to savor moments like this and make them the clear, core, cogent parts of the way he understood himself, but had not lived much (in ways that were positive) and in the future he would have too much fear for the world to carry on a love affair with it. He was just at the beginning of trying to live within limits that both he himself and the world were imposing on him. Even future periods spent doubting his religious beliefs, or having agonizing bizarre adventures over his relationship with gender, or what you will, were in their ways attempts to accept limits.

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He kept beating himself up for not having been to that fucking funeral. Most of the time he did not think much about it but occasionally it would come roaring back into his head as a betrayal. There had been things not to care for about his grandfather but over the years of his long last illness Nicholas had grown a ferocious fondness for him, hard to explain. “Yeah, apparently he was in the Pacific for three years or so,” he said to Sarah at one point in their two days exploring the city together.

            “Did he know you were majoring in Japanese?” she asked.

            “I’m not sure. I only transferred to UMass half a year before he died so I don’t know how much of it he was able to internalize. I hope he knew that. I’d tell him sometimes and he was always interested to hear it.”
            “That would have been on breaks from our first semester.”

            “Yes. I don’t remember our first semester having gone very well.” Sarah shrugged. “Remember that time I hurt my leg in that game Terayama-sensei had us play?” Nicholas asked.

            “Yeah, I do,” said Sarah, glancing up at the ceiling of the trolley, the trolley that was bedecked for an anniversary year. “I think that’s the first thing I remember about you, actually.”

            “I think you’re not the only one in our major who remembers that about me. There are also probably a few who’ve dropped out of the major. Didn’t Mary say it has the highest attrition rate on campus—like, higher than chemical engineering?”

            “I’ve heard that from a lot of people,” said Sarah. “Come to think of it, you and I aren’t the sorts of people who’d make ‘ideal’ Japanese majors, are we?”

            “By which you mean we’re weebs,” said Nicholas who had become interested in Japan through a girl he had liked at fourteen who had had the word “anime” in her email address.

            “Put it however you like,” said Sarah.

            Nicholas had earlier in the summer lost touch with that girl, Nora, but he did not know yet at the time that he had lost touch with her. His family was preparing, once they got back from Japan, to start the process of moving away from where they had been living for the past decade—near where Nora lived—and rapidly and speedily he would lose touch with quite a few of the people had been to middle and high school with. It did not help that Nora did not have a Facebook. Very charitably and helpfully he might have spent some time wishing that whether or not you were “in touch with” another person did not revolve, these days, so much around online contact. He kept Nora’s phone number, as he remembered it, in years to come. He kept the address of the ryokan in Aomori, too, and his father kept the immigrant owners of an Indian restaurant in Ōdate as Skype contacts.

            He tried to stay in touch with these people in much the same way that he tried to stay in touch with his family in Cape Cod, but the family in Cape Cod was reaching out to him as well so with them he had more success. He had developed a liking for seaside towns during visits to Cape Cod as a child; Hakodate, so much like what he had heard said about San Francisco, for him was also a sort of overgrown Hyannis or Chatham. One New Year’s Eve in Chatham he had had a horrible fight with his mother; in Hakodate he had much less strenuous arguments with his father about where to go to dinner or when to go to sleep. He could take the trolley around Hakodate by himself using a daily pass in which he had written his name and the date “8/13/25,” the “25” referring not to the Anni Domini but to the Heisei Era. This was an improvement over Cape Cod, which he had never actually driven around himself and would not get the chance to drive around himself for another several years. In Cape Cod all he could do was to ask to be chauffeured, something that he had sometimes, in his middle and later teens, wondered whether he should maybe find a little more embarrassing than he did. He certainly found it embarrassing now, looking back.

            On Cape Cod his aunt and uncle lived in a house overlooking a large pond along a tidal river. He could see fancier houses across the pond; in one of them they left their lights on throughout the night. Coming into Hakodate on the train from Aomori he had seen the city itself spread out white and gleaming from across the bay—white and shining, yes, in the distance, too far out and too far behind the glass of the train windows to be smelled or heard. Here was a city that, after his father had had a health scare in Hachinohe the previous week, the doctor at the Hachinohe hospital had had him understand to be bigger, with more amenities and more to do, in those respects perhaps safer, a safer city in which to be sick. He did not know about hospitals on Cape Cod; the entire Cape’s population was less than that of Hakodate, except in the heightened weekends of high summer in which he and his mother had never liked to visit it anyway. He knew there was one in Hyannis. He had never spent much time in Hyannis. He had gotten a Jerusalem Bible with full plate illustrations by Salvador Dali at a used bookstore in Hyannis.

            “You definitely do want to look back at what brought you here, sitting here,” said Sarah on the trolley. “Now that we’re going into our last year.”

            “Yes,” said Nicholas, “even if you were able to come here earlier than I was and for longer.”

            Sarah shrugged. “Do you think you would have had a good time with a year at Hokudai?”

            “There are people I would have missed terribly.”

            “For me too,” said Sarah (referring, potentially, to her girlfriend, all about whom she would tell Nicholas that night as they were schlepping back across the city from the tide-submerged evening beach).

            Normally Nicholas was proud not to feel a need to be entirely like his friends.

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Traveling around northern Japan required a lot of hauling luggage around; laundry was an occasional necessity, and Nicholas and his parents had at least two large pieces of luggage each. His mother had actually left Japan before the arrival in Hakodate to return to America to manage the move out of their current house, but he kept thinking of her as somehow still there and he kept wondering what she would think of all the places he and his father were going together. A period of frustration in Hirosaki, a city that he liked not nearly as much as he had expected to, had led to a meltdown and discussion of the possibility of returning home early; but he had turned things around, partially out of the firm hope and desire of seeing another friend in Japan—he had seen another UMass friend, Alba, in Kyōto a little less than a month ago. At one point Nicholas and his father sent his mother some pictures from a public garden that proudly displayed Lythrum salicaria, purple loosestrife, as a characteristically Japanese flower; all three were used to thinking of loosestrife as an undesirable, invasive weed, albeit a pretty one, and had a hard time thinking of this as a place in which it was native and beloved. Later Nicholas would find out that loosestrife was considered one of the premiere biological pest control success stories. By the time he learned that, by which he had long since been ensconced in the United States again, it was hard to go back to thinking of it as pestilential.

            Japan had not afforded Nicholas any opportunity for religious practice, primarily because he had not been trying hard enough to make and keep it a priority. In Hakodate there was a certain intersection, on the lower slopes of the mountain looking down over the harbor towards the station, where there was on each corner a house of worship of a different denomination: A Roman Catholic church, a Russian Orthodox church, an Anglican church, and (next to a teahouse) a Pure Land Buddhist temple. The first two of these had been founded in the 1860s and 1870s as missionary parishes for the conversion of the people of the raw frontier city and for the benefit of French and Russian soldiers, diplomats, and dignitaries. The Anglican church had a shorter history and a vastly more modern style of architecture. The Pure Land temple was difficult to find out much about.

            There were also great old houses and ambassadorial buildings executed in beautiful Victorian styles in the neighborhoods along the slope, beautiful so differently from the Edo-period townhouse that Nicholas remembered from his week in Kyōto. He and Sarah looked at a few of these on their perambulations throughout the city but did not go inside. Though he thought briefly that he might like to live in a house like that, he decided eventually that it would be too high and mighty, too grandiloquent and authoritative. The bricks and white-trimmed façade of the old Russian consulate, in particular, radiated a feeling of coiled but somehow still kinetic forcefulness.

            “Buildings like that impress me but they also kind of give me the creeps,” he said. “It’s like they have an orbit you get sucked into.”

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They went to a junk shop near the harbor while they were in Hakodate. Nicholas in after years couldn’t remember what if anything Sarah had bought, but he remembered his own purchases very clearly. There was a blue-and-white matryoshka for his mother, which put him in mind of the Russian on the public signs and the forceful Russian consulate up on the slopes. There was a little metal cross, with vague ornamentations at the end of each arm—one of the wires of which the cross was made flaring out to either side at each end; this also reminded him of the consulate, and of the Orthodox church at that intersection, even though it was a Latin cross. And there was a little wooden figurine of a Hokkaidō bear.

            He also saw a battledore in the junk shop. It turned out that the Japanese word was “hanetsuki.” It was small, obviously ornamental, and had a painting of small birds eating berries on it. It would appear—so he learned—that Japanese people oftentimes still posed with ornamental battledores in New Year’s Eve photos, even though actually playing the game associated with them had fallen out of custom after the war. He thought of his grandfather coming as an avenger over the sea to stop war criminals and mass rapists from playing battledore and shuttlecock. It was an unexpectedly repellent thing to think about. He did not get the battledore; he decided that the matryoshka, and the cross, and the bear would make a better set of purchases.

            From a house near the junk shop he could hear someone playing one of last year’s Taylor Swift singles. He bopped his head a little to the beat, half-consciously.

❦

The next day he and Sarah looked around a bookstore and squeezed in a tiny bit of window-shopping in a department store before Sarah and her friend had to get on the bus back to Sapporo. They also went to an onsen. Nicholas had been in onsen before, in Aomori, but it had been in a very small ryokan indeed and he had always gone in the middle of the night and been the only one there. At the onsen in Hakodate that they went to he would have to be around a number of other people in variously more or less entire states of undress. If it had been with family members or close friends, or if he had been more acclimated to Japan, he probably would not have had a problem with this; but as it was, the prospect frightened him a little, and he spent the time that Sarah and her friend were in the onsen sitting in a vestibule reading an old copy of Hesperides that he had picked up at a used bookstore just before coming to Japan. He had been toting it around more than any of his books of Japanese poems and stories because it was a durable old clothbound hardcover while the others were trade paperbacks. In after years he would look back on the opportunities that he had had to buy materials from the Edo period and the Meiji era in used bookstores in cities like Kyōto and Hirosaki. It would be a subject of significant regret for him, as would be not trying out this onsen.

            He saw off Sarah and her friend at the station and then took the trolley back to Jūjigai, the closest stop to his and his father’s bread and breakfast. He hit the computer for a few hours—a pastime that had not yet reached its apogee of being a problematic time-suck for him—before it was time to go out for dinner, at Lucky Pierrot again. He had had one non-Lucky Pierrot dinner in Hakodate; it had been at a German-style restaurant and beer hall in or near the redbrick warehouses. Already he could barely remember what he had eaten there; he liked to think it had been a mix of the local and the universal, like a hot soft pretzel with some squid, or flying fish roe with sauerkraut on the side. But for now there was Lucky Pierrot and there was shiokara curry over rice. He ate the curry then and walked to a convenience store later, late at night, to get an ice cream bar. The convenience stores had been a fixture for him since he had been in Japan; the best had been in Kyōto, but there had been good ones in Hirosaki, Ōdate, Hachinohe, and now Hakodate too. His memory flashed back to the hotel in Ōdate where he and his father had stayed for a few days. It was decorated in a style that had probably been impressive thirty or forty years ago and retained some capacity to impress now, and in its lobby there had been a little coffee and tea bar. He wasn’t sure he would be able, if he were asked, to explain what about this moment reminded him of that place, nor what about future moments would remind him, often and again, of Hakodate.

❦

The following day Nicholas and his father left the city for Morioka by way of Aomori. The train bound for Aomori went widdershins around the bay, and it was out of the port side of the car that he watched the gleaming buildings of Hakodate disappear from sight.

Short Story: “Spock, the Rock, Doc Ock, and Hulk Hogan”

2008. A moment in spring, a fifteenth birthday party, walking along train tracks.

            It was in a small town, in New Jersey, and only a few people showed. All boys—they had female friends who could not make it—and all of an age to gossip, the crude way boys are liable to gossip, about friends who were absent. A hookup, a breakup (both truer than not), an abortion (scandalous; scurrilous; likely untrue; judgment withheld), rumors of bisexuality (true, but still mildly titillating in those days). The train track ran under the main street. On that main street they had, a few minutes before, stopped in a drugstore to buy candy bars.

            They ascend from the train tracks back to street level and lope towards the McDonalds at the edge of town, across an often-busy highway; they’ll have to dodge cars to get there, but these boys are fifteen to seventeen, and overbold. The spring weather is balmy here, more or less, and they sweat a little as they walk through the sunny afternoon.

            It was at this time still the case that being a “nerd” meant something, even in a high school of mostly “nerds.” YouTube was still fairly new and flash animation was not yet centralized on only a few main websites. Nerd comedy in particular was not centralized. Opinions on the merits of different videos, different websites, and different styles of this nerd comedy were exchanged, sometimes vociferously. The big band at this point is Paramore; boys like it too. The boy whose birthday it is has someone constrained familiarity with the music scene. He knows a little more about movies and TV. His friends do not live nearby, he does not yet have social media (although he does use LiveJournal), and he spends most of his free time reading. Ten or fifteen years later he will look back on all the reading and be sick of no longer reading so much.

            They get to the McDonalds; unable to buy much, and unwilling, at least in some cases, to gorge themselves on French fries right after the candy bars, they take the tiny plastic cups meant for ketchup and use them to take shots of soda from the soda fountain. Nobody stops them. People may or may not be looking at them. Their metabolisms can take it. The birthday boy will end up a little pudgy in his twenties and excoriate himself for it without surcease or mercy.

            There’s something to glory in in this afternoon. At one time, later, it will be said that this was a very normal day for these boys to have. One of them, at the least, will find meaning in that, and a little happiness, a store to draw from going forward into a later adolescence racked with self-sabotage and trauma. He will lack common sense and be overburdened with romance and mental fever for the rest of his minority. There will be a personal history for him to create. He will sometimes, almost, rise to that task.

Short Story: “A Portrait of Rachel”

At almost twenty-seven years old, Marie Boisjoli had still not entirely outgrown the social dynamics of late adolescence. She had a tendency to default to pithy, doctrinaire opinions of the environments of her youth—high school as a place that could have been a contender in her esteem if certain things had been very different; her first college roundly demonized; UMass Amherst, at least as it had been five years ago, as a flawed wonderland that might have been practically perfect in every way had she only been a couple of years older and wiser when she was there. She had not rediscovered the Catholicism of her childhood until after she had graduated, and now overlaid on the social dynamics of the standard Millennial extended adolescence was the spiritual perspicacity, consisting in tumult, of the short sharp adolescence of a hundred years ago or more. She lived in an artist’s loft in North Adams and skateboarded to Mass.

            When Marie had decided to do a minor in studio arts with an aim towards becoming a professional painter, Shelby P., a friend from high school with whom she had rekindled her acquaintance and conviviality at UMass, had said “Why would you do that, Marie? Someone like you could do something with a much better chance of being remunerative.”

            “Like what? Orgo chem? I’ve seen the way people’s brains get blown out when they do orgo chem. And I’m familiar with how things work in CommColl.”

            “Your brain will get blown out eventually no matter what you do.”

            Shelby P. had said many cheerful things along those general lines since she had resurfaced in Marie’s life. The pessimism was bracing and even clarifying in some situations, such as the agonizing that Marie tended to do about the possibility of dating or marrying the wrong person or somebody to whom she would later turn out not to be attracted, but completely unhelpful in many other situations, such as the agonizing that Marie tended to do about whether she would be able to date or get married at all. Marie had only been on one date since deciding a couple of years ago not to date people who didn’t share her religious beliefs. It had been with a man much older than her who had expressed a distaste for “Millennial artiste types” and tried to walk it back by claiming that Marie was different from the others. She obviously had not trusted his ability to establish this even to her satisfaction, much less his own, after only knowing her for an hour and a quarter, so she had left the date (at an Indian restaurant in Williamstown) early and had had to be talked into sending him an “it’s not you, it’s me” text instead of just cutting him off without warning. The text had literally said, in those exact words, “it’s not you; it’s me”—Marie thought that at the very least he deserved better than a comma splice—to communicate her lack of interest in felicities in breaking this off with him.

            Ever since that point, Marie’s life had mostly been filled with taking commissions. She had never resorted to charging people to draw pictures of their favorite television and comic book characters the way some of her friends had done—she had nothing against doing this; it was just that she didn’t want to jump through the hoops required to convince the people asking for the pictures that she had any real knack for or interest in them. Instead, she took commissions for public murals and things of that nature, sometimes things as simple and unartistic as handywoman painting jobs for private homes, and tried to make the larger and more sporadic lumps of money that she got this way last for as long as she could. She had a deal with her parents for help with rent for her loft in return for coming home and doing some social and emotional heavy lifting around the holidays, a deal that had worked out well for the most part for the two and a half years so far that she had been living here, but she tried to pay for as many of her other needs on her own as she could. She didn’t have much trouble with food and clothes, but medical expenses were occasionally tricky. She didn’t have any car payments because she drove a rusty Ford a year younger than she was that still worked fine but that was so hellaciously ugly to look at that it had been hers for well under three thousand dollars. She only drove it occasionally and, other than home for the holidays, never any further than Pittsfield in one direction or Bennington in the other. For painting gigs that were further afield she took the bus or hitchhiked.

            One winter’s evening, a few days before the coldest night of the year, things started to change. Marie got home to her loft and checked the messages on the land line; she had people call the land line for business calls, partly as a hipster affectation and partly because when she was out and about she didn’t want whatever she was doing to be interrupted by her work. (When she went out for work, she gave her cell number to the person for whom she was doing the job, with a firm request that they not call that number again after the job was finished and not give it to anybody else. Once or twice people had broken the promises that they had made to that effect, but they had had more or less valid reasons for doing so.) There were four messages, of which she assumed, based on past proportions of experience, at least three were liable to be telemarketers or people calling from charitable causes she had donated five dollars to five years ago.

            This time, instead, they were all from one person, who introduced herself as Rachel Kellner, lived in Shutesbury just northeast of Amherst, and wanted her portrait painted.

            “I’d appreciate it if you could do it in a more or less traditional and at least semi-formal style, but I’m not going to be picky,” Rachel said in one of the messages. “I know that you mostly do murals and house painting these days but I have a friend who’s a professor in the UMass art department who said I should give you a call. Rick Stafford. Do you remember him?” Of course Marie remembered Professor Rick. He had taught her both figure drawing and color theory in that horrible semester when she had taken twenty-one credits to get a jump start on her minor. She had thought highly of him and was glad to know that he remembered her. Why he thought that she would make a good formal portraitist on the basis of figure drawing and color theory alone Marie wasn’t sure, but probably some of her other professors had communicated her progress to him after that semester.

            Marie made a point of not googling her clients if she hadn’t heard of them or couldn’t place their names on her own, but she was sure that she had at least heard the name Rachel Kellner somewhere before. She had a vague sense that it had been in some sixties counterculture context that she had heard it, and the voice on the phone had definitely been that of an agéd woman. Shelby P. knew a thing or two about the culture of the sixties but the real expert among Marie’s group of friends was a guy called Phil McCourt whom she had met and briefly almost-dated during her first semester at UMass. After taking a shower she called him up and asked if he knew anything about this Kellner person.

            It turned out that Rachel Kellner had been a Joan Baez-type ingénue folk singer early on in the sixties folk revival whose voice had been destroyed by smoking after a few years and who had briefly resurfaced as a producer for some B-plus-list New Wave bands in the mid-eighties. She would be about seventy-six now. Phil had had no idea that she lived in Western Mass. He did a little more research for Marie—he didn’t have the same compunctions about googling her clients that she did—and found out that in between, and after, her stints in the public eye she had languished in obscurity as a pharmacist and been almost-famous in science fiction circles as a matriarch of the Star Trek: Voyager fan base.

            “She lives in Shutesbury, she said?” he asked Marie over the phone the evening after she got the calls from Rachel (she had instructed Marie in the calls to think of her as Rachel).

            “Yeah,” said Marie. “Don’t google her address, okay? I don’t want you to be a creeper any more than I wanna be one.”

            “Relax; I wasn’t going to. I was just wondering—are you gonna be okay getting there with your car?”

            Marie had given this some thought earlier in the day. Phil was right in his implied assumption that she wasn’t likely to be able to get to Shutesbury by public transit. There was no easy combination of routes to take to even get from North Adams to Amherst, unless she wanted to spend all day getting there and get a hotel room for as long as she was doing the portrait, an option for which she really didn’t have the money right now. Then there was getting from Amherst to Shutesbury, for which there did not seem to exist any public transit at all. It seemed there was not any way around her car braving the Hoosac Range and the Cold River’s ungracious curves. She told Phil that she was sure things would be fine; she wasn’t actually as sure of this as she wished she could be, but all the roads that she would take were reasonably well-traveled as far as she knew until the last leg of the trip, when she turned off Route 116 up something called Bull Hill Road. She could probably stay on well-traveled routes longer if she went down through Amherst, then up the Shays Highway from Pelham, but if her car was going to have trouble anyway then it might be best to keep the route as short as she could.

            “I don’t drive a very good car,” she told Rachel over the phone the next day. “Do you have somewhere I could stay if I need to stay overnight, like a fold-out sofa or something?”

            “Wow. I haven’t hosted in a long time now,” said Rachel. “I don’t have a fold-out but my couch should still be deep enough to sleep on depending on your body type. How big are you?”

            “Five-seven, a hundred and thirty-five pounds or so?” said Marie. She had taught herself, she thought more or less correctly, to resent questions like this, but Rachel had a more valid reason for asking than most so she answered anyway despite the queasy feeling that she got.

            “God, I wish that were me,” said Rachel. “I’m five-four and a hundred and seventyish. But, well, I’m old, and after a certain age you actually look younger if you’re fat, so I guess I shouldn’t complain. Yeah, I think my couch will serve you just fine. Don’t feel the need to disguise anything when you paint me, by the way, the weight or the age or anything else; I want a ‘warts and all’ portrait. Did you see that episode of The Crown?”

            “I don’t watch much TV,” said Marie. “But, yeah, as long as you have a sofa I can use if I need to and a driveway big enough for me to park in, it should be fine. My time is flexible, and I’m guessing you’re retired?” Rachel made an affirmative but not particularly happy noise. “So I can come over whenever you’ll have me.”

            They arranged for a time, a time that was coming quickly. Marie would have to set out only a little bit after midday to be sure of getting to Shutesbury before it started getting dark. Even though the afternoons were getting lighter, they were still well within the part of the year in which they carried a sort of lingering premature senescence that suddenly collapsed into night, inevitably before one would have expected it. Rachel offered to burn some incense for her safe travels. Marie was not sure what to make of that; from somebody her own age it would have been manifestly dead serious or close to it, but it was hard to know just how seriously somebody like Rachel did or did not take ideas like that. If Rachel had just been a folk revival ingénue, or had just been a New Wave impresario, that would have been one thing, and Marie would have had something or other to go by, but the fact that her life had taken so many apparent twists and turns complicated matters. In the end Marie told her to feel perfectly free to burn some incense if she thought that that would help. Marie would, she said, reserve judgment on whether or not she herself thought it might.

            The appointed day and time arrived and Marie set out with her art supplies in the back seat and two changes of clothes in the trunk, plus a hopelessly stretched-out old t-shirt to sleep in. Tomorrow was Sunday; she might have to go to Mass at the UMass Newman Center again. She had not been there in a long time; the last time she had been there, she had been unserious about her faith and only putting in a token appearance on Maundy Thursday because she thought that it might look bad to some super-senior whom she wanted to like her if she didn’t. She wondered how the old place was; she wondered if it would be any less flat and unappealing to her now. The design of the place architecturally and liturgically, she remembered, left things to be desired, but in recent months she had finally made her peace with the relative insignificance of that compared to the sincerity with which the Mass was approached, which obviously would depend upon the priest. She doubted good old Father John was still there, and, indeed, looking it up, it appeared to be someone else now. All in all she had high but nervous hopes.

            She got to Shutesbury just as the sun was westering and the bare trees beginning to cast their shadows more heavily than before. She pulled into the short but sinuous driveway at Rachel’s A-frame set back modestly into the woods and parked next to a beaten-up old Subaru. The tree line melted back from the road to encompass it like a bezel. There were a couple of chickens strutting around the narrow and scantily snow-dusted lawn.

            Marie strode confidently up to the house with her box of charcoals in one hand and her easel in the other. She would be taking some studies on a sketchpad that she carried in the same box as the charcoals before, either tomorrow if she stayed over or some other day if she decided to leave after dark after all, breaking out the canvas frames and acrylic paints that she had left in the trunk of the Ford. Rachel had specified that she wanted to be painted in acrylic, possibly as a gesture to the difficulty that Marie was already going to face in getting this commission done. The idea that it was inherently and significantly easier to do good, serious paintings in acrylics than in oils was a myth as far as Marie was concerned, but she couldn’t blame a layperson for believing it, and for all she knew there might be other, fabulously well-thought-out reasons for Rachel to prefer acrylics to which Marie was not privy.

            There was no doorbell—it looked like one might have been there at one time, but if so, Rachel had removed it to make room for a mezuzah—so Marie knocked on the door harder and harder until Rachel answered it. She would appear to have been taking a nap; she was in a nightgown that swept the floor around her and had a sleep mask pushed haphazardly up over her forehead. Her hair was snow-white but beautifully lustrous and the lines on her face were fine and shallow, maybe because of the pudge on her cheeks. “Marie!” she said. “Good to see you; come on in!” She was acting as if their phone correspondence had extended and metamorphosed into a long acquaintanceship; perhaps, in the weird stretches and compressions of time that Marie had heard were for many people a part of old age, that was how it felt. Marie said a few polite words and Rachel led her into the house. In addition to the chickens a dog was in evidence; there was a dog bed with lots of fur shed in it and more moderate amounts of fur shed on most of the other upholstered surfaces in the living room. It looked like there was a kitchen behind this room; one other room on this floor, which looked like an addition to the house off to the left, not readily visible from the driveway; and a screen door that led to an enclosed porch on the other side of the kitchen. The living room had a pellet stove opposite the couch on which Marie guessed she was going to be sleeping. The bathroom must be upstairs.

            “I sure hope you like seitan because we’re going to be having a lot of it tonight,” said Rachel. “I cooked a ton of it up the other day with some mushroom and eggplant and dijon mustard. Of course, none of it’s fresh, but I got it from cold storage at a farm up in Montague so it can’t be nearly as bad as if I’d just gotten it at the supermarket. You okay with that?”

            “Yes, that’s absolutely all right,” said Marie. “It—can I ask, do you drive, Rachel?”

            “Yes, of course I drive; the Subaru’s out there in the driveway, isn’t it?; I live alone and it’s not like I can get around and get done what I need to get done on foot, living out here.” She waved her hand. “At my age there are only a few places I really know how to get to, though; some would say you get stuck in a rut after a while. I would have said that at your age. Now I just say I’ve become set in my ways.”

            They made more small talk of this kind—Marie told Rachel a little bit about her church and Rachel told Marie a little bit about her most recent synagogue. Then Rachel showed Marie around the living room. The pellet stove was burning, though not exactly crackling hot. Next to it was a stack of books with titles ranging from The Trump Prophecies to Zowie! It’s YAOI and from The Mirror of True Womanhood: A Book of Instruction for Women in the World to Bi: Notes for a Bisexual Revolution. Marie decided to suspend judgment on Rachel’s reading habits, especially since she suspected that the books’ placement next to the pellet stove might be suggestive of something.

            “That half-wit dog is still upstairs, I guess,” said Rachel. “Normally she sleeps in that dog bed over there but she comes into my room to sleep with me every few days or so. I was taking a nap before you got here, if you couldn’t tell.”

            “I could tell,” said Marie. “—Rachel, can I ask if you have any kids or grandkids who visit?” She hoped that her concern for a seventy-six-year-old woman living alone in a place like this wasn’t too obvious to Rachel. It probably, regrettably, was.

            “I have kids, yes, but we don’t see much of one another,” said Rachel, “which is a shame. Love was free in the sixties but then the cold light of day hit and we all found out that you really do get what you pay for. I’m guessing your generation is realizing much the same thing.”

            Marie considered cautiously how she wanted to respond to this. The psycho-spiritual consensus, which she had heard from both friends and her therapist late in high school and in college, had been that casual sex was fine and potentially even psychosexually clarifying every now and then, but was the sort of thing best not made a habit of. That had been the standard to which she had held herself, generally successfully, until the last four or five years. She had heard that it was technically a more restrained standard than those of the last couple of generations when they had been young adults. “We’ve realized it,” she eventually said, “but I think I’ve probably realized it more than most people.”

            “Could you talk to people at your church about it, maybe?” suggested Rachel.

            Marie rolled her eyes. “Why would people at my church understand…you know what? Never mind. Do you mind if I do some hand and face studies starting in a few minutes? You won’t need to get dressed up for that and I’d like to get it out of the way while there’s still a combination of indoor and outdoor light. It won’t take too long but you will have to sit very still.”

            “Don’t a lot of artists do these kinds of studies from photographs these days?”

            “Some do, yeah, but I’m not one of them. I’d be more willing to do it for your face than for your hands if we end up having to do it; I do have a pretty good Nikon in my car, and hands are trickier to do studies of than faces.”

            “I can believe it. I know my hands have given me a lot more trouble than my face has over the years.”

            “Yes,” said Marie. “Well. In any case. I’ll take my stuff out and then let’s begin, shall we?”

 ❦

Rachel sat admirably still, much stiller than Marie had gone into the day afraid that she was going to. Her concept of an eccentric elderly woman, as a general sort or type or condition of person, could not accommodate an image of this kind of stillness. There was a grandeur to her even in her nightgown with her sleep mask now hanging around her neck.

            At one point Marie paused in the middle of a study of Rachel’s left hand from the right to go to the bathroom. Rachel directed her into the room off to the left, the extension not readily visible from the drive. “There’s a shower in there, a sink, and a bidet,” she said. “If you have to do number two then you’ll have to use the outhouse. It’s up a path about forty feet into the trees. I hope you’re not afraid of the dark.”

            “Not in particular,” said Marie, and went to the outhouse. When she got back, the dog, an Irish setter that she could tell had the characteristics typical of her breed, was lolling with her head sprawled across Rachel’s outstretched feet and her long pink tongue trailing along the floor.

            “This is Rosanna,” said Rachel. “Marie, say hi to Rosie; Rosie, say hi to Marie.”

            “Hi, Rosie,” said Marie. She squatted down to run her hand through the setter’s fur. The fur was silky but did not smell very good. Rosie did not seem ill-served or poorly taken care of, only old and unwell. She wondered how long Marie had had her. She looked at least ten years old—from this angle Marie could suddenly see quite a bit of silver around her muzzle—but with some more-than-residual happiness overlaid on the stupidity. Rosie reached up to lick Marie’s hand, then clambered to her feet.

            “Rosie, shake,” said Rachel, and Rosie proffered her paw for shaking, then lumbered back upstairs. “Dumb as a box of hammers but Lord do I love her,” said Rachel.

            Marie asked something she had been wanting to ask for a while now. “I don’t do much research on my clients,” she said, “so I have to ask—what New Wave band was it, exactly, that you were a producer for?”

            “Mostly Eyes in Their Last Extremity and Tinúviel,” said Rachel, “but I did some work with Patrick Morkan and His Horse right before I retired again. It was a weird world to come back into, twenty years after being the girl who used to be the future of American songwriting.” Marie decided not to pursue the possibility that Rachel might be exaggerating her accomplishments. She was saying this hieratically rather than conversationally.

            This attitude continued when they talked more about Rachel’s past over their seitan dinner. Her tone of voice was technically casual and conversational, but Marie had a hard time shaking the feeling that this tone was itself being dispensed, dolloped out, from some source deep beneath the sea or in a cavern deep in the earth. Rachel had cooked the seitan skillfully and it held the flavor of the mustard very well; the same flavor was a little less thoroughly in evidence in the mushrooms and eggplant, so the dish as a whole tasted a little uneven, but by no means bad. Gradually Marie came to suspect that she was on the verge of being chosen for something. It was not a comfortable feeling, especially since she had already been chosen to be Rachel Kellner’s portraitist, surely an honor worth at least a little more than Marie had assumed at first. She wondered how Rachel would have treated another portraitist, someone older maybe, or male. She liked to imagine it would have been different enough to make it worth comparing notes.

            “Before I started singing in the Village I was in my high school glee club,” Rachel said after dinner with the apparent expectation that this should somehow be reflected in the eventual portrait of her, “and, later, a holiday season sales clerk at a middle-end department store in uptown Manhattan.”

            “Are you a New York City native?” asked Marie.

            “Yes. You could hear it in my speaking voice until about 1982. You?”

            “No,” said Marie, who was disoriented enough to interpret this question as an insinuation that she was also from New York, “I’ve only ever been to the city a couple of times and only ever on day trips. My family’s from Central Mass.”

            “Boisjoli, is that a French Canadian name?” Marie nodded. “During my pharmacist days I would take trips up to Montreal to see Leonard Cohen sometimes before he was Leonard Cohen.” As Marie looked at her while she said this, a shadow played over her opening and closing jaw in a way that she would probably not be able to get any sketches or studies of but might want to try to include or at least allude to somehow in the final painting. “Anyway, it’s a much easier name to wrap your teeth around than Tanizaki or Buxtehude or the other names you encounter all over the place in a place like New York.” This statement, which escaped a firm verdict of being racist mostly because of Rachel’s less-than-invidious tone of voice in saying it, was nevertheless a much more reactive and closed-off sentiment than Marie would have expected from someone with Rachel’s life, septuagenarian or not, but it would have been an abdication of professional virtues and standards for Marie to say so out loud.

            “Rachel, can I ask what your politics are?” asked Marie, who figured it was at least slightly more acceptable to broach this if she did so as a question.

            “My politics are exactly what you’d expect. My opinion of the way those have been put into place is what’s different. Like I said, you really do get what you pay for.” Marie motioned for Rachel to turn her head a little to the left so Marie could get in a sketch of the way a curlicue of her hair fell over her temple. “I dabbled in saying I was ‘politically neutral’ but I realized that that just made me sound complicit rather than wise. I’d love to say it took the Iraq War or something of that sort for me to realize that but, actually, it was Star Trek: Voyager fandom.”

            “May I ask what aspects of Star Trek: Voyager fandom?” asked Marie, who had never resorted to charging people to draw pictures of their favorite television and comic book characters the way some of her friends had done.

            “You don’t know me well enough to ask that question. Let’s just say nobody was focusing enough on our common enemy.”

            “And who was the common enemy?”

            “The people who wrote Star Trek: Voyager. How did you like your seitan? You seemed to be enjoying it but you didn’t actually say.”

            “I liked it pretty well, thank you.”

            Such was the rest of their evening. At a little after nine, Rachel went out to feed the chickens and make sure they had come in from the cold; Rosie ran around the little yard for a little bit while Rachel was out there, barking at the cold and the dark and nothing else in particular, then ran back in just as enthusiastically and flopped down in the dog bed in the living room. Marie, who had already been to the bidet a couple of times since dinner by this point, took the opportunity to take her leave and make her way to the outhouse again when Rachel came back in. The tree-line now was tense, less gracious, and encompassed rather than embracing. The trees that poked up against the long-since-descended night were weird and harshly lit from the lights inside the A-frame, their branches shooting jaggedly up like lighting shooting from the ground up into the sky. Marie decided to stay outside for a few minutes, shivering, with a feeling of defiance that had suddenly and not really explicably come over her. She had no desire to defy her subject, but something about the world in which her subject lived felt stultifying and possibly oppressive despite its countercultural self-presentation.

            When she got back inside, Rachel looked liable to get ready to go back to sleep; when Marie asked, she said that she was doing just that. “I know people your age tend to prefer to stay up later,” Rachel said. “I’m sorry if there’s not that much around to entertain you. I don’t have a TV, just a laptop, or I’d give you my Netflix password.”

            “That’s okay,” said Marie. “I brought reading material. And I can watch Netflix on my phone if I really need to.”

            “Do you get reception out here?”

            “Yeah, like one bar.”

            “Okay.” Rachel shrugged. “Suit yourself. I’m sure Rosie’d like it if you could rub her belly a little too. Good night! I’ll try not to wake you up if I come down early.”

            Marie had mostly good but strange and tumultuous dreams on the sofa that night. In one, she was back at a concert in Fenway Park that she had not attended, but had heard from a couple of blocks away, when she had visited friends in Boston about three and a half years ago. The music took shape and color and the notes swarmed around her like friends and enemies. In another dream she was at her first college again talking to a boy whom she had liked from afar while she was there. He was frustrated with her, with the person she had become. He had been a few years older than her—he would not be in any sense a boy any more, really—but a boy he was in the dream nevertheless. She woke up frustrated with him, and with herself. She wondered what Lewis was doing these days. The last she had heard of him had been when she had made an ill-judged remark about his sister over email while he was away in Costa Rica. He had never spoken to her again after coming back.

            The last dream that Marie had, or at least the last one that she remembered upon waking, was of going home for the holidays as a middle-aged woman with a husband and several young children. This one was tumultuous because midway through the dream she realized that the person sitting at the head of the table for the Christmas Eve dinner was not her father but Tesla and SpaceX founder Elon Musk. Musk told everybody at the table that the world was at a crossroads. Marie took his word for it.

            In the morning, she woke up before Rachel was downstairs, but definitely not before she was awake; she was laughing at something that she was presumably either reading or watching on her laptop. Marie called up the stairs that she was awake and waited for Rachel to come on down. She did not have to wait long; Rachel came down, exchanged polite words, and hopped in the shower. Breakfast, Marie guessed, could wait.

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After breakfast, they got back to sitting and sketching. Rachel was even chattier this morning than she had been last night. She and Marie discussed “Boisjoli” a little more and Marie mentioned that she had been to both Québec City and the South of France on Spring Break trips—the first in high school, the second when at UMass. Rachel grilled Marie on her impressions of France and Marie, who liked some aspects of French culture but could not stand others, went on a gut instinct that she could be honest with Rachel and got into some depth about it. Rachel developed this weird sneering expression but then settled back into affability and reasonableness.

            Out of the blue she asked Marie if she wanted children and Marie evaded the question rather than giving Rachel the “yes” that she desperately wanted to give. She did not want to get her own or anybody else’s hopes up. Rachel called very small children “anklebiters.” It turned out that she had four of them, by three different fathers, the first of whom she had been married to before his death from some disease about which she was maddeningly vague and the other two of whom she had had loving and sincere but in the final analysis transient relationships with in her late thirties. They had all gravitated towards either Florida or South Carolina, a part of the country that seemed to have a weird gravitational pull on a certain type of person that Marie had noticed several times before in conversations with other people.

            “Some people just can’t stand some stern weather,” said Rachel. “I dabbled in feeling that way myself at one time.” Marie felt this odd and fierce fondness for the way she said that she had dabbled in it, as if it had been a feeling that she could control and deliberately cultivate. Maybe it had been. In that case she definitely hadn’t had the inveterate, physical lapsed constitution in the face of cold that she knew a lot of other people did. Marie had heard from several acquaintances that humans simply had not evolved for this kind of weather, and she could believe it, but she would not have been willing to give up the changes of the seasons for anything, even though this winter being colder and wetter than the last two made it hard for her to get to Mass some Sundays.

            She took four or five pictures apiece of Rachel’s face from five different angles—from the front, full profiles from both sides, and three-quarters profiles from both sides. She used flash, she disabled flash, she put the camera on automatic and let the flash do what it may. She filled up half of her sketchpad with charcoals of Rachel’s hands and a few studies of the way the light hit her face and clothing that the camera couldn’t capture. Rachel wanted a portrait sitting down, from the knees up, with her hands folded in her lap—a more traditional posture than Marie, before meeting her, would have expected from someone with her background and profile.

            “Should I break out the easel?” she asked, finally.

            “Sure,” said Rachel. “Do you think you can finish today?”

            Marie raised her eyebrows. “Do you expect me to finish today?”

            “I’m not sure what to expect. What should I?”

            “You should expect that I’ll be able to get the basic strokes in today, ask you to approve the basic concept of the painting, then leave either later today or tomorrow morning and finish the painting from the sketches and photos I have when I get back to North Adams. I can drive it over to you or ship it to you at some later point and you can pay me the rest of my commission then. Does that sound okay to you?”

            “Sure,” said Rachel, noncommittally but accommodatingly. “By the way, and there’s no reason I really need to ask this so feel free to tell me I’m overstepping my bounds, but shouldn’t you have gone to Mass this morning?”

            “Oh, shit,” said Marie. “Is there anywhere around here that does Sunday afternoon or Sunday evening Masses?”

            “How should I know? I think the Newman Center at UMass might. You went there, didn’t you?”

            “Sure did,” said Marie. “I guess that’s what I’ll do.”

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They spent the rest of the day discussing the painting together—Rachel wanted a non-naturalistic color scheme for her clothing but wanted her features and hair to be true-to-life, all while not caring very strongly about the lighting and the placement of elements, which Marie thought was a confusing set of prescriptions—and Marie executed as much of it as she could before the sun went down. Then she arranged to spend one more night here—she would take a shower after getting back from Mass—and drove into Amherst, planning to go to the seven o’ clock Mass and then have a late dinner at one of the restaurants on North Pleasant Street.

            She found the Newman Center changed, but not much. The priest was new, and the vaguely unpleasant feeling that she had in the past gotten when she would go to Mass here had lessened considerably, probably due more to changes within her own self-concept than to any changes in the Newman Center. She was not sure how bad some of her sins were so she took communion without having asked for confession before Mass. Then she went to a Tibetan restaurant, of all things, in Amherst Center and had an uncharacteristically sumptuous dinner of boiled bread, dumplings, and a saucy potato dish, paid for with a check that she wrote in anticipation of the down payment going through on her commission like Rachel had promised her before her arrival.

            She drove back to Shutesbury with her high beams on for the whole way once she got out of North Amherst—there were a couple of cars that she passed but she forgot to turn the high beams off when she passed them; one of them honked at her. When she got back she finally familiarized herself with the bathroom, which she had used only very briefly and diffidently earlier in the day, for long enough to take a shower.

            “How was Mass?” asked Rachel.

            Marie shrugged, but she felt like doing more than shrugging. The shower was a peace and a comfort, her third of the night so far. The night wore on and got colder. Rachel put more wood pellets in the stove and snuggled up with Rosie.